One week ago...one week to go.

So it's been a week and I know I'm still feeling as sad about all the happenings.  I have made progress in that I haven't cried over the past two days when I think about what happened.  I know I still have fight in me as I don't want to give up on this relationship but at the same time I know I have one week left to go before my surgery.  He hasn't spoken to me since Saturday which has been hurtful to me but I know he has his reasons and I have to learn to respect it.

I feel like he's given up on me...something that hurts but I guess it's fair as he probably felt the same thing last week.  I don't know how to tell him that I haven't given up on him or us but I am thinking he is tired of hearing all of that.

 I know I need to think healthy right now as I have been feeling more pain than normal.  My emotional and mental well-being is the most important right  now.  Even if my heart is breaking, I gotta keep the smile on my face and keep moving on right now.