My toughest (my choice) struggle...

I actually try not to think about things too much.  I really do.  I keep busy during the day with the girls and have been trying to make some plans for the rest of my recovery time.

Every day I struggle whether I should be in contact with him.  If I should say hi and see how he is doing, in general, with work, his paper, etc.  I miss him dearly but I'm trying to respect his space.  I'm always scared if that is a bad thing because I NEVER want him to think that I don't still love him but at the same time, he needs his time and I guess I need mine too.

He pops up in my dreams and I don't know how to process it outside of I eventually forget the details of my dreams hours later.

Do I keep him in my heart because I love him and I hope that maybe we can work things out one day or do I just let it go?