The Holidays. . .

So the holidays are almost over but it's all starting to kick in now. . . WHAT is kicking in you're asking? The whole idea of being single and fabulous. . .Ironically as I've been cruising about the mean streets of Houston by day to kill time (and my dwindling bank account), I'm starting to realize that I've been "alone" for quite a while and the holiday season always AMPLIFIES the "negatives" of being single. To be honest, I've never really cared about it much since it has been so long that I've kinda become aquainted with the idea of it just being me (PLUS it helps that I'm not around TONS of couples!)

Sometimes if anything I wonder about what could of been. . .For instance, in retrospect, I totally understand Doug's stance on how I wouldn't be back in Austin a lot. It's still speculation but I'm sure he didn't want to deal with anything relationship-ish thing with me since it would lead to a LDR, something he didn't have luck with in the past. Sometimes, honestly, I wish he would have taken that chance with me or maybe even had told me that if things were different, he and I would be together. It's okay though. I think I would be happiest now if we were just friends, simple as that.

I've come to realize that I may never find anyone. The guys were right: I'm freaking picky as heck! (Kinda!) I think it's more like I don't want to get into anything that I'm not sure about. Relationships are SCARY, especially when the ones you've been in are the kind you consider full of substance a.k.a. more than 24 hours! haha I don't want to go into building a relationship, getting comfortable only to realize it may not work. FUN!! I feel like my heart has been broken a few times and I've worked my butt off to mend it. Here is an artist interpretation of what it could look like:

Okay. Enough with that! I needed to get that out of the way, out of my system, WHATEVER, before the new year!

So have a beer, some champagne, the elixir of your choice and spread good cheer! Celebrate what you have, how much you've grown, and what else is to come in your life! Be thankful for all the good (and the bad) that have happened in the past year because they have all made you grow into a better person. Remember, as the old saying states, what doesn't kill ya, makes ya stronger!! So good bye to old friends and welcome in new ones. Say farwell to the demons of 2005 because 2006 is almost here!
Oh yeah, be ready USC for the Texas Longhorns next Wednesday! Hook'em!!

Click on the above picture for more Rose Bowl info! =)

5 Guys Every Girl's Gotta Date

According to a MSN website, there are 5 guys every girl's gotta date. They are:

1. The Older Guy
2. The Starving Artist
3. The Metrosexual
4. The Bad Boy
5. The Nice Guy

I think I've tapped my share of this list. Lets go through them.

1. The Older Guy - this hasn't really happened. The oldest I've done is about 4.5 years (D) and that's not a lot. I guess I'm STILL on a search for The Older Guy!

2. The Starving Artist - oh boy! I honestly can't say I've done the REAL starving artist but I've done something REAL close. He kinda borders Nice Guy but I think he works as the Starving Artist. He was a photographer working as a audio tech guy at a hotel. I LOVED his pictures! It was different through seeing life through his eyes though. Being around him helped me appreciate a lot of simple things and the beauty in them. If anything, he also introduced me to hanging out more on 4th street! Would I do the Starving Artist again? SURE!! There's a lot to learn from there. Maybe though, I'll find a REAL Starving Artist next time...any musicians? =D

3. The Metrosexual - Havne't done it yet. D was a pretty boy but I wouldn't go as far as calling him a Metrosexual.

4. The BaD BoY - David G!! I LOVED hanging around him! He was just so much fun. For the first time in my life, I HAD to be real about everything! If I wanted him to know something, I HAD to say it. I admitted things around him that I normally would have NEVER said! (Shoot! Poor Linhda had to sit through a lot of RANDOME TMI confessions!) He was a temptation every time I was around him. I think that's what it made it so much fun. It was like hanging out with one of the guys who didn't think of you as one of the guys. Would I do it again? HELL YEAH!! David G was fun. =)

5. The Nice Guy - *sigh* I've never dated The Nice Guy. I'm sure I've met tons of them and have hung out with tons of them but dated...can't say I have.

So guys...wonder what 5 girls you gotta date?? Look here.
FYI: If you need a Guy's Girl, I can be her! =)

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!

I wish everyone the best holiday with family and friends, much prosperity and happiness and all that good jazz! Hopefully Santa got you everything you want!! YEAH!! =)

GIRLS ARE BITCHES, a Non "normal" girl's perspective

DISCLAIMER: These are MY personal opinions on what I have seen in my last 24 years of life. Everyone is allowed to his/her own opinion. If you have one, go ahead and leave it. =)

Girls are BITCHES. I'm a girl ERGO I must be a bitch. I have no problem saying that at all!! It's almost programmed into the double X chromosomes! Controversy allows us to go on. If life was boring, would we WANT to go on??

So I don't know if I've covered the "I'm NOT a normal girl" topic." It's definitely not something that's new to me. From time to time, I try to figure out exactly what a NOT normal girl is. I always ask one of m y really good friends whether am really am a NOT normal girl and continuously he reassures me that I am. I dont worry about the same things as some girls, I'm not CONTINUOUSLY on the search for Mr. Man, and all these other things. Sometimes I think I'm like this because most of my close girl friends are NOT normal girls and that I spent a good chuck of my time with guys who treated me like one of the guys, except with boobs. lol

Me being a NOT normal girl apparently makes it hard for me to keep good long term friendships with normal girls. Maybe that's why I find things about them bitchy and vice versa. HENCE the overall idea that ALL GIRLS ARE BITCHES!! We at least all have an INNER BITCH! Some girls are better at hiding it than others. =)

UPDATE: Greek Tragedy
Apparently Jack, the young Lambda, that died in Austin after crossing into the fraternity died due to hazing. After the pledges cross, they must consume as much alcohol as possible. He died due to alcohol poisoning and Lambda Phi Epsilon is now suspended for the next 5 years on the UT campus. It's sad that a young life ends like that. Just a reminder to BE CAREFUL!!

Too Little, Too Late
True friendships last a LIFETIME. Some friendships, as I've learned from my best friend, are TIMED. Some people come into your life for a reason, to serve a purpose. When the purpose has been served, it ends. I dont mind that because I've come to accept it. I guess I knew at the beginning of the year that changes were going to be made. I really had no problem with it. LIFE IS DYNAMIC, NOT STATIC! Let me put into words for myself that I know what true friendships are and those are the ones that I hold near and dear to my heart. Real friends TALK to you when they think something's wrong (unless they know you well enough to just give you time and come talk to you when they think you may be ready.) My best friend always ask me if she THINKS something's wrong. She lives THOUSANDS of miles away and we always talk to each other about random things and ask how each other are doing. If friendship means covering your ass so you don't look like the wrong-doer, then it wasn't meant to be. C'est la vie. Don't stir up the past or do things in the spirit of the season. I'm not here to clear your GUILTY conscience. Like the title says, TOO LITTLE, TOO LATE!

another Greek tragedy. . .

so this morning before i left for work, a newstory really caught my attention. a UT student died at the Lambda house over the weekend. it's kinda sad because the guy was only 18. i'm a pessimist when it comes to the Greek system. if anything, i feel like i had comment because i actually tried it during my freshman year. i actually pledged for the sister sorority of the Lambdas. . . something that not many people know about me. on the news, they commented that the fraternity had just crossed him over and he had probably been partying (to celebrate, of course). i really hope that he didn't die of alcohol poisoning or overdosing of any type. according to all the information on tv/online, the student, Jack, was a phenomenal person.

it's scary sometimes to think that this kinda stuff happens. there are so many times where i swear i could have drank one too many drinks or something like that and yet i wake up the next morning. *sigh* it's the holidays. . .the end of another year. it's just sad that something so unfortunate has to happen during the holidays like that. . .

happy thoughts people. be safe out there!

hey now, hey now, don't dream, it's over. . .

i LOVE 80s music!! i havent really appreciated it as much until recently (of course because of the first couple of episodes of Reunion which i MISSED tonite!! boooo!) 80s music is just filled with good stuff!! how can you NOT enjoy it??? well especially since i'm a child of the 80s. . .sorta. i was a little young (and behind the times) to understand everything 80s but i'm definitely old enough now to appreciate it and dammit, i'm gonna appreciate it!!

anyways, i think sometimes i allow things to pass me up, fearful of taking chances. sucks huh? the very very VERY worse part of it all is that i ALLOW it to pass me up. . .out of what you ask??? four letters, starts with F, ends with ear. . .yup, thats right, FEAR!!! oh well. . like Crowded House sings. . hey now, hey now, don't dream its's over. . .

anyways. . tomorrow is Friday!!! YEAH!!! TGIF!! YIPPEEE!! have a good Friday everyone!!