FlutterBee...
so I'm still awake and now going to be expecting a HUGE cell phone bill. damn me. my cycle doesn't start over till mid-month. I'm so going to regret this later!! it's funny how you sometimes meet people at the wrong time and way.

I was talking to the artist tonight. it was interesting. I've come to realized that the sheer difference in his life and mine makes me that more intriguing to me. it's really hard to explain other than I like people who are different and he DEFINITELY fits into that category. he's different from me! I don't even know how to explain how's he's different from me. it could be purely because I feel like he's different from me. I'm slowly falling into the trap of all the romanticism. it was funny because he was about to read me lyrics to some song and he told me "let me read them to you. I'm NOT trying to romanticize you or anything." I believed him but didn't want to stay on the phone any longer. he might be doing nothing but I'm coming to realize that I'm doing all that work for him.

it's funny because sometimes I think I just need to meet the right person for me and fall in love. I easily fall into this trap of liking people, being intrigued by people, ect. it's tiring. I don't want it anymore. I don't like getting hurt but I dont like running away from things either. it's no good.

I told him tonight that this probably isn't going to continue anymore after work starts. I mean, honestly, I can't stay up till 6am every night talking to him!! it's NOT going to work! I can't have a phone relationship all over again. unlike some guys, it's becoming interesting, parallel to others that have gotten me all mixed up. PLUS, he compared me to his recent ex tonight. apparently I share some phone convo qualities with her. how good could that be??

but nevertheless, I feel the flutterbees. that funny feeling. . .or maybe I'm just hungry for breakfast. . .

p.s. reoccurring thoughts of tattoos. . .is it just around birthday time that I have this??? *sigh*