the innner wants out...part2

i had THAT dream again. he came to see me and seek comfort since (finally) everything in his life finally came to a crumble of what he didnt like! it was weird. we really didn't know each other anymore because its been so many years and things were extremely different. it was nice to see him again though. he looked the same. the funny thing was when i hugged him, i felt NOTHING, just like i was suppose to. in my heart, i wanted to feel more (cmon, former love of my life...which i did reference him with the name in my moments with him) but i didn't. it was a little bit liberating, but disappointing. we acknowledged that so much had changed in the last couple of years, as time usually changes things.

i woke up startled, probably from all the bad energy in the world. (people tend to send it to you when you realize that they werent who you thought they were!) i'm a little disappointed about the dream. i really dont know the purpose of it outside of maybe it was to remind me that i still wonder "where/what in the world...?"