Pit of my stomach

So even after Thursday's night's game, I still have a bad feeling.  I had fun hanging out with friends and enjoying their company but i disliked the feeling of acting almost like strangers.  It's still a sick feeling in my stomach.

When it was just the two of us, I didn't feel comfortable with his behaviors that were similar to things he would do when we were a couple.  It blurs the lines.

I just want us to be friends.  I miss him.