Burning ears

I've been awake for a while as my alarm as been going off for the past almost two hours.  As my last alarm at 8:30 am starting going off, thoughts of him crossed my mind.  My brain was debating whether just to send a simple text saying good morning.  A few minutes later, I received a text from him wishing me luck.  Part of me wanted to respond with "were your ears burning since I was thinking of you?" but passed on it.

Though I want to respect him and his boundaries, I've been doing a horrible job at it.  So I resisted.  I did my five minute meditation.  I took some time to continue to breathe and try to center myself and now I'm letting it out by writing.

Today is an important day for me though I need to think of it as just another day before I psych myself out which I think I am.  (Hello Valium!)

Time to get ready for my day!