Lyrics and Advice

After almost a month, I decided to return to Facebook.  The isolation is killing me.

I started to read some stories on my feed and loved this one story about Taylor Swift and her advice to a young fan on "unrequited love."   Link to the story

 "You are loving someone purely because you love them, not because you think you'll ever have your affections reciprocated. You are admiring something for its beauty, without needing to own it. Feel good about being the kind of person who loves selflessly. I think someday you'll find someone who loves you in that exact same way."

It made me think.  It made me feel better.  It validated my feelings on the type of love I want in a relationship: selfless, beautiful and kind.

Music helps me heal and contemplate at the same time.  I heard this song by Sara Bareilles tonight who has now become one of my favorites.  The very end of the song...

Won't somebody come on in and tug at my seams?
Oh, send your armies in of robbers and thieves
To steal the state I'm in I don't want it anymore
You're begging for the truth
So I'm saying it to you
I've been saving your place
And what good does it do?
Now I'm just a basket case

Complete lyrics

Right now I don't think I'll ever be okay.  I knew how I felt for him and it still makes no sense to me that our first real fight was the end.  It hurts because it makes me feel like our relationship wasn't as important to him as it was to me.