As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken, and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend, or maybe even fall in love with them. And you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. You just have to live life to the fullest. Tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

For you entertainment...

The End of Ze World

Mixer, Elixer and IMAX

so the other friday we (me and some friends) went to the museum of natural science for the Mixer, Elixer and IMAX...it was pretty fun! i'm planning on tryin to go again soon but while we we were there, the houston press street team took a picture of us..here it is!!

L-R: Me, Andrea, Gypsy and Tricia...we're standing in front of the Tricerotops fossil! =)

Kemp Ridley's Sea Turtles

When I was a freshman in high school, I did an independent project in Biology with a classmate, Julie Storm, on the Kemp Ridley's Sea Turtle. It's amazing home many people had no idea who these suckers are! All I can say is that they're just the cutest little things. There was a big hatching of them down at North Padre Island and here are some pictures of the babies leaving to the ocean! The sad thing is that not all of them make it from nest to water to make it to adult maturity! Hopefully these little guys did!

"I'm coming up..." Let the race BEGIN!!

"Damn! This is a long trek!!"

"I SEE THE LIGHT, urgh WATER!!" =)

"YEAHHH!! I made it!!"

stop being retarded!!!
Current mood: angry

to be honest, i really dont know who to believe anymore...i keep on hearing just one person's account of what's going on. the last time i've had such roller coaster feelings/thoughts about guys in general was back in austin. as much as those guys were cool, fun, great, they were also freaking retarded!! for the past two years, i've been "happily single" i enjoy myself whenever i get a chance, without any worries! but now, lately, i've been going from giddy to frustrated in 24 hours!!

i'm getting soo frustrated! MAKE THINGS HAPPEN!! if i could, i would try to but i can't!! .. i dont have the resources for them. i dont know if i'm being lied to, tested or just yanked around but i can't take this anymore! ..

i'm a great person. i'm sure you're a great person too! but in all honesty, neither of us will ever get a chance to experience that first hand unless something happens.

if you don't care to do anything, relay THAT message. it doesn't bother me. sometimes things are too good to be true...


Sometimes it's hard to know where I stand
It's hard to know where I am
Well maybe it's a puzzle I don't understand
Sometimes I get the feeling that I'm
Stranded in the wrong time
Where love is just a lyric in a children's rhyme, a soundbite

Is it any wonder I'm tired?
Is it any wonder that I feel uptight?
Is it any wonder I don't know what's right?
Oh these days!
After all the misery made
Is it any wonder that I feel afraid?
Is it any wonder that I feel betrayed?

Is It Any Wonder?
~Keane

Currently listening: Under the Iron Sea By Keane Release date: By 20 June, 2006

Hamburg Song
~Keane

I don't want to be adored
Dont want to be first in line
Or make myself heard
I'd like to shine a little light
To shine a light on your life
To make you feel loved

No, don't want to be the only one you know
I want to be the place you call home

I lay myself down to make it so
But you don't want to know
I give much more than I'd ever ask for

Will you see me in the end?
Or is it just a waste of time
Trying to be your friend?
Just shine, shine, shine
Shine a little light
Shine a light on my life
And warm me up again

Fool, I wonder if you know yourself at all
You know that it could be so simple

I lay ymself down to make it so
But you don't want to know
You take much more than I'd ever ask for

Say a word or two to brighten my day
Do you think that you could see your way

To lay yourself down and make it so?
But you don't want to know
You take much more than I'd ever ask for

like a teen...
Current mood: giddy

so its been a while since i've had that giddy feeling. its funny but i've become so use to having guy friends that i forget how it is when you're all gushy from the silly things guys do to impress you!

in college, i use to work soo hard to impress! i mean, i always felt at the disadvantage so i would work double, sometimes triple to make up the difference. as i get older, i'm starting to realize that i bring a lot to the table and i have plenty to offer a person. its just hard to be consistent with believing that! i think i need to start thinking like the engine that could!!

i think its adorable when guys do little things for you...to impress you or whatever! in a weird way, it makes you feel special and that's always a nice feeling.

it's funny but i really am a simple person. i like the little thoughtful things. they always mean so much more than something big and extravagant. i've always been one about the thought!! putting time and effort into something, going out of your norm and doing things you normally wouldnt do and a multitude of other things show that you care, you're interested, etc.

call me retarded, simple, whatever but i feel like a teenager again...all giddy and dorky and bubbley. (but then again, i'm all those things on a daily basis!)

yeah...that's all i have to say...it's a good feeling.

Currently listening: How To Save A Life By The Fray Release date: By 13 September, 2005

Man Rules

a friend posted the following on myspace as a bulletin. thought it was funny as hell so i decided to share the wealth! Enjoy

Man Rules

1: Under no circumstances may two men share an umbrella.

2: It is OK for a man to cry ONLY under the following circumstances:

(a) When a heroic dog dies to save its master.
(b) The moment Angelina Jolie starts unbuttoning her blouse.
(c) After wrecking your boss's car.
(d) One hour, 12 minutes, 37 seconds into "The Crying Game".
(e) When she is using her teeth.

3: Any Man who brings a camera to a bachelor party may be legally
killed and eaten by his buddies.

4: Unless he murdered someone in your family, you must bail a friend
out of jail within 12 hours.

5: If you've known a guy for more than 24 hours, his sister is off
limits forever unless you actually marry her.

6: Moaning about the brand of free beer in a buddy's fridge is
forbidden. However complain at will if the temperature is unsuitable.

7: No man shall ever be required to buy a birthday present for another
man. In fact, even remembering your buddy's birthday is strictly
optional. At that point, you must celebrate at a strip bar of the
birthday boy's choice.

8: On a road trip, the strongest bladder determines pit stops, not the
weakest.

9: When stumbling upon other guys watching a sporting event, you may
ask the score of the game in progress, but you may never ask who's
playing.

10: You may flatulate in front of a woman only after you have brought
her to climax. If you trap her head under the covers for the purpose
of flatulent entertainment, she's officially your girlfriend.

11: It is permissible to drink a fruity alcohol drink only when you're
sunning on a tropical beach... and it's delivered by a topless model
and only when it's free.

12: Only in situations of moral and/or physical peril are you allowed
to kick another guy in the nuts.

13: Unless you're in prison, never fight naked.

14: Friends don't let friends wear Speedos. Ever. Issue closed.

15: If a man's fly is down, that's his problem, you didn't see
anything.

16: Women who claim they "love to watch sports" must be treated as
spies until they demonstrate knowledge of the game and the ability to
drink as much as the other sports watchers.

17: A man in the company of a hot, suggestively dressed woman must
remain sober enough to fight.

18: Never hesitate to reach for the last beer or the last slice of
pizza, but not both, that's just greedy.

19: If you compliment a guy on his six-pack, you'd better be talking
about his choice of beer.

20: Never join your girlfriend or wife in discussing a friend of
yours, except if she's withholding sex pending your response.

21: Phrases that may NOT be uttered to another man while lifting
weights:

(a) Yeah, Baby, Push it!
(b) C'mon, give me one more! Harder!
(c) Another set and we can hit the showers!

22: Never talk to a man in a bathroom unless you are on equal footing:
i.e., both urinating, both waiting in line, etc. For all other
situations, an almost imperceptible nod is all the conversation you
need.

23: Never allow a telephone conversation with a woman to go on longer
than you are able to have sex with her. Keep a stopwatch by the phone.
Hang up if necessary.

24: The morning after you and a girl who was formerly "just a friend"
have carnal, drunken monkey sex, the fact that you're feeling weird
and guilty is no reason for you not to nail each other again before
the discussion about what a big mistake it was occurs.

25: It is acceptable for you to drive her car. It is not acceptable
for her to drive yours.

26: Thou shalt not buy a car in the colors of brown, pink, lime green,
orange or sky blue.

27: The girl who replies to the question "What do you want for
Christmas?" with "If you loved me, you'd know what I want!" gets an
Xbox. End of story.

28: There is no reason for guys to watch Ice Skating or Men's
Gymnastics. Ever.

I'm This Girl

*i'm the girl who will put her head on your shoulder, not because i'm sleepy, but because i want to be closer to you...

*i'm the girl who likes to be kissed in the rain, more than inside your bedroom or in an expensive resturant...

*i'm the girl who says,"ok, but you owe me..." jokingly not because i actually want something, but because it means i get to spend more time with you...

*i'm the girl you can take absolutely anywhere and i will have fun because it means i am spending time with you...

*i'm the girl who is incredibly picky, but when i find someone i like i want to spend the whole night curled up in their arms...

*i'm the girl who never forgets all the sweet little things you do for me...

*i'm the girl who once i let you into my heart, there's always a place there with your name on it. & even if we spend time apart, i'm the girl who never forgets you..

*i'm the girl who loves to end a hug with a kiss..

*i'm the girl who you can talk to you about anything..

*i'm the girl who laughs at your jokes...

*i'm the girl who will brag about you to all of my friends...

*i'm the girl who will listen to you talk...

*i'm the girl who loves it when you hug me for no apparent reason...

*i'm the girl who loves it when you hug me from behind or kiss me on the neck..

*i'm the girl who loves it when you introduce me to your friends as your GIRLFRIEND..

*i'm the girl who loves the feeling when you take me by the hand without saying a word...

*i'm the girl who loves you for you, and doesn't care what other people say about us...

Save Screech's House

Apparently Dustin Diamond, Saved By The Bell's Screech, is having financial issues and needs help with his house before it gets foreclosed. Help him out by buying at t-shirt for $15! even celebrities (and i use this very loosely) need help sometimes!! check it out!

Career Quiz

I just took a career quiz....i figure why not since it seems like i never know what i wanna do. the results are presented below:

		People with green Interests like job responsibilities and occupations that involve persuasion, sales, promotions, and group or personal contact. People with green Interests enjoy activities that include: motivating, mediating, selling, influencing, consensus building, persuading, delegating authority, entertaining, and lobbying. These Interests often lead to work in marketing, advertising, training, therapy, consulting, teaching, law, and public relations.

		People with green styles perform their job responsibilities in a manner that is outgoing. They prefer to work where things get done with minimal analysis and where persuasion is well received by others. People with green styles tend to be spontaneous, talkative, personal, enthusiastic, convincing, risk-taking, and competitive, and usually thrive in a team-oriented, adventurous, informal, innovative, big picture-oriented, varied environment. You will want to choose a work environment or career path in which your style is welcomed and produces results

seems like i'm kinda in the right direction on what to do....ehh not too bad!

see how you do! career quiz

That UNeasy Feeling

don't you hate it when all things in the universe are NOT right?? everything feels a little bit out of balance. unfortunately, i'm currently suffering from one of these moments. apparently right now, there's something going on with one of my friends and she wont tell me what! its quite frustrating because i have a feeling that i indirectly did something that upset her and unfortunately currently unable to fix it because she wont tell me whats up!! =(

its a little upsetting the more i think about it but then i realize, i'm trying to do all that i can to fix it. if she wont let me fix it, what else can i do?? i'm just stuck with this uneasy feeling until then...

ah-ha!!
Current mood: tired

its way too late to be writing anything (since i'm super sleepy ) but HECK...i just feel like it right now!! it was funny tonight because i drew a BIRD (looks like a turkey but meant to be a chicken) and my friend's book cover! hehehe...i think all my colorful decorations are gonna look great on her organic TE....its looking NERDTACULAR!! well anyways, i took a picture of my drawing so she could send it off to whomever she needed to send it to! =) it's funny because i know i'm probably the same way in a similar situation. i get scared too!! its human right??

so what i find extremely amusing is how people have this perception of me being really really REALLY smart! its kinda nice but im not feeling it! one of the kids from my physics class was all saying how i should have been a doctor. lol! crazy huh?? Jane as a doctor??? sometimes i wish i had been that dedicated to become a pediatrician! instead of working with crazy kids, i would be working with SICK (health-wse) crazy kids! hehehe maybe these people are saying something worthwhile! its super geeky but i check out these radiographs of random patients (via email) with a friend and try to figure out what's wrong....granted i have NO medical training whatsoever so it makes it hard but at least i kinda know some stuff where i can identify things ...sometimes! better than nothing!!

Currently listening: Clumsy By Our Lady Peace Release date: By 15 April, 1997

BLAH!!

still in a funk ...it sucks...i need to be able to just vent and not worry about anyone responses or anything...let me be sad , depressed , etc. let me be a GIRL!! let me be a teary girl,let the green (yes its GREEN) mascara run! i just want to be depressed and the BEFORE picture for prozac..the rain cloud, the sad christmas tree, etc. i guess its kinda disappointing to think that maybe as much as i can get hyped up, maybe deep down, im not good enough...and thinking thats what your biggest fan might be feeling is a downer...oh well...give me 24-48 hrs and i'll be better!

In a Funk...

so i'm in a little bit of a funk...i'm not really happy about it but i'm not really going to do anything about it either! there's not much to do about it anyway...but here's the story!

so my friend has been trying to set me up with guys..or more or less jump start (restart) the whole dating thing for me. (to be honest, i had been okay with my lack of dating...its something that i had become accustom to since arriving back in houston...its just one of those things that i'm not too bothered about...on the flip side, its presence isn't necessarily a bad thing either...see where thc confusion can lay??)

well like i was typing, my friend has a LOT of guys in mind...A LOT! they're all young, attractive, successful guys. she's been showing them (as embarassing as this is) my myspace page. because of it, they have insight into how i look like, my interests, etc, whatever is on my myspace. and so far, according to her, i've been getting a positive reception. i have a feeling that also maybe because she's working really hard to sell me! she's definitely good at selling the mediocre for amazing!

so what is the problem you may be wondering?? no calls, no contact, nada! all the info i get is third party. its extremely frustrating! i'm almost done with thiknig about it. maybe this is all an elaborate plan to get me to find my own guys! lol

these guys are busy. they all have really really successful careers that require a lot of time and me, i'm an emotionally spoiled brat! its just frustrating that they always talk about callin gbut never do it! ugh!

so FUCK it! no more worries...i'd rather sit on my ass and enjoy my summer than get flustered about this stuff...im gonna need to make trips and do things so i can be busy. =)

back to being busy and aloof....back to EXTRAORDINARY...back to me! =)

but right now, i'm gonna be in a funk!

it's funny because i never really dated in college. i wasn't going on dates with TONS of boys to see who i would like. it wasn't an episode of pokemon where i got to utter the words "i choose you *insert guy's name here.*" i think i was too broken-hearted after Giang to even think about 'dating.' i just wanted to move on.

when i had achieved the coveted 'moved on' place in my life, i met guys that i found amazing and spent time with them...again, one at a time, investing days into them, unsure of what they (or more like i) were (was) to me(them). MORE CONFUSION!!

this all leads me to where i am today. i have basically not interacted with guys (in the dating sense) for 2 years. houston has NOT been good to me. i'll be honest, i've gone on outings with guys but nothing really came out of the events.

luckily i was blessed to meet a wonderful person in my class and she has chosen me to live vicariously through. i have become her (and her husband's) project for the dating game. it's funny because she's very ambitious (i'm not sure if that's the right word to describe it) and has selected 10 individuals for me to meet and 'date.' it's scary to think that i, finally at 24.82 years of age, am going to date!

she's told me about 3 of the 10 candidates, all of which sound like awesome guys. they've all had previews on who i am from looking at my myspace page (hahaha!) they know WAY TOO MUCH about me already from reading that. its scary because i dont know how to handle it (being the situation at hand.) it seems like my hardest decision will be who do i like the most. as of right now, i just get to ponder the possibilities. she's told me who her favorite of the first three are and who she thinks i'll like the most.

variety is great but it makes for a hard decision! i figure i may have to recruit the opinions of good friends in time but till then, i get to ponder who will call me first! *ahhh! the waiting game!!*

till then....await "the dating game, part deux!"