sighting: am i far behind?
i had to make a food run to kroger's this morning for some wraps for lunch. i got there and i saw this cute little kid following his dad. it was funny but when i finally caught up and saw who the dad was, i was shocked. i knew the guy but it was a LONG time ago!
Javier. (i think???) filipino and a senior at hastings when i was merely a freshman. i had met him in band...he, like i, didnt care that much and was in the middle band. he was cute but i always thought "i'm just a freshman" but i still was able to admire him afar. he was one of the first people that i heard one of the cutest (but still lame) pickup lines!
if i could rearrange the alphabet, i would put U and I togetherawwwe...cute? yes...at least i thought so. well anyways, i remember the last time i saw him was probably graduation when i was playing in the band during commencement and that was it...
but today, i saw him again! when he turned around to look at his little boy, in my head i thought "oh shiet! is it that guy from band??" of course, i wasnt sure what his name was and he probably didnt remember but when he spoke to his little boy, i knew, FOR SURE, it had to be him!! (you know how some people have a voice you'll remember forever??? he's one of those people...there's a kindness in his voice.) i really wanted to go up to him and ask him if he went to hastings and was perchance in band. but where do you go from there?? who knows!!
so the real thing on my mind...after seeing him, i thought to myself, he's about 3-4 years older than me and he's already got a young kid (probably about tabitha's age). am i behind??? should i be on the way to having something like that?? i mean, what would my life look like if i had met (and be able to sustain) an awesome relationship? would i have a little toddler of my own?? would i even be in houston?? would i have even kept up this blog?? (probably, i've come to realize that i like expressing myself) its just weird. sometimes i wish i was the friend that was in a 5 year relationship, pondering what's next. or the friend who was enjoying dating and finding the next potential superman! or maybe being the next up and comer in my field. instead i am the girl who has questions, who has doubts and wonders about herself and her life...but then again, WHO DOESN'T face those issues??/
i have to remind myself that minus the 'little' obstacles that are ahead, i'm doing alright! =)
