the male vs the female mind
why is it that men and women are so DIFFERENT?? i never understood that. after (almost) 24 years of life, i think im starting to understand the male mind. the differences can be best illustrated in the picture below. . .

MEN THINK ABOUT SEX. .. ALL THE TIME!! (some of us women do too so i dont agree with that part of the female brain) but we also look for commitment. . not like huge diamond on my left ring finger commitment but maybe even serious companionship. to be honest, as i grow older (hahaha like im REALLY that old), what i really want is a really close friend that i can share everything with, and the added benefits!! marriage is still an option. maybe something like that Goldie Hawn and Kurt Russell! too cute!

next, we're complicated!

apparently far more complicated than men. when something bad happens, we want to know the 5 W's of it!! some XYs care less. all they wanna know is that its over and that we'll never bring it up again. (maybe thats an overgeneralization but thats how im feeling right about now!)

GUYS, lemme remind you that we, women, are EMOTIONAL creatures! its something we CANT control! its all the freakin ESTROGEN running in our blood. i should know because i AM an emotional person. sometimes its scary how emotional i am! i love, hate, worried, wonder, ponder, question, and all those other fun verbs!! it sucks but i cant help it!! even simple actions confuse me, esp if its coming from the object of my affection! *sigh* as women, we need DEFINED lines. the blurriness gets our mind going, like a freaking race horse, and before you know it, we're going insane. . . one of the things that you HATE about us!!

personal example: i think i've found sorta-closure with Giang and Doug. Giang (or John as some of you know him as) was what i considered the love of my 20 year old life. Naive, i know! i never got closure from him and honestly, i NEVER will! but in the meantime, i've come to terms with things. he could NEVER be for me since he didnt accept me for me like i accepted him for him. we had the big things going against us: distance (its hard for college kids!) and religion. i learned a LOT from him, most importantly how it was to be in love with someone, heart pangs and everything! Doug. . .is a different story. from him, i learned that the best type of relationship comes from you being YOU! (duh, right!!) i was super intimidated by him (geez, i had JUST turned 21, switched to liberal arts with the intention to go into teaching while he had his masters in mechanical engineering and was working at dell.) yeah, doesnt really make him smarter than me but it was intimidating that many years ago. all i ever wanted from him was just a glimpse into his mind: what do you really want from me? if anything, answers will never be found but heck! im a GREAT girl and its their loss!!

(sorry for the lack of organization, im going back to add sections, im sure you can tell which ones!!)

NEXT, i'll be HONEST, i am truly INTRIGUED by the male species. there's so much that i dont know about them and want to learn about them! heck i've learned soo much in the past week about myself and others and I LOVE IT!! OPENNESS is WONDERFUL! sometimes you just have one of THESE days!

but dont worry, it apparently takes me more than just a reflective post about men and women to get to that level! i just thought the peacocks were funny. . or maybe i just wanted to write the word peaCock over and over again! hahahaha
honestly, its hard for me to believe that when i was 20, i had THE master plan made. i was planning to be married by 25, with my first kid on the way a year or so afterwards. NOW, im just waiting. . .i KNOW im NOT gonna be married at 25, there is NO plan. i just want to enjoy myself, meet people and hopefully find someone that's perfect (or close to perfect or maybe just right) for me. hopefully it'll happen before i look like that chick up there!!

i've come to accept many things about my life. i know that i still have a LOT of learning to do! A LOTTA LOT!! so please, ladies and gentlemen, TEACH ME!! =)

just one last cartoon! everyone's seen this one but its just cute! (i found this site with all of these on it and HAD to share! ENJOY!
oh yeah, something to hold me by, if you want, i promise NO headaches, EVER!! =D