A THREE-FER-ONE
be prepared! this could be quite a long entry! sometime's I'm amazed by the eventfulness of my evenings. I just have a couple of things I want to put out there so I can get some comments! I need some ideas of what to think.

So last night Pam and I went out. it started out with the intent to just have a calm one, which we did. we went to agora, this place that I had read about. it was REALLY cool stuff. it's a little greek-theme (I'm sure you'll like that D!) coffee shop in this antique-y area near Montrose (for a lack of a better location description) we got there, had some granitas, I had a baklava (sp?) and just hung out, read books and magazines, played chess and people watched. we actually saw this guy that Pam had hung out with. it was quite funny because everytime the two of us head out towards downtown, we see him. interesting. we hung out there for over an hour and then went over to the village to brian o'neils and then baker street. it was cool just hanging out and watching people interact. i had a little shocker at BSt when this drunk woman came up and put her arm around my waist for support. it didn't bother me. i'll help the drunk people when necessary! =)

now to the thinkers!!

I think the committed has become scared of commitment or maybe the potential for a commitment. I've been talking to the artist from Austin, three days in a row now. last night was the first time I feared the fact that I had started a talking relationship with him. we played the honest card last night where we just let it all flow without any inhibitions. we talked about relationships, what we were seeking, past experiences, ect. bottom line was that he told me he would like to spend more time with me and possibly get to know me. he claims that he just wants to meet someone who understands him (because he claims he's "weird") and then see what happens from there.

it's weird but I got really uncomfortable with the thought of someone WANTING to get to know me better. I felt "scared" to let someone "potentially" walk into that little section of my life. he told me that he wanted to just be able to call and leave little messages on my phone like "I thought about you today" and "I hope you're smiling, just because." Random shit. And in return, hoping that I'll just call him, just because. IT WAS WEIRD!! sometimes I worry because I KNOW just talking to someone will get me INVESTED in them.

all of this uncomfortableness really got me thinking: am I so jaded by my past experiences that I would bypass the possibilities of SOMETHING, so that I can never be hurt by NOTHING??? it's just weird because I'm sure I'm making this into a bigger deal than it really is. I'm a bit of a drama queen that way. I'm a leo.

(side note for the astrology! the artist is a gemini. I'm a leo. apparently he's been reading up on me and our compatibility. turns out that leos have some stuff to crack through (dunno what he said exactly) but once gemini gets through them, it's happy sailings for the two! I'm not one for astrology or getting too into it but it got me thinking. I really didn't believe it much since Giang was a Gemini and we didn't have a happily ever after.) Anyone out there big on the astrology thing??

NEXT. . . sex with a friend.

one of my really good guy friends brought it up last night. he told me that we should just do it already! in slight shock, I asked him why on earth would that happen. (there's no sexual tension there) he asked me if the thought ever crossed my mind. (NEVER.) he told me that it had crossed his mind before but he would have to decline if I ever propositioned him!! (it's more of a shocker that I do the asking, not him saying no.) when he told me all this, I told him that he was totally destroying my belief that men and women can be PLUTONIC friends. I realize that there's an overwhelming population of men who disagree with me. I know that I have guy friends that I totally adore. I wouldn't have even minded if we had dated but had, undoubtly, never been down that route purely for the preservation of our friendship. (I don't have much luck when it comes to friendships with exes so I try NOT to destroy valuable friendships by dating the guys!) So lemme pose the questions: have you ever wanted to have sex with your friends of the opposite sex? (I'm sure that's a popular yes) Was it possible to just stay friends afterwards? Can men and women be plutonic friends or is a "plutonic friendship" on the pathway to sex??

I'm sure there's more on my mind but I need to get my day going. =) All this "Extraordinary" is getting me revved for my day! YEAH!

YEeeee-aaaaAH!
so I woke up at 7am this morning (even though I went to bed like at past 3am) excited about taking my bike out for a good ride! we (Mom, Annie and I) ended up not getting out to Memorial Park till almost 8:30. it was tons of fun! we first went out on a trail in the middle of the woods which ended up being a bad idea because of all the mosquitoes? with all the west nile stuff going on, I wasn't too keen on the idea of them feeding on me either! on that note, we went back out onto the road and found the picnic look. apparently this is where all the hard core riders circle! i did about four laps before thinking it was time to go since Mom was just walking while Annie and I were biking! it was just really refreshing! i didn't want to overdo it just in case I become sore like a mofo tomorrow! I'm planning to go to a closer hike and bike tomorrow to see how it is. I'm really enjoying the biking thing though. I've decided to go buy a helmet afterall since I was like one of VERY FEW people without one! it's better to be safe than sorry! well time to go shower because I'm stinky but it was all well worth it! =)

I am a POLYGLOT!
so tonight I spent a lot of time on the phone. kinda nice but I just wish I knew where my headset was!! my left ear has gone through too much tonight!! so lemme recap!

i was originally planning to go up to Austin this weekend but it didnt happen. with the rain and my bad tires, I thought it would be a bad idea. maybe next time. I ended up gettin plenty of calls tonight though which made it go by quicker.

first the artist. he apparently was having a bad night. conversation wasn't going to well and he seemed like he wanted to just be alone. i ended up letting him go after a little while. he apparently called me back at 1am to apologize for his negativity. i really dont know why he did that but i'll call him tomorrow to tell him it wasn't necessary. he just wasn't in a good mood. understandable.

then I talked to the geochemist. he was fun to talk to! he actually reminded me of someone I knew on the phone. i actually started to think that maybe I need to go to culture sensitivity training or not try to be too sensitive about it and get over it! i felt like a total dumbass after a while though. he graduated from Harvard and is doing his grad work at Rice. sounds like Mr. Howe!! he was the one that told me that I was a polyglot. it's a funny word and I told him I would try to use it so if you run into me today, you'll probably hear me say it at least one! POLYGLOT!!

oh yeah, I really need to get on the ball and sign up for a practice LSAT date. I need to take it so I know what to study for and get cracking on it! all these people getting their higher degrees just makes me want to go back to school even more!!

HONESTY and DISAPPOINTMENT
So I got the email that I was anxious about getting. BOY was it a disappointment! Life is about timing and BOY has mine always been bad. Turns out this guy D was introduced to a friend of a friend this past weekend. I think that says a lot right there. =\ I really appreciated his honesty but it's still disappointing

I can definitely say that my life isn't over but what's behind my door has changed. Personally, I feel like my luck when it comes to timing has NEVER been good. The following are some examples of how time could have changed my life:

• TA (identity has been protected because we're actually friends!): He moved away right at the beginning of everything. I was starting to really feel something there but at the same time, I had been struggling with a crush that had developed before that. TIMING!! I learned a lot from him but I wish things could have been different.
• Giang: I've always felt like he and I were a timing issue. What if he and I had actually met AFTER college? What if he had had more time to "mature" (like guys do that!) and been a more independent thinker from his friends? Would things have been different?
  
• Doug: When I first met him, I was the "typical, party college girl" (who had JUST turned 21) and he was a busy professional. A year later when we became reaquainted with each other, I was more mature and calming down and he was back to "recapturing his youth" (meaning he was partying and drinking like a college kid!)
• Dave G: OMG timing! Let's see. . .first, I had graduated and was no longer in Austin. That sucked but I clocked a lot of driving miles during last summer because of him. Of course the other thing is that I met him four years earlier or some unknown amount of time later, he would also be single. I'm glad that we're still friends though. He's an amazing guy and tons of fun. No regrets regardless with him!
• WH (protecting the innocent again): Let's say timing and life does make a difference. When you're busy, you're busy. Trying to coordinate time to hang out is hard sometimes. No biggie. I just don't like games.

So Father Time has never been my friend. It's okay. I'm still young. I'm only approaching my 24th bday with many more years to go! I've got time to find more inopportune moments with the opposite sex. Like I said, the door of opportunity is still there, it's just that I don't know what it holds for me now.

OPPORTUNITY
I am anxious. About what? An email. Why on Earth an email you ask? Here is the answer that you probably didn't care to read THAT much about!

I began corresponding electronically with a guy here in Houston. I had posted a "personal ad" with the attempt to meet normal people. I got a lot of replies but have only kept up with a few. He, another D, is one of them. I've been purely amazed and entertained my his emails. To use his words, there has been some "shock and awe" during our correspondence. I really do like what I've been reading and it's amazing sometimes how similar you are to a complete stranger. I feel like an opportunity has been given to me. Now what??

Before I continue, I want to say that I have come to TWO conclusions.

• I need someone who enjoys the art of letter (or in our technological world, email) writing. So far, I have LOVED reading what D writes! His personality has come through in his emails and I'm extremely fascinated with him. I just want more! I think being able to express yourself in words is quite a difficult feat! To do it well is quite amazing! I love it!
• The longer I wait, the less likely something will happen. Basically this pushes me to want to act now! But I'm scared. What if I don't meet up to his expectations? What if it just isn't the same?? I'll be extremely disappointed. EXTREMELY!
  

So here is my scenario to y'all out there:
Here is a hallway (taken during my trip to the monastery at Chartreuse near Grenoble last summer). At the end of it, you can see a light through the window of the door. Opportunity awaits on the other side. What exactly? No one knows. We only know when we actually approach the door and take the chance to open it up. What exactly do you think is on the other side of your door??

Right now for me, there is an amazingly intriguing person on the other side. I feel like I'm ducking below the window with one hand on the knob and a foot against the door, trying to figure out when I'm going to move my foot and pull it open.

Hopefully soon. . .

I'm happy
This morning I woke up to read the most entertaining email ever! It actually did what the subject line stated: shock and awe. If anything, I think that's what he meant to say in reference to his reactions to my last email. It was cute. I'll keep it short but I'm happy. I'm not going to make it bigger than it needs to be. I just like to state, for the record, I'm all smiles for now!

love is in the air
. . .except for me and i'm a-okay with that. (or so i tell myself so far!) i'm going to be honest here, i'm happy for all my friends, like "OMG busting at the seams, smile wrinkles all over my face" happy. how can i not be? at the same time, they know that it's also nauseatingly mushy gushy for me, not that THAT's ever been bad before! haha. if anything, im EXTREMELY guilty of that when i have a major case of "in like." if anything, people that have seen me in this altered state will give you a 1st person account of it, with MULTIPLE exaggerations. (but for the most part, they're not that off! =x)

*sigh*

i need a new gushy mushy love story. . .or at least a good summer love story to tell. . . =)

Another reason why I <3 people

A brief summary (yeah right! I'm too wordy!):
I went shopping with Maria yesterday at the Galleria. Got some stuff at Zara and Benetton so that was good. We hung out for a bit which we hadnt done in a while so that was nice. =) That night, we went to dinner with her friend Michael, Ricky and Todd at Saltgrass, I think. Somewhere off of I-10 going east. Beats me. After that, we dropped off Todd and hung out at Sherlock's for a little bit. Got home and read, of course, HP6. (I'm getting there, surely but slowly!)

So it was nice hanging out. I haven't hung out with THAT many people in a while! LOL I'm gonna miss Todd. I actually called him on the way to Maria's and it was just cool talking to him about random shit. He's weird and I know I'm not super close to him like my guys but still. He's just good stuff when he wants to be! It's gonna suck since he'll be soo busy with work and coaching this year. We'll see. He'll actually be internet-connected so maybe that'll provide for more time to "talk" to Todd.

I love how you can just hang out with people. I love my friends. It's just good to have good ole' fashion hang time. Sherlock's wasn't like over the top exciting but honestly, I just need time OUT of the house to just hang out. That's just plain-ole fashion fun. I mean, honestly, I'm DYING to have good fun. Like partying it up! (I'm saving that for Austin!)

The more and more I think about things, I realize how much I do have to offer. .well sometimes! I'm a damn funny girl! Sometimes, not intentionally which makes it even better! I think I may be a little bit too flexible on some things (which I don't care to share) but at the same time, I'm one choosey bitch apparently! LOL. Who knows!!

Just wanted to put this in. Pam's coming back today! I'm ready for good ole fashion girl time with her! YEAH! PLUS it'll be fun to hang out, all three of us. I'm worried that I already went through my monthly male bashing but I can always work it back into my schedule! hehe

**Thanks for wondering about me D! I'm okay! I feel soo loved! =)

Ever have one of these days?

I saw this picture on some random site. Thought it was kinda funny. Wanted to share it with the world. All things are well. I'm kinda waiting until I have a lot to write on my blog before I write another "real" blog. I've been writing soo many emails that I'm pooped to write a good blog. So maybe next time. In the meantime, enjoy the interesting animation! =)

**I posted it and noticed that the picture looks really distorted! It really doesn't look as gross as it's showing up to be! I've reposted it as a bigger picture. Hopefully y'all will be able to enjoy it!

I <3 MuSiC!
So lemme emphasize how much I LOVE music!! It's such wonderful stuff! Music can express every emotion and align with any situation that's going on in your life.

Here's a list:
-Man-hating? Alanis - You Oughtta Know
-Getting married? there's so many but a good one right now: Lifehouse - You and I
-Need stalker music? Garbage - #1 Crush
-One of those nights? Dierks Bentley - What was I thinking?
-Mood for dancing? Cierra - 1, 2, Step, Britney - Toxic, Christina - Dirtty
-good time classical - ANYTHING by Bond
-walking down the aisle - Pachebel's Canon in D
-an awesome GIRL song (and my theme song) - Liz Phair - Extraordinary
-good ole school? Six Mix-a-Lot - Baby Got Back, MC Hammer - Cant Touch This
-my speeding song? New Radicals - You Get What You Give

All of this leads to me talking about one of the entertainment news favorites: Britney Spears.

I went and got her greatest hits CD today since it was only $10. I have to admit, maybe she can't sing but her songs are fun to listen to! I love it!! She gets tons of criticism but man, if she wasn't in the public eye, she would be just any other 23 year old gal. So here I am standing in her defense. So what if marrying Kevin Federline was um. . .an interesting decision on her part. What if "Kevin and Britney: Chaotic" was another bad decision (and damn I'm glad I never wasted time TRYING to watch it!) It's her life. Let her enjoy it. Half of marriages in the U.S. dont last and the odds are worst when you're famous. C'est le vie!

P.S. Just for those who MAY be wondering, I'm gettin better. A girl just has her moments. =)

ONE LAST CRY
okay. . so i've been lying to myself that im okay. im sure im a little over the top emotional because my hormones are out of wack but dang. . i havent been like this in a while! (but its good to know that i've moved on from crying about one guy to another guy! damn all these lack of closure senarios!)

its been well over a year and still i sit here wondering. . .

WHAT WAS THAT FUCKER THINKING??

sometimes i think it would have been only fair if i knew, right? i mean, both of us were involved! tell me if everything meant NOTHING. shiet, it would make my life easier. if you wanted me to stay, fucking get the balls and courage to say "Jane, stay for me!" good golly we all know i would have! (well maybe. . .) it just makes me sad that as we finally became closer and maybe just better friends, the moment you knew i was leaving, that was IT. FINE! EL FINITO! THE END! there was no "c-ya later, nice knowing ya, good luck with the rest of your life!" it was just . . . .just that.

i'll never understand you. i really did think there was progress at a time but now i just think i wasted my time, my energy and still today some tears. its stupid, i know, because you'll never see this or read this or know this. maybe its all the better. it was never meant to be. maybe i was too good for you or you for me. (im thinking the first one) but honestly, i thought i brought out the best in you and you made me push myself so i could finally see the best in me. for that, i say "thank you." you have no idea how greatful i am for that.

to my friends, please dont worry about me. im just going through "a moment of regression." sometimes you need to "re-evaulate" yourself for just one second. yourself, your life, your experiences, everything. its just part of personal growth. (i'll be listening to empowering women songs to make myself feel better!) but for the time being, i'll be a mopey poo head.

maybe sometimes, you just need one good last cry. . .

a more depressing blog. . .
DISCLAIMER: if you're not in the mood for a boo-hoo fest on my part, don't bother reading. It's the hormones. . .I promise!!

HONESTLY, I think I've done well over the past year when it came to the idea of boys. I haven't been in a "serious" relationship in YEARS but during college, I always had some type of boy dilemma to figure out. For some reason, that always was a good thing. In my mind, at least I had some guy in my life that I was trying to figure out or something like that. NOW, there's nothing. PLEASE don't think that I'm just trying to bring drama upon myself. I mean, MAYBE that's the case but I dunno. I always found it nice to have a guy to call up on the weekend and be like "let's go out, see ya downtown in 30?" *sigh* It's times like this that I really think that I'm going to die OLD and ALONE. I don't get it sometimes. I always got out of relationships, situations, whatever you want to call the scenario with guy where they knew I was a great girl. Giang told me that he knew he was making the biggest mistake of his life at that time. Doug has to know that there was always something "different" between us that made it fun and last to just wanna hang out. Obviously, there had to be something else to make him want to cut me out before I accidently cut him. =( It just makes me mad. . . and sad. All my friends/acquaintances are surrounded by guys who care/like/enjoy being around them with the potential for more. I'm happy for all of them, really, I am!! It just makes me wonder what makes me so ghastly horrible! *sigh* I guess for the first time in my post-college life (granted, it's ONLY been a year) I feel ALONE.

Some background: I've always been one of those girls who wanted the "happily ever after." SHOOT, four years ago, I was a girl with a plan. I wanted to fall in love, be engaged and married by 26. I wanted to find the one guy that made me smile when he was and wasn't around. I wanted the highest amount of gushy mushy there was. Then I entered the ending of my college career and gave up on that. (They say that if you don't meet anyone by your junior or senior year, you're not gonna meet anyone.) LOL . . .damn! The little dating I did helped me realize how hard it was going to be for me when I graduated and BOY has it been tough!

I started to focus on my professinal side. I came up with the (then) 9 year plan which I haven't been really good at sticking with. With the intent to go back to school (most likely law school if I can get in), going to work for UNESCO, practicing some law (to pay off the bills!) and then coming back into the education field. . .hopefully in policy and then one day back to teaching. ALL OF THAT was to take my mind off the lack of success with guys.

My good guy friend says I'm picky when it comes to guys. I , honestly, never really thought that. I've always gone for substance, as unbelievable as that sounds! People are right when they say looks matter first. You can't see a person's personality when you look at them but that's what keeps you around. I think I've only dated ONE person that all my roommates and friends would have found EXTREMELY attractive. Till this day, I still don't understand why he wanted to be around me! (yes, a little bit of self-loathing. . .oh well!)

Is it so hard to meet someone that I can feel comfortable around and have fun with?? It just drives me NUTS! I'm sick and tired of all the games that people play! All the rules, guideless, guessing (and sometimes checking!) GRRRRRRR!!

Okay. ENOUGH! I don't feel like man-hating because that's not the issue at hand. I don't hate guys, I just still don't understand them. It's starting to make me hate me. . .

enjoying every bit. . .
so i'm started to feel like a retard (or something along that line) since i'm actually taking my time with reading Harry Potter. i'm up to chapter 6 right now and loving it! unlike the rest of the HP6 readers, i havent finished the book! i guess i know that if i finish, i'll be dying for the next one which wont be coming out in another year or two! so instead, im must enjoy each chapter, page, paragraph, word individually. . .lol (that sounded way too nerdy!)

so a realization while i was reading. . .i soo should have reread HP5 or maybe even the whole series!! i've forgotten little details here and there and its driving me a little nuts!! i think im getting old and forgetful! its NOT good! oh well, maybe i'll read the other books after im done with this one. i have to keep in mind that i've bought like a TON of books that i havent finish reading yet! i wanna try to do book club again this coming year but i cant recommend books if i havent read any!! blah!!

So I'm NOT the only nerd!!
So at 10 till midnight, I went (with my mom and sister in tow) to B&N to get Harry Potter 6! Dude. . .it was PACKED! It was funny to see people all dressed up in graduation gowns as if they were the wizard's cloaks or whatever they're called! Some kids had the lightning bolt painted on their foreheads as if they were Harry himself. It was insanity! I'm glad I wasn't there from the beginning! Well I got there and got myself a little orange wristband which meant I did NOT reserve a copy of the book. But that's okay, I ended up just hanging out, walking around B&N and checking out their goods. I had to admit that there were a lot of really CUTE guys there! Who would have known?? My friend Huy called me while I was there too, a nice unexpected surprise. Turns out he was waiting at some bookstore in SA. Poor guy still hasn't gotten his book but he'll call when he does. hehe. To think he's been waiting since 11:30! So when I finally got my book, the chick asked me, "do you want 3?" GOOD LORD!! Do I need one in EACH place I frequent: my bedroom, bathroom and car?? LOL I passed. I left B&N at 1am. Not a bad time at all. I called Huy afterwards to tell him I got my book and when I retold this story, he said I should have gotten 3 so I could slang/sling (??? well basically sell them) later for cheaper since the bookstores will probably raise the prices back up later! DANG! LOL . . it's okay! No need for THAT many copies of one book!
Well I'm excited. I have my own copy of Harry Potter 6! I'm gonna shower and then be a nerd and read the book. Hopefully I wont be up all night!

J.K. Rowling is one smart woman! I need to come up with some NOVEL idea to write about so MILLIONS of children EVERYWHERE can buy my stuff!! THINK JANE THINK!! It'll come one day. . .maybe I'll write about the adventures of a multi-grain and a saltine cracker. . . =)

Continuing an earlier blog. . .
a while back ago i wrote about Violence against teachers in Thailand. . .just wanted to update whats going on over there. . .i guess i feel that being a teacher teaching in an "urban" high school where violence, gangs, ect ect exists, i always feel compelled to understand how other teachers handle violence in and around their schools. i honestly dont know if i could teach in a building that was surrounded by razor wire with soldiers outside. i mean, maybe there's a sense of safety but at the same time, you kind of realize how dangerous your job really is! its interesting because they interview some teachers and they give two different views:

Tanakorn Saengtarung, a school principal: I'm a teacher and I'm carrying a gun? It saddens me just to think about it.
Garonpan, a sports teacher: It's necessary for teachers to defend themselves, we dont know who the enemy is, so I think it's good.

It's crazy how the world works sometimes. Here's the link to the article Learning to live with Thai violence. Check it out people and hope that education and violence in the U.S. never get to this level.

how dirty are you?
this actually happened last week or so but i never wrote about it. my friends and i were poolside, hanging out and what not when one decided to tell me a joke. apparently a dirty joke. she started of with "there once was a rooster and a cat" and instinctively i responded "you mean, a cock and a pussy?" that was it. . .end joke! i think the girls were in pure shock how casually i said that. . . haha. they came to the conclusion that im pretty dirty to have known that . . .but i honestly think it was an old joke that i had heard before. i told the story to another friend and he knew what i was talking about before i said anything . . (honestly i have NO idea how the joke goes!) i think in high school we shared all these jokes. i mean, i like to think that i grew up around some pretty perverted folks. is it bad that i see the "dirty" side of everything first or at least some time during the conversation? how dirty is everyone else? is this normal or am i just a freak? (hahaha yeah right!!)

so im sure people have seen this before but try it out. . what do you see?? did you have a dirty mind because i sure as hell did! good luck!

timeless friendships
i got a chance to talk to one of my closest friends tonight, online though! we're suppose to chitchat sometime this weekend when she's free! she's coming to visit in august which is awesome since i havent seen her in FOREVER!! its amazing how our friendship works though. im glad that we can still be close and everything even when we havent seen or talked to each other in forever. now, im probably a bad friend for not calling and whatnot but i guess its kinda reassuring that we are still friends regardless. she's a busy gal! =)

i've written about this before. . .how friendships work. i love my friendships. i really do think that i have an awesome group of friends. i might have finally met that group of forever friends that i'll share timeless stories with. its great!

okay. . im not gonna write much for right now. i'll write more later if i feel the need.

storming like a bitch. . .but not over where i live!
what's the freaking deal! all three major stations (abc, cbs and nbc) are broadcasting all the flooded areas around town from the heavy bursts of rain. its insane! the water is just gushing from high ground to low ground, streets and highways are getting flooded! shoot, even yesterday part of 59 was flooded!

so here's where i bitch and complain. why the hell isnt it raining over where i live? its like a small sprinkle! its hot and humid as hell now but NO RAIN!! cmon rain gods! unleash the fury over here! i like the rain! just dont get rid of the electricity! AC is a necessity in houston! gimme some crazy thundery rain where it cools the city down, esp my side!

okay. . here's my other gripe. its actually just proof that i learned something in college. YEAH!! all that money came to SOME use! so all the flooding and high water is due to the increase of impervious ground (i think thats how its spelled!) there's too many streets and not enough land for the water to be absorbed into the ground! think about it! with streets, the water just runs off to the nearest place that will absorb it. when it gets to the lowest ground and cant go anywhere AND it wont be absorbed, well . . FLOODING!! then we get stupid people who wanan drive through it or speed regardless! thats how all these cars go belly up. oh well. . . rain is good, just not everywhere.

so here we go. . .rain here please??

SHOPPING, the cure for BOREDOM. . . *take 2*
**firefox crashed so im going to recreate what i had earlier
. . .since 1999. im sure i've been doing this for years upon years but in college it was prominent. we would catch the bus to the mall whenever we got bored. . .it was good times! normally i dont like going to the mall by myself but today, i spent a good day of solitary shopping. it was nice. i ended up getting a pair of shoes, two shirts and two pants. one of the pants im still not sure about but we'll see. im a little obsessive about banana republic now. i think its a good place to get nice pants. i tried on a pair and they fit perfectly! like "OMG they made me feel GORGEOUS" perfect!! too bad perfection costs $78!! ouchie! couldnt do that kinda damage to my bank account! im already hurting it as is right now!!

i also went to target and picked up the Howie Day cd. its really good! i love the song Collide! its soo romantic in a very subtle way. just check out the lyrics. i looked up his tour dates since he came to 104 and did a little in studio thing. apparently he did a show in austin at stubb's but not here. just came in for that little promo! it kinda makes me angry when artists bypass houston. im sure we could provide small venues too!! well for your viewing pleasure, here's a picture of Howie. this is whats on the cover of the special edition cover for "stop all the world now." i'll be honest, his music varies. sometimes its a dark sounding (to me) and then its just normal. . whatever that means. can you tell i should be a music critic? lol


anyways, i was talking to D again tonight about stuff. . .(my vagueness surprises me sometimes) and it was interesting. love, like, lust, blah. . .relationships! it really makes you think! why is it that when we like someone, we get extremely nervous? what for? are we scared to screw things up? because honestly the other person should like us for our flaws too!! i mean, NO ones perfect right?? i remember being nervous when i was dating Doug. it was purely for stupid reasons. i was immature, only 21. i didnt think i was "worthy." hahaha now i know better than to think that!

also what makes or breaks a potential relationship? what are we willing to put up with? is a bad habit okay? i've dated social smokers. . .i didnt necessarily kiss them AFTER the smoking but i've dated them. what about if they're not good at something? kissing, sex, foreplay, heck even conversation?? what then?? i'll be honest, i've had something *ahem*, well that i didnt like too much happen upon me and i still liked the guy. it was traumatizing to say the least but i still liked him. was i just stupid and naive or naive and stupid? lol. . .who knows!! i'll admit, i dunno if im a good kisser. i dont think i've ever learned from the best! what if im the one who's sucked and the guys have been letting me slide?? hahaha. . honestly i dont think i would really care. well until it really counted. . .maybe. . .

well here's a picture of me and my niece. she wasnt too happy at the time. . .but dont worry it wasnt because i scared her!!
oh yeah, which reminds me, when i was in the car, there was this aunt who HAD to have traumatized her nephew! they were at the pond feeding ducks when this duck bit her toe! she grabbed it by the neck and flung it. her nephew asked her "why did you throw the duck??" LOL dude!! thats FUNNY shiet! (oh yeah D, its spelled that way so it can be pronounced "sheeee-it"

okay thats it! happy reading folks!!

oh yeah, p.s. i wanna go karaoke so be prepared people!! =D

evidence that i'm good shiet!

i messaged Lawrence tonight on yahoo. Lawrence is a cool guy. he was one of Doug's roommates way back when i first met Doug. the L-dawg has always been a sweetheart to me and i've always thought he was an awesome guy. it was funny because i remember one night when he got really drunk and thought i liked him since i was holding his hand and being flirty. i just thought thats how people were when they were out. . lol! lemme tell you it was weird when he hit on me (but he was drunk so it was okay) since i remember tellin him that i will always be interested in Doug. . . stupid me! well check out what he wrote tonight.

lawrence [offline 11:17:44 PM]: still think doug should have gone for you...hes stupid

how freaking AWESOME is that!! i just wish he was telling Doug that, not me! i already know i was good for Doug. hehe oh well. . .no regrets! (that is the theme as of late!)

i've got a perfect body. . .
and ask me where i'm going with that (Pam). is it a comedic bone i'm flexing or the long awaited jolt of self-esteem i've been waiting for or maybe i'm going insane! maybe its ALL THREE. . .well anyways. . .

i didnt go to Schlitterbahn as planned on Monday. i was super sad about that but life must go on!! i had to do stuff to keep my mind busy or i would be MISERABLE all day! i spent yet another day at the mall but this time with my sister and her famille. i ended up seeing ANOTHER pair of shoes that i would LOVE to get! i'm still working on the DOUGANs so i'm gonna calm down on the shoe obsession!! but baby, you're next (esp once i find out what you're name is!!!! hehe)

so last night, my bro and i went to open mic night at the laff stop. OMG that shiet was freaking HILARIOUS!! i was busting my gut listening to these guys do their bits. we walked in on some guy who looked like some random person who went up there. he was hilarious! i wish i knew his name. i swear, it looked like some random indian college student who just thought he was funny. . kinda reminded me of my days back at UT. there was also one guy that was SUPER HOT! OMG he was GORGEOUS! it was cool since they were just walking around like normal people so you could be like INCHES away from them. he apparently knew a lot of people. who knows! oddly enough, i found the black comics extremely funny! some of them were more CRUDE then funny but the majority were funny. for some reason, there's something about sex that brings universal humor. it just depends on the delivery and the diction apparently whether you'll enjoy it or not. there was a comic by the name Lil Bro (my assumption on the spelling there) funny dude! so two things have come out of that experience: 1. my brother and i are planning to frequent the open mic night. granted its kinda far driving out to river oaks but its a good time! we just need to get out there early so we can sit our asses down and laugh them off! its cool because its free and there's no pressure to drink! who could ask for more?? and 2. maybe eventually in time, i'll get enough courage to go up there and be funny! i figure i've got some funny shiet up my sleeve. im sure 5 years in college, one year down in teaching and being single and asian all have some humorous possibilities! i'll just have to come up with something! it'll be worth going!

which reminds me, i still wanna go karaoke. apparently im doing all these things one at a time. slowly but surely i'll accomplish everything i wanna try doing. i was thinking about regrets after i read D's blog. i honestly can say, as i told him earlier, that i've kinda gotten over the whole regret thing. its just one thing that i dont do. i use to regret relationships and things that happened but honestly i've learned TONS of things! i mean, to say i havent would be a HUGE lie so im not gonna start! i think the one thing i can generalize to regretting is not trying things sometimes. just taking the chance. . .ya know, like hitting on some random guy because like everyone says, whats the worst thing that can happen? (lemme just say that in MY mind, TONS can happen! none of them look fun for me!) i mean, cmon, i've sung on stage in front of more than 250 people yet i've never karaoked in front of more than 10. its weird but it happens. . .

there's something else that i've been meaning to blog about but i cant remember! i know for sure one thing that i'm super excited about (here's my indirect admission to tv addiction), Sex and the City is coming to non-cable. YES!! 7 days a week! its gonna be awesome. i cant wait. i've seen a couple of seasons and episodes here and there. ironically in college, my roommates said i was like Carrie (which i agree with since i can, from time to time, give some AWESOME advice). im excited! more tv to overload my slowly becoming mush brain! yeah!!

oh yeah, im starting to hate this "almost" rain. its like "almost" having an orgasm. you're soo excited about the possibility of it happening and you're almost there but it never comes. dammit! rain already!! almost doesn't count. EVER!

well thats it! good day people!

Happy Birthday Tabitha and Angelina
so its actually really late and early for the both of them but today was their party! Tabitha actually turned 1 June 28 and Angelina's almost a month so thats what we were celebrating. lemme tell ya, it was an insane afternoon/evening! a LOT of things happen but i'll highlight the key things thats im gonna remember!
***Tabitha runs into a table and leaves two HUGE marks, one on her bridge of her nose and one in her left eyebrow. battle scars!!
***Pam and Tabitha are friends! yeah!! She was smiling and happy the whole time! i should have taken a picture so we could remember today forever!!
***There was TONS of food, as always.
***Pam and i got ACL tickets! we said bye to $124 in ONE click! damn!
***Tons of people were over and there were quite a few kids (under 10). something that i'm not use to and thats okay!!
***made sangria and drank too much of it! damn, i suck! lol but its goood stuff!!

i'm really glad Ricky and Pam were here though. it made things fun! they even saw my room! Yikes!! lets say that i have to agree with Pam that due to the state of my room, i am NOT allowed to get married anytime soon!

well we're headed out to Sherlock's on West Gray at some point. gotta get my uncle to move his car so i can take mom's car! it'll be fun! =) i'll write more when i get home or whenever. . .
i'll try to make it funny =)

oh yeah, i will be putting up my plan for ACL as soon as i have time to sit down and think about me! Me and Pam are super excited! yeah!!!!

Random News Stuff
Hey shorty, its your birthday, we're gonna par-tay like its your birthday...

today was the Dalai Lama's 70th birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DALAI LAMA!!

he celebrated in his exiled home of India with festivals, dances, good ole fashion tibetan partying ways while unveiling a book on Gandhi. he rolls with the big dawgs. . .well here to the Dalai Lama!!

Avian Flu. . .
ya know, im really not a fan of it. apparently its now found in wild geese which means there's more transmission of the virus. i read an article on the eyewitness account of someone who caught it. this whole jumping species thing is kinda scary! so if you see a geese that looks like what's pictured below,

DONT TOUCH IT!!

DANGER!!

PLUS be SUPER scarrrrrred since its apparently only in Asia right now! i know i am!!!

Prince Albert II's *gasp* love child
Wow! you have to admit its nice when royals admit that they're normal! he apparently he has a love child with a flight attendant he knew a while back. oh well shiet happens right? as long as he's not a deadbeat dad! =)

G8 and global climate change. .it's gettin HOT in here!!
seriously, i think its a lost cause. Bush is totally against anythign thats Kyoto-esque. we're all gonna fry kids! there has to be something to explain why the thermostat(?) in the car says its freaking 103 degrees outside!! antartica's ice shelves doesnt melt for kicks W!! oh well, what can ya do??

London wins 2012 Olympics
haha seriously. . i dont know why i bother but its something interesting. its funny how the pick a city and then tell them to fix it in time for the next olympics. the clock is ticking!! fry up your best fish and chips Blair!! honestly if they just put Prince William as their mascot or if he shows up at all the events, i'll be there in 2012!!

okay just to update. . .i still love Adam. here's another picture of him. . .

YUMMY!!

i love Maroon5's songs! my favorite line from "Secrets": i ask you how hot can it get and as you wipe of beads of sweat, slowly you say 'i'm not there yet!' hehehe remember, its song about Jane!!!

oh yeah, as promised, the picture of John Mayer kissing Adam. what was going on?? i dont know. . .it looks like Adam was dressed like a girl. . .ah, they say fame doesnt go to their head. . .maybe it does???

WTF???!!

oh yeah, about today, Pam and i went to study at B&N/Starbucks! damn, im gonna need to study BIG TIME! lsats are freaking INSANE. . .or i just need to concentrate and then i'll kick some ass!! hehehe. . i need to plan to go to Princeton Review to take a practice test to see how i'll do. . .okie. . imma try to wake up early to run tomorrow. we'll see if that happens. honestly i really should ride around on my bike but i dont wanna DIE in the heat. damn me for being soo needy when it comes to the AC!!

my type
so Pam and i were talking (well IMing) and she was telling me how apparently now she has a type. . . someone like Dierks Bentley:
curly blonde hair, dark eyes, tan. . .which works! he's a cutie! deep sexy voice and tall. . . good stuff!! (oh yeah, i went and got his cd. . .good stuff!

it made me think about what my type is. . i always thought i never had a type but honestly i think i do. . .i like tall guys (because i think it looks cute), dark hair and dark eyes. for some reason i've had tendency towards lanky but who knows why! lets say someone like Adam Levine! *sigh* what a hottie! and to think, he wrote a whole album about me, Songs about Jane. too bad i broke his heart! but we can still enjoy his hotness! so here we go!!i'll have to add more pics later. . ONE is NOT enough!!

i found something random online though. .apparently at some comcernt in 12/04, Adam and John Mayer kissed. . ill have to post the picture up later. . its the weirdest shiet. . kinda freaky. . but i guess thats what you get from rockers! lol

New Campaign: Guns for Teachers!
so i know it sounds crazy but apparently times have come to that point. evidently im not asleep even though its almost 5am! im suppose to run with Pam at 7:30. right about now, im not sure if i should just stay up and go running and stuff and then nap later. it might happen that way! well i was reading BBC news about how teachers in Thailand are now allowed to carry guns (Gun-toting Thai teachers)! INSANE! apparently they're having a lot of violence. 24 teachers have been killed and thousands are requesting transfers from the violence stricken south! the violence is being blamed on Islamic militants who believe that the teachers are basically enforcing the rule of the Buddhist run government. (btw, i really love (sarcasm there) how religion ALWAYS plays a role in violence! UGH!)

it makes me think how im lucky that Alief isnt really THAT bad. once they start issuing CHEAP (which isnt that reassuring) guns to every teacher in district, im gonna have to worry. i think if they're gonna buy cheap guns, they might as well provide us with option to buy bullet proof vests for a discounted rate or give them for free!! wow! what is the world coming to?? i dunno. . but it makes me wonder. . .

oh yeah, found another article on the topic. . feel free to check it out. . . makes me wonder about the whole gun thing. something to possibly look into eventually. . .

what i want. . .
so i went to Cathy's (a coworker) wedding tonight. it was REALLY nice. it was at this place called the Parador. i have to admit, i really want to marry someone who wants a church wedding (because he's Christian) so i can have a church wedding. the whole ceremony is always soo beautiful. ( of course this would be in addition to whatever the traditonal wedding ceremony my parents would want!) Rick, from work, officiated the wedding and it was kinda insane to see him in his clergyman robes and stuff since he's a pretty funny offbeat (read "perverted". . when he wants to be) guy. to see him in that role was pretty cool. he's a cool guy overall!! well it was fun! she looked great in her wedding dress, the food was good and OMG the cake was delicious! and it definitely works when there's an open bar serving top shelf liquor!! LOL (does this make me sound like an alcoholic?? i hope not! =X)

funny wedding story: previously Sjon, Megan and i were scoping for cute guys . . .Sjon noticed a guy behind us that looked familar and thought he might have gone to school with her. when we were in line for the buffet, he happened to be behind me and Rick and we started talking. he was freakin HILARIOUS!! to be honest, he was pretty cute. we talked about random stuff. . .told him i was a teacher and he asked if i got hit on by the students since i was cute (aint that sweet. . LOL) he asked me what my last name was and then started referring to me as Ms.V. OMG. . that drove me nuts! when he asked me why i didnt have a bf, i told him because of the jokes that i make when guys throw compliments or lines. . .he was entertaining. . once we got past the mashed potatos, it was over.... it makes me kinda sad but it was funny. . i would be fun to run into him again sometime. . but who knows! well here's a picture of (l-r, b-f): Sjon, Megan, Me, Jam, Darren and Cathy.

oh yeah, just in case you wanna see how my highlights look, its not a good picture but it gives you an idea! here they are!!
awesome!!!

full house!
its a full house to the point that i've been kicked out of my room AND my futon!! i think im gonna opt for the couch only because i'll feel a little more free that way!! it'll be a fun morning tomorrow! highlights here i come!! hehe =)

some people are insane like my dear friend. . . sometimes i wish i was THAT FUN. . .i am but not really. . .does that make any sense? probably not. . . but i dont thin its meant to make that much sense! oh well. . .gotta wrap my wedding present tomorrow and figure out what im wearing. i sound like a complete dork huh? oh well! gotta look cute!! =) okie nitey nite. . .it'll be an "early" one!

my first quincenera
so i went to one of my student's quincenera tonight. it was quite interesting. i got there at about 7 and then left by 9 or so. it was an interesting 2 hours to say the least! i brought Tabitha with me to accompany on one of my firsts. i got there and to be honest, i looked like i had walked into thr wrong place!! there was food, drinks (which i didnt consume outside of sprite), dancing music, tons of people. i had fun. Tab's got a little irritable after a while since she was tired but it was fun nonetheless. if anything i might have some pictures of Tabs before we go. i might post them later! now im just gonna be staying up waiting for my cousins from Louisianna to get here! i cant wait because tomorrow one of them is going to highlight my hair! YEAH!! ya gotta love that!! well thats it for now. . im getting bored since no one is blogging lately. . ya big farts! write something!! =P

apparently im Canadian??

so this was on Pam's journal and decided to try it. . .

Your Slanguage Profile

Canadian Slang: 50%

British Slang: 25%

New England Slang: 25%

Southern Slang: 25%

Victorian Slang: 25%

Aussie Slang: 0%

Prison Slang: 0%

What Slanguage Do You Speak?

apparently im speak (or guess) more Canadian slang. . who would have guessed? maybe in my former life, my brain was Canadian. . .who knows!!

i came home from my last day of Materials Camp and passed out on my bed at approximately 6pm...no one woke me up for dinner or anything so i didnt get up till 2ish am. i just had a banana which will probably hold me over till the "morning" apparently i was EXHAUSTED!! in a weird way, im kinda sad Camp is over but i LEARNED a lot and became friends with some awesome people. turns out that one of the ladies from camp was the mentor teacher for the new science teacher that we're gettin at HNGC. im gonna try to get in touch with her which will be cool. well im gonna shower and then go back to bed! yeah! what an exciting life i lead! lol. . .oh yeah, im still trying to scrub crap off of my hands. . .yuck! i'll live!!

i <3 ikea
so i went to the preview for the "it only happens twice a year" sale for ikea! i went and was there for about 2 hours! i really love that place! sometimes i wish i had my own apt so i could ikea it out! im sure i would spend soo much money it wouldnt be funny! well i went and bought frames for my pictures on the wall but it turned out that they're TOO small! i would have to cut the matte board and i dont wanna do that so im gonna go back to ikea (tomorrow) and see if they have something bigger! im probably gonna end up keeping one of the frames since i took of the plastic. . unless the let me return cuz then if thats the case, im gonna return it so i can get 4 new ones! i mean, i spent almost $30 on small frames!! my matted art isnt even worth as much as the frames!!!

well tomorrow is my last day at Materials Camp. i've had sooo much fun!! i made an oversized clothes pin and clear slime today which was FREAKIN AWESOME! i got so many ideas for COSMO next year! i might have hit super dork level. i never thought i would see myself there but apparently, i'm there! im gonna try to get email address for some of the teachers i met because they were too cool to NOT keep in touch with!! its kinda bittersweet! i mean, no more 8-5 at UH with cool people. . . i kinda enjoyed the "college" thing. . minus the LONG LONG periods in the lecture hall! i could pass on that but the labs were fun! things i've NEVER done before!! maybe i should spend parts of the rest of my summer becoming a bigger dork!!

well its July now which is the busier of my summer months. i think im gonna be serious about the whole "running" thing. my legs were actually killing me from tuesday. . i need to do it again. . .or maybe i should wake up early on saturday and go biking. . .something to consider! or maybe tomorrow. . hmmmmmm...i'll have to think about that one!! okay. . its late. . i need sleep before i look like super dead!