Apologize...

i've been listening to this One Republic song over and over again. . .i kinda feel that way right now. i finally made a decision and it reminds me of an episode of SATC. Samantha broke up with her formally cheating (and from the end of the episode STILL cheating) boyfriend because she loved herself more. it was also when she gave him back the pearl thong...haha!

i'm one to take chances...i have before. i think that things have happened to me where i don't wanna get hurt...obviously! NO ONE WANTS TO GET HURT!

tonight, i chose myself. it could be a good decision, it could be a bad decision but the MOST important part of it all is that it was MY decision. (i have a feeling that i'm gonna regret it..i let go of something that was starting to mean a lot to me...)

i'll be honest...in a way, i wanted him to say something more...it's silly but i wanted him to fight with me more about it, instead of being so accepting of my decision. i didn't want to make it into a 'test.' my decision definitely wasn't for that purpose...but sometimes, you wouldn't mind it!

in the end, i think i just came to realize what i want i cant get from him. it sucks because i honestly think that if he could, he would give me the world. EVERY GIRL NEEDS TO MEET A GUY WHO WILL GIVE HER THE WORLD...AND MORE!

read the lyrics...listen to the song...there's a Timbaland remix of it..i like that version better..but thats me! enjoy...and good night...finally!

OneRepublic - 'Apologize'

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

Bridge (guitar/piano)

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...