Another morning...

I am awake.  Apparently at some point, the medication worked and calmed me down.  I am glad I still have some to take, when necessary.  It may be something I consider asking my doctor about if things continue you this way.  

I read this article this morning on HelloGiggles about how to stop waiting for your relationship to fail.  It made me think about things and how I probably shouldn't be beating up myself for how things unfolded.  At the end of the day, I did nothing wrong as I probably acted in an understandable way.  Here is a link to the rest of the article!

I know I need to stop looking for validation but reading this helped.  Last night, I got to speak with a girl friend that I love dearly, almost like an older sister.  Ten years ago (wow!) we spent a fun, crazy single girls summer.  We reminisced and then talked about how relationships have changed us over the years.  It was reaffirming to know someone knew what I was going through and to know that it would be okay.

I know deep in my heart, right now, I want to fix things but I can't be the only one who desires it.  Her words last night were the beginning towards seeing the cuts scab over and slowly begin to mend.  Hopefully I am ready because I need to be.  There are opportunities, non relationship related, ahead of me that I need to be prepared for.