Random Musings...

i always title my blogs that when i have a lot of different topics to write about and have no specific title to give!

R.I.P. Shizzle
my dog passed away this past week. he was one good dog. i think its gonna be a while, if ever, till i have a dog again. i hope you're happy and at peace in doggy heaven...love ya lots baby!

i have an interview tomorrow. it's not a DREAM job but its something. i figure if i wanted to get into sales, i should start somewhere so i applied to CarMax. i dunno how wonderful i'll be at selling cars but we'll see. its JUST an interview! if i make it past this, we'll see what happens! right about now, i just need a steady job! whatever happens, i just dont want it running into my volunteer schedule on saturdays! i love going to AFH and hanging out with my saturday afternoon crew!

i'm also considering doing partylite! i've always liked candles but never been really big on burning them...makes no sense right?? i got the door prize (a free voltive - yeah!) at my friend's candle show. i burned it last night and DAMN it smelled good! i'm hosting a party next thursday, not THIS thursday. im hoping i'll have friends who'll show up and enjoy some candles with me! =)

i got the new Artic Monkeys cd...FINALLY on saturday! it's soooooo good! i love it all! i'm really disappointed that they're not coming to texas though! booooo! BAD MONKEYS!! =( if i had money, i would make a trip out to see them...they'll be in the country till may 20th then off to europe! ahhh who knows! maybe they'll come back eventually...i hope! *fingers crossed*

brutal killings...it seems in the last couple of weeks, there's been a lot of crazy shootings around the nation. yesterday one happened in KC at a mall. i happened to know someone who lives there that i texted just to make sure everything was okay...i was kinda shocked when he called me back, just to tell me he was okay. i dunno. there's more to the story there but i dont care to share. but seriously people, if you've got some issues, work them out! therapists, as expensive as they may be, are there for a reason! so are your friends! USE THEM!

so i found out about a week ago that one of my really good friends is moving to NYC in the next month or so...its kinda crazy! she originally left me a message saying she had some news for me...being in our mid-20s, usually having news mean two things: i'm engaged or i'm pregnant! it was neither! haha! i love this girl a lot..i've known her forever and even though we dont talk as much as i would like but i'm still gonna miss the idea that she wont be in austin when i visit! (i blogged about this last monday!

im starting week four of working out. so far, after completing 3 weeks, i've only skipped two days! yeah me! that's pretty good if i say so myself! i might have loss a POUND! haha..damn! i need to start watching what i eat since i tend to eat more when i work out! =( that's not helping the losing weight aspect of things but at least i'm starting to feel really good! minus saturday when i went to my mom's company picnic...i had too much crawfish and bbq...thats why i ended up skipping the gym. i think im still working that food out of my system. hopefully i'll feel better when its all gone!

ohh i went to see a band on friday night with one of my high school friends. it was actually a pretty good show. i enjoyed it. we met some random girl in the bathroom who wasnt shy about things. met her husband and hung out with them for a while and her husband reminded me of austin david which i texted that night just to tell him that! haha! support local music and check out Deep Ella! i was fine driving home but when i got close to home, i started feeling sick. i made a burger king run (straying from the normal jack in the crack run) and called my friend. it was nice talking to him even though he was also in an altered state himself! it was funny because he said to me 'you know i love you!' and maybe because i was a buzzy rambling mess lying in bed, i enjoyed it! haha i havent talked to him since friday night but that doesnt worry me. we call each other all the time! =)

i wanna play disc golf. i bought myself an Eagle which is only 147g! it's light compared to my QLS which is 169g! i need to go soon! maybe on wednesday with my bro! =)

okay..thats about it for now...no more random typing. if i have more, i'll add another post!

oh yeah, the crazy woman is still crazy! haha!

be good kids! =)

I Wanna Be With You...

okay, i have to admit it! it would be EXTREMELY nice to have a significant other of some type! who am i kidding? (definitely NOT myself!)

i've always been 'one of those girls.' ya know what i'm talking about. the kinda girl who wants to meet prince charming and live happily ever after. the girls who feels a tingley feeling every time she sees the love of her life.

i've been listening to old Mandy Moore and it reminds me all of that stuff! what can i say? i cant deny who i am! oh well!

just need to meet a nice boy who lives near by!

A Moderate Flirtation...

i think, essentially, that's all I really need. it's funny because that's what i've been getting from this guy. alas, it kinda sucks at times because since i dont know that much about him, i dont know how to read all of it. at the same time, i know i shouldnt over analyze and over interpret what's going on. i should just roll with the punches!

it's weird though. i can honestly say that im not use to flirting involving a guy who's NOT a friend. lol...weird huh? it is kinda cute right now. i like it. everytime i read something from him, i'm giddy like a school girl and i immediately wanna tell a friend! hehe. it's silly but i dont mind it. it'll keep me entertained and occupied. who knows what the possibilities are and honestly, im gonna TRY to not worry too much about it...

i mean, im not a girl to pass up a dorky guy! =)

Being a BETTER Friend

so last night, i talked to one of my good friends, an old roommate. =)

she told me that she had news via myspace so i called her right away. when you're in your mid-20s, news can be ANYTHING. we talked for over an hour and i only ended the conversation because my phone gave me no choice (dead battery!)

i've come to realize that i'm not the best friend in the world. i think i'm gonna start making an effort to at least call certain people monthly or bi-monthly! i mean, i have friends that i call weekly, use to have people i'd call like a couple times a week. now, i dont talk to many people so i need to do that! i miss talking to some of these people and its crazy sometimes how much you miss out when you dont just pick up the freaking phone!

now i realize that it works BOTH ways but at least if i try to make an effort, its a start! =)

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on another note, i went to my friend's wedding on saturday night. it actually wasn't too bad! i came to realize that i do like pakistani food but its a little too spicy (even though i could handle the HOTTness!)

it was also crazy to see how many people (that i NO longer keep in touch with) were engaged. there was a moment where one of my former co-workers might have thought i had a similar fate (because of the ring i was wearing--on my RIGHT hand too...hehe!) but no worries people, if i was to get engaged, you would ALL know! =)

i dont think i'm ready for marriage yet. i'd just like to meet a nice guy who has time for me , enjoy the things i do, introduces me to new things and so much more... until that day comes, the wedding bells are silenced! lol

okay...im gonna try to blog more regularly because a lot more things happen, im just too lazy to type them down! i'll get better...i promise!

Virginia Tech Remembered...

On Monday, April 16, the most deadly school massacre occurred in BLacksburg, VA at Virginia Tech University. A shooter killed 32 people and them himself in two incidents on campus, first at a dormitory and then in one of the engineering buildings on campus.

Prior to this event, the deadliest school massacre at happened in 1966 at UT when the shooter shot randomly from atop the tower.

It's sad to think that there are people in this world who will kill randomly for an unknown reason. Sometimes I think about the people who were just at the wrong place at the wrong time and thus fall victim to such heinous crimes.

If anything, during this time of sadness, I offer my sympathy to all the people that were affected by this tragedy. Please keep those individuals who have been affected in your thoughts and prayers.

REMEMBER, if you ever stumble across a person who seems to be a little off, offer them help, assistance, SOMETHING before another unfortunate incident like this happens.

drunken talk!

oh yeah, one quick thing before i go and bake cookies!

i hate drunk confessions....esp drunk confessions of love! *sigh*

DISC GOLF!

so i've been wanting to place disc golf for the LONGEST time. one of my good friends from college plays it ALL the time! he has even called me when he was in VEGAS to help him find a course out there. honestly he did the same thing a couple of weeks ago when he couldnt find a course in san antonio. lol he's a good guy...i love him to death and i've been wanting to try this FOREVER and i finally did yesterday!

so i went with this guy. i actually had lunch with him last week (i honestly dont know how it went..i just realized though that i really do talk too much! it's just not particularly a good thing the first time out!) well i met him out at macgregor park which happens to be on the other freaking side of town near UH. well i got there and lemme tell ya, apparrently everyone who has a modified car that goes up and down and what not (lowriders and that whole scene) was out there! lemme tell ya, i stuck out like a SORE thumb! lol i actually got there a little early...which was good and bad because of the previously mentioned. i called him up and it seems like this was his first time out there too...and he was riding his bike there soo it took a little longer than expected. the nice thing, i guess, was that he had invited two friends who were expecting me so one of them came up to me.

overall the game wasnt bad. i did feel like a total noob since i sucked! but then again, first time out, i guess i didnt do THAT bad! lol. i got better by the 2nd part of the course! i'm seriously thinking about going out and practicing my throwing and maybe investing into another disc or two! i'm gonna return that putter because it's useless to me until i get up to like 12 discs! lol =)

but i definitely like disc golf...definitely something fun. i'm considering getting some discs so i can tie dye them! my friend did! i'll put the picture below so you can check it out! soo if anyone wants to try throwing a bunch of discs with me, tell me! =)

ONE WEEK...

of working out and i feel GREAT!!

last friday, my mom and i (then my sister on saturday) joined LA Fitness. i've been going there everyday as if i was a gym rat, except that i dont spend HOURS there...maybe an hour and over...usually no more...i've been enjoying it quite a bit!

my sales rep guy, Joseph sees me everyday. we'll chit chat a little bit. it's kinda funny because i keep on telling him 'i'm gonna get my money's worth!' i've attended all sorts of classes. i've come to realize that STEP is what's gonna kick my ass! who know its soo freaking hard to go up and down on that freakin step! and then i realized tonite, after taking the latin impact class (which is kinda like cardio dance but with latin steps...duh!) that i have NO RHYTHM when it comes to latin music! LOL i've never felt soo freakin self-conscience in my life! oh well....i'm sure i'll get better in the future!

it's been fun though..i've been dragging my friend to come with me to all the classes during the week, which is good for her! i'm gonna get my ass into shape! i bought way too many bikinis to just let them sit there...i'm not sure if i'll actually have the balls to wear them but at least i need to work towards it!

oh yes! i'm finally getting to my new year's resolution! =)

score for me!!

my English sucks...

i have to vent...apologies in advance!

at work, i usually work with the ESL kids in the classroom. the other kids just chose to ignore the teacher therefore i care less to work with them. i was working the the ESL boys today and it was a bit frustrating because they tend to seek sympathy due to their weakness in English. there's another tutor that we all dislike, Ms. Lopez, who babies the ESL kids. she overheard me scolding the kids for not trying hard enough and blaming everything on their lack of understanding. they're quite capable , just never willing to pay attention. well she felt then it was necessary for her to hover and watch.

at some point, i got frustrated because the boys weren't really paying attention to me THUS not understanding me. Ms. Lopez had the nerve to tell me that (in a Spanish accent) 'maybe they don't understand your English'

WTF?!?!

yes, yes, i speak with such an FUCKING HARD ACCENT that you can't understand me! when 2 out of 3 kids understand me, its pretty damn good.

that's it. i don't want to go into too much. i actually think my English isn't that bad! but for future reference, if you don't understand me, apologies! that 30 minutes in kindergarten ESL apparently didn't help! my English sucks!!

Apologize...

i've been listening to this One Republic song over and over again. . .i kinda feel that way right now. i finally made a decision and it reminds me of an episode of SATC. Samantha broke up with her formally cheating (and from the end of the episode STILL cheating) boyfriend because she loved herself more. it was also when she gave him back the pearl thong...haha!

i'm one to take chances...i have before. i think that things have happened to me where i don't wanna get hurt...obviously! NO ONE WANTS TO GET HURT!

tonight, i chose myself. it could be a good decision, it could be a bad decision but the MOST important part of it all is that it was MY decision. (i have a feeling that i'm gonna regret it..i let go of something that was starting to mean a lot to me...)

i'll be honest...in a way, i wanted him to say something more...it's silly but i wanted him to fight with me more about it, instead of being so accepting of my decision. i didn't want to make it into a 'test.' my decision definitely wasn't for that purpose...but sometimes, you wouldn't mind it!

in the end, i think i just came to realize what i want i cant get from him. it sucks because i honestly think that if he could, he would give me the world. EVERY GIRL NEEDS TO MEET A GUY WHO WILL GIVE HER THE WORLD...AND MORE!

read the lyrics...listen to the song...there's a Timbaland remix of it..i like that version better..but thats me! enjoy...and good night...finally!

OneRepublic - 'Apologize'

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

Bridge (guitar/piano)

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...