Expiration Dates

Everything HAS an expiration date. Milk lasts for about a week and a half while the organic milk can lasts for a two months or so! (I'm not sure the EXACT amount..all I know is that it's surprisingly LONGER than normal milk.) Mascara has a six month lifespan while the majority of makeup products last for a good 24 months! (But you should toss it out after a while because of all that buggies that start growing on them after a while!)

Heck! WE (humans that is) even have expiration dates. It's just that we call it something else....DEATH! Some of us expire later than others because we made sure to take extra good care of ourselves so that are innards didn't rot. Others of us, no matter how hard we try, our innards will rot regardless! =(

So why am I writing about expiration dates? Is it because I found some old cheese in the back of the fridge? (No..but I'm sure there's some yogurt back there that I need to toss!) Is it because I wanted to use the words rot and innards for no apparent reason? (Maybe...but that's another issue in and of itself! hehe) It's actually because of Montel...Williams, not Jordan!

I was watching Montel (or however it's spelled) the other afternoon and he had psychic Sylvia Browne on (who I think is totally awesome..especially if she really is for real!) and they spoke to a lady who apparently had REALLY bad luck with men...like I'm talking about chillin' with the FELONS! EEK! Sylvia told her that she would meet Mr. Right in 6 years. haha! Craziness! But anyways, the point is Montel said that EVERY person has an expiration date. When they're times up, let them go!

So here I ask, do all relationships REALLY have expiration dates?

It's obvious! YES! We just don't realize it or want to acknowledge it. I mean, it's a bit difficult to think "we're going to only be together for the one week, six months, two years, a decade, a quarter century, etc and it'll be over!" It's almost as bad to think friendships are like that but I KNOW that SOME friendships are TIMED because they serve a purpose! Relationships must be the same way.

I think if I went into (almost) everyone potential relationship with the idea that there is an expiration date (30 minutes, 2 days, 1 week, a month, etc,) it would make the whole dating process easier for me!

Maybe I should just take a chill pill! That could make things a lot easier!! =)



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HOLD UP!! It's a TWO-4-ONE special!! =)

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I'm Not Ready

So I came to the realization the other day that I'm not ready to let someone into my life. I've come to realize that it's going to take a VERY SPECIAL person to come into my life and convince me that it's worth taking the chance.

What brought me to this realization??

I was talking to one of my former students the other day. He usually calls me every one and a while to update me with what's going on at school, his life, whatever. While we were talking, various subjects came up. Somehow the topic switched to relationships and I ended up talking about Doug. It was here that it all came full circle to explain the last three years of my life.

So lets rewind back to about April 2004. I was graduating in a month and things with Doug were awesome. We'd been talking more regularly and hanging out every once and a while (and it wasn't just going downtown!) He was being more open to me and telling me more things, making me feel a little bit more part of his life. We definitely were NOT dating but sometimes, in the back of my mind, I wondered if this is what it was like for busy professionals to date! There was a drunken Doug night where we had this LONG conversation online. He was trying to get me to be impulsive the night before my TeXeS exam. "Let's fly to Vegas!" Crazy drunk ass! But during that night, he asked me to stay in Austin, claiming that he would take care of me since I offered him the excuse that in Houston, I would be more financially stable. It was the weirdest thing in the world for me. He wanted me to stay but would probably NEVER tell me in a SOBER state of mind!

In retrospect, I realized that I would have stayed for him if he had asked me. If he had just told me to stay to see what the possibilities of US could be, I would have! Can you believe that? I would have changed my ENTIRE LIFE to be with a man who had NEVER told me he LIKED me, CARED about me, ANYTHING!!! I would have done it just to EXPLORE THE POSSIBILITIES!! Crazy huh? (I was definitely more of a risk-taker back then when it came to matters of the heart! *sigh*) But then again, he never asked me and I never stayed.

I think it's THIS realization that has scared me! I would have done so much for a guy who never told me how he felt. Granted I always ASSUMED something because of his actions but ASSUMPTIONS get you NOWHERE!

*SIGH* What would my life have looked like if he had retrieved his balls and manned up!! Would I be married with a kid on the way? (hahaha..no kid yet I would hope but who knows! But DAMN, it would have been a BEAUTIFUL baby!) WHO KNOWS! Or maybe things wouldn't have worked out but I would have met Mr. Wonderful after him. I don't know.

All I know is that the next guy has some work to do.