Progress or regression?

We talked last night.  It was a good talk with what I felt like was positive movement towards reconciliation.  It may just be my looking for the positive, I don't know.  I knew last night, I went to bed feeling okay.

I woke up physically feeling pain.  Moving around and positioning myself on the bed, I can feel the hardness and it shifting about inside of me.  I feel like in nine days I may feel like a completely new person with a mark for life.

I've had my hopes up all day and so far nothing.  I am not sure what to think but I'm noticing that two days of progress have been undone by one conversation.  I know I need to stay focus on my personal health and well-being.  My conversation with a good friends made me feel better ad I feel like I know of things I can continue to work on.

Positive thoughts please.  I need them.