A THREE-FER-ONE
be prepared! this could be quite a long entry! sometime's I'm amazed by the eventfulness of my evenings. I just have a couple of things I want to put out there so I can get some comments! I need some ideas of what to think.

So last night Pam and I went out. it started out with the intent to just have a calm one, which we did. we went to agora, this place that I had read about. it was REALLY cool stuff. it's a little greek-theme (I'm sure you'll like that D!) coffee shop in this antique-y area near Montrose (for a lack of a better location description) we got there, had some granitas, I had a baklava (sp?) and just hung out, read books and magazines, played chess and people watched. we actually saw this guy that Pam had hung out with. it was quite funny because everytime the two of us head out towards downtown, we see him. interesting. we hung out there for over an hour and then went over to the village to brian o'neils and then baker street. it was cool just hanging out and watching people interact. i had a little shocker at BSt when this drunk woman came up and put her arm around my waist for support. it didn't bother me. i'll help the drunk people when necessary! =)

now to the thinkers!!

I think the committed has become scared of commitment or maybe the potential for a commitment. I've been talking to the artist from Austin, three days in a row now. last night was the first time I feared the fact that I had started a talking relationship with him. we played the honest card last night where we just let it all flow without any inhibitions. we talked about relationships, what we were seeking, past experiences, ect. bottom line was that he told me he would like to spend more time with me and possibly get to know me. he claims that he just wants to meet someone who understands him (because he claims he's "weird") and then see what happens from there.

it's weird but I got really uncomfortable with the thought of someone WANTING to get to know me better. I felt "scared" to let someone "potentially" walk into that little section of my life. he told me that he wanted to just be able to call and leave little messages on my phone like "I thought about you today" and "I hope you're smiling, just because." Random shit. And in return, hoping that I'll just call him, just because. IT WAS WEIRD!! sometimes I worry because I KNOW just talking to someone will get me INVESTED in them.

all of this uncomfortableness really got me thinking: am I so jaded by my past experiences that I would bypass the possibilities of SOMETHING, so that I can never be hurt by NOTHING??? it's just weird because I'm sure I'm making this into a bigger deal than it really is. I'm a bit of a drama queen that way. I'm a leo.

(side note for the astrology! the artist is a gemini. I'm a leo. apparently he's been reading up on me and our compatibility. turns out that leos have some stuff to crack through (dunno what he said exactly) but once gemini gets through them, it's happy sailings for the two! I'm not one for astrology or getting too into it but it got me thinking. I really didn't believe it much since Giang was a Gemini and we didn't have a happily ever after.) Anyone out there big on the astrology thing??

NEXT. . . sex with a friend.

one of my really good guy friends brought it up last night. he told me that we should just do it already! in slight shock, I asked him why on earth would that happen. (there's no sexual tension there) he asked me if the thought ever crossed my mind. (NEVER.) he told me that it had crossed his mind before but he would have to decline if I ever propositioned him!! (it's more of a shocker that I do the asking, not him saying no.) when he told me all this, I told him that he was totally destroying my belief that men and women can be PLUTONIC friends. I realize that there's an overwhelming population of men who disagree with me. I know that I have guy friends that I totally adore. I wouldn't have even minded if we had dated but had, undoubtly, never been down that route purely for the preservation of our friendship. (I don't have much luck when it comes to friendships with exes so I try NOT to destroy valuable friendships by dating the guys!) So lemme pose the questions: have you ever wanted to have sex with your friends of the opposite sex? (I'm sure that's a popular yes) Was it possible to just stay friends afterwards? Can men and women be plutonic friends or is a "plutonic friendship" on the pathway to sex??

I'm sure there's more on my mind but I need to get my day going. =) All this "Extraordinary" is getting me revved for my day! YEAH!