All These Thoughts Running Through My Head

sometimes i hate how i'm a thinker! when i'm lying in bed, even if i'm just playing games of solitaire, i think. random thoughts run through my brain as i'm processing what's going on in my life.

tonight though, the thoughts are all too consuming where i HAVE to write them down! so bear with me as i try to sort out my thoughts...

call me CRAZY...maybe even KRAZY..like the kinda with the backwards Z! ever since i talked to my British crush, all i've been thinking about is the next time i get to speak with him again. it's amazing...or as he would say, it's mad!

i can't even try to begin to put my thoughts into words! it wouldn't make any sense!! all i know is that when i think about it, it makes my heart flutter, speed up, all kinds of junk! my EKG would look insane right now!! haha! when i think about our next conversation, i sit there and try to figure out how many times can i use HIS words! like i want to use 'mad' the way he does and replace 'fucking' with 'bloody' (For those of you that are slow (hehe) it would be 'bloody mad', instead of 'fucking crazy!")

i'm sitting here in the dark wishing for the impossible right now! even though i should be disappointed/sad, i'm so extremely excited! if i could, i would be on the phone just sounding like a teeneybopper talking about a celebrity! (i think he would find this totally cute but that's HIM! he claims to like my voice -- all of my valley girl glory! haha)

i don't know how i'm going to handle myself. i think i may just have to play LOTS and LOTS of DDR and go biking and stuff like that to get all this energy out of my system! because if not, i might drive myself insane waiting for wednesday!! oh i can't wait! =)