Inner Demons

I feel like I am going through a deja vu period of this summer.   Things are getting to be too much for me again.  The only thing that is good for this time is that I have the constant daily support of one person who has been amazing for me over the last five months.

I feel like I am constantly battling myself.  I know that I have a lot to live for and that's why I am here.  Sometimes it's honestly that I am too scared to do anything and that's why I am still here on this earth.  PLUS, too many people depend on me and need be to be here for me to not be here.

It's tough.  I am starting to feel the bad come to surface but I know it's a daily fight that I have to keep dealing with.  Can I win?  I don't know but at least for now, I have to fight.