so this is what frustration is....

UGH! boys...are...FRUSTRATING!! (i dont even want to say MEN because i have a feeling im not dealing with men! men require some type of maturity!)

i've dealt with 'sexual frustration' and even that isnt as frustrating as what i'm going through right now!

i think my problem is i dont know when to just give in and give up. my determination is always geared at the WRONG things! i dont get it. i really dont get it at all!

This Guy...

so i met this guy a couple of weeks ago and i had a major crush on him. why? i'm not exactly sure. i think it was more or less because i found him to be one of those genuinely good people. i'm all about good people! we have soo much in common (in my opinion) that it's CRAZY!

i got the opportunity to get to know him better last week and took it. =) i had a blast spending time with him and getting to know him better and all that jazz! i mean, you're bound to get to know a person real quick if you're sleeping in their room right? he was nice enough to let me stay with him while i was out of town for work.

the only crappy part about all of this is i'm probably moving to san jose by mid October. honestly, i'm not sure what i'm doing but i figure why not! i only live once and how often do you get the chance to meet people that you can relate with!

i'm going to try to NOT think too much about it but those of you who know me know how i work...we'll see if i stick it out!

wish me good luck!

Austin...last shows this week ONLY!

so this might be my last time in Austin for a long time! i'm not sure how that's gonna work right but we'll see what happens...

so im lying in bed at the moment..unfortunately as you can tell, i'm not sleepy which is a bad thing since i have work early in the morning! booo! =( i'm hoping i'll fall asleep soon so that i'll be able to wake up in the morning!

soo this might be my last chance in austin since i'm suppose to be moving to San Jose in 4-6 weeks. more on that at another time because it deserves its own post!

some goals for the week:
1. to do all the austin things i havent done in a while
2. to hang out with all my austin friends before i head out
3. to hang out with the austin office before i leave
4. do anything that i may wanna do and wrap up before i head out of state for an undisclosed amount of time

i'm kinda excited about this week as long as i make some money soo lets hope that happens!

till next time...hopefully that too long from now! =)