KETCHUP!!!

so it's been a long freaking time since i blogged! i need to get better at this! its called pure LAZINESS! to be honest, i've been blogging on myspace. normally when i do that, i end up copying and pasting it over here too but i didnt do that. it's okay..they're documented...

well lets go through some things...

WORK - well san jose is now out of the picture...the new location is columbus, ohio. am i going? not sure. i gotta kick ass to go. im not sure what i'm gonna do if i dont get picked to go. only 7 people are going, 4 spots go to 1st gen and then the last 3 spots are up for grabs. do i know what's gonna happen? no... am i worried? not sure... whatever happens happens!

tonight was pretty enjoyable with work. we went to joe's crab shack and they had karaoke. that was fun. i enjoy stupid things like that. i need to karaoke more!!

BOY(S) - its really plural but i have to think of the topic as a collective! no longer frustrated with it only because i kinda took the initiative to understand it. i was starting to put myself back into a 'Doug' scenario. to be honest, i dont know if i would want that to happen again, esp if it ends in the same freaking way! blah! i need to learn to enjoy life and boys. have fun and when it happens, it happens!

i'm sure there are more things to write about but im actually gonna address some things first before i forget or pass out for the evening!

FRIENDS - i have the greatest friends in the world! the last couple of weeks is when i've needed them the most and they've definitely been there for that! i appreciate all of that, for whatever it's worth! =)


**MY ANONYMOUS COMMENTER-ER!!!**
i just wanted to address you directly!

first and foremost, thank you for commenting and somewhat having a conversation with me thru my blog! it makes me feel all warm and fuzz (haha) to know that someone else out there is reading my thoughts and probably judging me/figuring me out/making fun of me, etc out there! its always a nice surprised to get an email about how someone is actually reading my blog and commenting! =)

sexual frustration...sure..there's some of that but i long figured out that you just gotta take care of that kinda stuff yourself if need me! ;-) (it was quite a momentous occasion when that day came over 5 years ago. i know the guys were cheering me on for that realization!) but if you, Mr. Anonymous Comment-er wanna help somehow, i'm sure i wouldnt be tooo opposed to it, especially if you're volunteering! lol

but yeah, show yourself...especially if i know you! allow me to thank you for reading my thoughts when you have the time....