It's getting real

Things are getting real, real quick.  I have all the paperwork that I need from Malaysia and basically need to start filling it out so I can scan it and send it back to them.  It's getting really scary for me as I am going to be leaving in about 3 weeks to be gone for 4 months.  Part of me needs to remember and remind myself that I am only scared because there are a lot of unknowns going into this and it's going to be okay.  I am going to make it since this is an extremely exciting opportunities.

To be seriously honest though, it's because of a lot of unknowns and loose strings that have not been tied up that I am scared.

Why am I so hopeful when there seems very little hope? (Because deep down inside, I feel like I still see a glimmer and maybe a glimmer is all I need.)  Sigh.

Heartache seems to be second nature to me.  I should figure out when things are just not meant to be.