Getting a little help

So I've been experiencing some pain again in my abdominal region, more than I have experienced in a while and being that it has been 10 weeks post-op, it's been kind of unexpected for me.  I feel it is partially a physical manifestation of what I am going through emotionally since I've been doing a lot better emotionally this time.

I took my painkillers last night, the first time in a long time and I'm noticing I am feeling it this morning, some minor pain but its been over 4-6 hours so it makes sense.  I also decided to take my anti-depressant, at a lower dosage.  I cut the pill in half since the whole one made me nauseated last time.  It seem to work as I am not feeling bad this time but we'll see if it really makes a difference later.

I have always been NOT big on medication BUT I am worried that there will be an eventual breakdown and that is not acceptable.  This is my preemptive  strike.