its HUMP HUMP HUMPITY HUMP day!!
soooo this week has been INSANE!! i've been going to this ASM Materials Camp at UH which is basically an 8-5. its the first time in my life i had to deal with Houston rush hour traffic! INSANITY! i dunno how you working folk do it! i almost killed myself THREE times on 59 on monday! i've been better though! being at this camp totally makes me want to go to back to school SOOO BAD!! i miss learning. .granted i'm not one for 8am classes though! i coudl do without those anyday! but i've met some awesome people AND i've gotten a lot of awesome FREE shiet! its amazing!! i love it! what person doesnt love free stuff?? i mean, i have residual college student-ness in me AND the whole teacher thing! UH is a cool campus. i explored it yesterday in an effort to get some running in and there's some pretty cool fountains on that campus. i obviously like UT a LOT better but who wouldnt?? yesterday pooped me out to the point i was passed out by 9pm! it was AMAZING gettin that much sleep! i love it!! i like having long days as long as i get sleep in!!

well i dont have much else to write. . .my internet is crappy from time to time, coming in and out which sucks major nuts! haha but i'll be okay. . its hump day! the weekend is almost here and i cant wait! it's gonna be AWESOME!! =)

some funny stuff
i found this website called PunchPanda and its the funniest stuff i've seen in a while. i love these humor publications online! here is a sample of a cartoon from the site! check it out!

if you want to have kids, dont marry an old guy!
i thought that would be a catchy title. i promised a blog on male (in)fertility so here it goes! i was reading this article on BBC news about male infertility and that it was quite interesting. most articles usually are about female fertility decreasing because of abnormalities and whatnot in the eggs as women get older! apparently they're not as fresh as they use to be!! =x well in this article, its the same thing for men!! sperm dont get any better as the men get older!

to be honest, i found this a bit weird only because men continuously make sperm! men dont have sperm hanging out in their testes that were "born" when they hit puberty! those guys came out a LONG time ago!! it always seems to be a fresh batch for the men! women on the other hand are only blessed with so many eggs in their ovaries at birth! no more new ones! those lovelies just age and get funky over time! in the case of the human egg, it does not age well like a fine wine!

so what happens to bad sperm? all sorts of stuff! here's a diagram (especially since i can post them now and purely because i LOVE pictures):
look at how they vary: big head, little head, TWO heads, two tails, sharp head, (dunno what's wrong with this one!), too much mitochondria (powerful swimmer). . the INSANITY! here are some REAL pictures of the defunct sperm!
abnormal sperm normal sperm
look how happy looking those normal ones are!! poor disfucntional guys! they were made to dissolve into the female's body! funny how survival of the fittest works for these little guys too!

so lets look back at female fertility. the last set of articles that i've read stated that female fertility declines in the late 20s and not the 30s as previously thought! women are starting to do their thing first and then start families meaning this is becoming a common trend (see here)

so here's the deal! the older we get, the harder it is to have a normal child who is safe from genetic disorders from aging eggs and sperms! its unfortunate but thats just the truth! there are many people who are fortunate to have babies that are safe from genetic disorders and what not even though they are past their "child bearing prime." GO YOU!! but for me, im gonna play it safe!! its funny to think that now i can put an experiation date on my eggs. . . august 12, 2011!! i'll be 30 then! DUDE!! if i dont start using them then, i might as well put up shop!

so boys, be careful with your little guys! use them wisely because they're not gonna be fresh forever!! =)

i love learning!!
Materials Camp was fun today! I'm excited about this week, esp since the master teachers are so dynamic! most Debbie and Andy look really familar so i wonder if i saw them at CAST or something. . . who knows!! When i saw the people in the class, i was rather excited that there were two other teachers there that were young. . . unfortunately to my dismay, they're not fun young people! boo! so i've found refuge in some of the older teachers. there's this one teacher from Dobie, Carolyn, who's a freakin hoot! she's hilarious! i like talking to her a lot! the whole camp is pretty amazing. we get fed almost all the time. . which is good and bad. lunch is badass since we have it at the hilton on campus. the food is delicious! i mean, who has a 3 course lunch (salad, main and dessert!) i was stuffed. . .and i peed so much today because of all the water i drank, it was INSANE! the information was really cool so im excited to see what the rest of the week has instored! there's a field trip tomorrow (yeah!) which is cool! i didnt run today after class but im planning to tomorrow. it was kinda late and of course, i had to pee! LOL one interesting new thing was that it took me over an HOUR to get home!! that was weird!!! PLUS, i felt like i was gonna DIE on 59! i dont know if i like the whole idea of living far from school. times like this i miss living and going to school in austin. . .

i'm really excited about going back to school now! i think im gonna have to look and study for the LSAT extra hard!! learning makes me feel challenged and i like it!! im sure there will be more later tonight!

the weirdest dream
i had the weirdest dream last night. . or more like hours ago. i really cant give many details since it was that BAD!! not scary bad but "OMG, i cant believe i dreamt that" bad!!! i wonder if its due to not having a "good night." hahaha! but man!! it was weird!! who knew that some pictures from last week could really do that much haunting!!

honestly i've NEVER dreamt of anything like that! (is dreamt even a word???) okay well i better get changing! continually thinking about THE DREAM will be NO GOOD!! i must function on a normal basis today! i've got learning to do!! =)

REAL QUICK. . .just went to Texas Sports and saw that UT beat Florida today 6-2 (yesterday's win was 4-2) meaning they're
Congrats guys!!

HOOK'EM!

like the first day of school. . .
Gosh, im nervous! i dont get it. i'm almost 24 years old and going to things where i meet people for the first time still makes me super nervous! tomorrow is the first day of my 5 day ASM Materials Camp. basically its a science teacher camp with an emphasis in material science. so i'll be at UH from 8am to 5:30pm in class all this week. . .me and 24 other science teachers from around Houston. fun, right? i hope so! its gonna be a lot of hands-on experiments which will be totally cool but the whole "shy Jane" may kick in if i have to cooperatively work with TONS of people! i do fine in groups but it takes time! i need to build trust! lol but yeahh . . .nervous and i need to be sleeping since i'll be back to my work wake up schedule, something i havent done in a month!! one exciting thing about this week is im gonna try to work out after im done with my class. i've decided to bring work out clothes so that after class, i can change and go running around UH. it'll be my chance to discover the campus a little bit more. i kinda miss being a student and its a good way to pretend im one again. . .(who would have thought 5 years ago i would have WANTED to still be in school?? NOT I!! =x)

my mom had jokingly told me yesterday that she hopes, for my sake, that tomorrow there will be a cute young male teacher there. i just looked over the "roster" for the workshop and there's about 7 men on it. they're probably all old but we'll see!

this brings me to my next point: what's wrong with me being single??
my cousin from New Orleans called today to confirm that they're coming into town saturday night and she requested to speak to me after she talked to my mom. i DREAD when any of my relatives want to speak to me, only because the first question is ALWAYS (mark my words!!) "do you have a boyfriend?" hahaha of course i replied with the simple "no" supporting my answers with the reasons of "i'm too busy during the school year" (which is totally true!), "there arent any young guys at work" (another true statement because Todd doesnt count!) and "i really dont get out that much" (this is semi-true. i do get out but im not always looking for guys when im out. . .its time to just have fun!) i kinda have the "stuck being single" mentality from time to time. . .the "why me??" questioning and what not but i think im hanging in there and enjoying the ride!

the really good thing that came out of my conversation with my cousin is that she's gonna highlight and cut my hair sunday morning! im super excited! i like change, esp when it has to do with hair!! when it happens, ill be sure to post a picture!

okay, its time for me to attempt to go to sleep. lets see if this works or not. . .i mean, its almost 11pm and thats "early!" wish me luck overcoming the rushings of the first day of kindergarten tomorrow and driving to UH. hopefully i wont DIE!! =x

oh yeah, tomorrow's random topic: male fertility! i read something interesting and i wanted to share my POV on it!! till then!!

Productivity via Boredom!
so i stayed in tonight and thus got a little bored! this was actually a good thing since it gave me a chance to put my shelves together and begin organizing my room. its not as clean as i would like it to be but its a start. i began putting pictures into all the frames i have. its pretty nice. i know that most of my friends havent seen my room because. .well its always a MESS! this is one of the rare occasions where i see CARPET! hehehe =x (yes, yes, i know my appeal to men has probably dropped A LOT from that admission alone!) but for those who are interested in the progress of my room, i've taken pictures! i'll update them as i get my room together.

Here is a view of my shelves from my bed:

And here is how my bed looks, basically the top of it and whats above it. nice huh?

can you tell what my color scheme is?

anyways. . on to normal stuff! i got to talk to one of my really good friends, Huy, tonight! he is such an awesome guy! i love this dude! its funny because he is probably the most calmest guy i know. he always is willing to listen to my insanities, which is nice because most people dont care for them! he's awesome. sometimes i wish Huy lived closer so i could hang out with him more! imma have to go visit him in SA! cant wait! just in case you ever read this, thanks for calling me tonight! for once, my away message worked! (just for those who want to know what it said: awake, bored, seeking refuge!

good night everyone. .or morning. . =)

the male vs the female mind
why is it that men and women are so DIFFERENT?? i never understood that. after (almost) 24 years of life, i think im starting to understand the male mind. the differences can be best illustrated in the picture below. . .

MEN THINK ABOUT SEX. .. ALL THE TIME!! (some of us women do too so i dont agree with that part of the female brain) but we also look for commitment. . not like huge diamond on my left ring finger commitment but maybe even serious companionship. to be honest, as i grow older (hahaha like im REALLY that old), what i really want is a really close friend that i can share everything with, and the added benefits!! marriage is still an option. maybe something like that Goldie Hawn and Kurt Russell! too cute!

next, we're complicated!

apparently far more complicated than men. when something bad happens, we want to know the 5 W's of it!! some XYs care less. all they wanna know is that its over and that we'll never bring it up again. (maybe thats an overgeneralization but thats how im feeling right about now!)

GUYS, lemme remind you that we, women, are EMOTIONAL creatures! its something we CANT control! its all the freakin ESTROGEN running in our blood. i should know because i AM an emotional person. sometimes its scary how emotional i am! i love, hate, worried, wonder, ponder, question, and all those other fun verbs!! it sucks but i cant help it!! even simple actions confuse me, esp if its coming from the object of my affection! *sigh* as women, we need DEFINED lines. the blurriness gets our mind going, like a freaking race horse, and before you know it, we're going insane. . . one of the things that you HATE about us!!

personal example: i think i've found sorta-closure with Giang and Doug. Giang (or John as some of you know him as) was what i considered the love of my 20 year old life. Naive, i know! i never got closure from him and honestly, i NEVER will! but in the meantime, i've come to terms with things. he could NEVER be for me since he didnt accept me for me like i accepted him for him. we had the big things going against us: distance (its hard for college kids!) and religion. i learned a LOT from him, most importantly how it was to be in love with someone, heart pangs and everything! Doug. . .is a different story. from him, i learned that the best type of relationship comes from you being YOU! (duh, right!!) i was super intimidated by him (geez, i had JUST turned 21, switched to liberal arts with the intention to go into teaching while he had his masters in mechanical engineering and was working at dell.) yeah, doesnt really make him smarter than me but it was intimidating that many years ago. all i ever wanted from him was just a glimpse into his mind: what do you really want from me? if anything, answers will never be found but heck! im a GREAT girl and its their loss!!

(sorry for the lack of organization, im going back to add sections, im sure you can tell which ones!!)

NEXT, i'll be HONEST, i am truly INTRIGUED by the male species. there's so much that i dont know about them and want to learn about them! heck i've learned soo much in the past week about myself and others and I LOVE IT!! OPENNESS is WONDERFUL! sometimes you just have one of THESE days!

but dont worry, it apparently takes me more than just a reflective post about men and women to get to that level! i just thought the peacocks were funny. . or maybe i just wanted to write the word peaCock over and over again! hahahaha
honestly, its hard for me to believe that when i was 20, i had THE master plan made. i was planning to be married by 25, with my first kid on the way a year or so afterwards. NOW, im just waiting. . .i KNOW im NOT gonna be married at 25, there is NO plan. i just want to enjoy myself, meet people and hopefully find someone that's perfect (or close to perfect or maybe just right) for me. hopefully it'll happen before i look like that chick up there!!

i've come to accept many things about my life. i know that i still have a LOT of learning to do! A LOTTA LOT!! so please, ladies and gentlemen, TEACH ME!! =)

just one last cartoon! everyone's seen this one but its just cute! (i found this site with all of these on it and HAD to share! ENJOY!
oh yeah, something to hold me by, if you want, i promise NO headaches, EVER!! =D

when new and old converge, part 2!
so as mentioned earlier, i went out with Pam and Alfredo. we actually went by aliases. we thought it would be a lot more fun that way. so it was a night out on the town with Michelle and Freddy. i was known as Madison. the names werent as successful as we thought they would be but we had TONS of fun! Pam forgot about her bangs and talked to tons of fun guys and i got to spend time with one of my favorite guys! its funny how everytime "Freddy" and i hang out, people assume we're dating. it sucks for me but heck, sometimes its not a BAD thing! i didnt take too many pictures, i never do! so i've decided to post up 2 out of the 4 pics that i took tonite!

"freddy" and i in the southern cubby (correction: Michelle says it was the country snug, i think!)i think thats the name of it!

i think the picture came out EXTREMELY adorable! he and i have a deal that if we're not married by 30, we'll marry each other! if thats the case, this is gonna be our engagement pic! lol

here's a pic of Michelle and i on the bike shaped bike rack. the pic was taken in a rush because i didnt wanna get arrested! on the front of the bike, there's a sign saying you're not suppose to climb it! oops! oh yeah, if she doesnt like it, im taking it off!! sorry guys!


i had an awesome nite! it was fun! love yall for sharing it with me!

*******************************RANDOMS!!*******************************
so now that i've figure out how to post pictures, im gonna post some pictures that i've been meaning to share! the first one is my newest niece, Angelina. she's a cutie pie!!


and this is a picture of her big sister Tabitha! here's Tabs making her "suck it" face! (she was actually slurping up noodles!) haha she's adorable and almost ONE!!!


look at how much she's grown since last year. . doesnt her Auntie look HOT?? hehe =)



D--
im jacking the Corithians passage from your blog. . .i wanted to share it to others (specifically Pam) i think im gonna start reading bits of the Bible for pure learning. i should have read it my senior year for english (for the purpose of being familar with biblical literary allusions) but i didnt! the pages are sooo freaking thin! i've heard so much great stuff about Corithians that im gonna have to check it out. if im gonna be knowledgable about religion, i should start reading the stuff!! the passage is as followed:
Corinthians 13:1-13
1
If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.
2
If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
3
If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.
4
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
5
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
6
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
7
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
9
For we know in part and we prophesy in part,
10
but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.
11
When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.
12
Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.


this week has been quite interesting to say the least. it hink if anything, i've learned a lot about myself and my friends. i'll be honest, for the past, hmmm 3 years or so, my confidence and self-esteem has suck to an ALL-TIME low but i think im starting to slowly recover! being around other AWESOME WOMEN like Pam and Maria has be starting to believe that I AM AN AWESOME PERSON!! i've never thought of myself as HOT. . .but i dont think i'm ugly either. if anything, i've always relied on the fact that i'm a damn fun person to be around. i think tonight was interesting. it was the first time Pam had ever seen me interact with a boy in such a way. she found me to be really confident around Alfredo since i was all huggy touchie feely and stuff. ironically thats just how i really am around guys im comfortable. im truly a very affectionate person! i think i just need to believe that i'm awesome. . most importantly EXTRAORDINARY! gotta go back to Liz Phair and listen to her song! yeah! but yeah, tonight has taught me a lot. i need to EXUDE confidence. something that each woman works on everyday. im FINALLY starting to begin walking down that path. =)

i'm tired. . its late. . have a good night everyone!

im sooo excited!
so i've switched over to mozilla/firefox! apparently it works better for blogging because now i have all the little cool BUTTONS!! thanks D for the help!!

so just got out of the shower and getting ready to go party with Pam and Alfredo. i'm totally loving all this QT im having with Pam. its great! honestly, its nice to be so open with a friend! you're the bestest!! =) i'm excited that Alfredo is coming out tooo! i love this guy! he's the bestest too! i love this mexican. . i mean PERUVIAN!! =P okay time to get ready! i'll be sure to post some pix if i take any!! yeah!! excitement awaits!

oh yeah, if anyone who reads this wanna joins in, we'll be out in rice village. feel free to call me or play WHERE'S JANE??

almost forgot!!
TEXAS BASEBALL!! THIS WEEKEND, AGAINST FLORIDA!!
HOOK'EM HORNS!!!
Chance Wheeless apparently was THE MAN for the game against Baylor.

i LOVE Texas sports!! =)

i'm kinda missing UT. . .here are some pictures just to remind me off the good ole days. . .
if UT beats Florida. . .

one of my favorite places on campus to sit and think!! THE TURTLE POND (too bad you cant see any of them in this picture!)

i'll save more for another time. . .its time to go get changed!! =)

randomness
im about to go to study for the LSAT with Pam in a little bit (me LSAT, her GRE). while im waiting, im gonna post some randomness. for some reason i dont have all these little buttons on the top of my blogger window when im on my laptop, only when im on my brother's computer! sooo i'm taking advantage of it!! some of the funniest shiet i've ever seen online!

The panda-dog!

isnt it the cutest thing you've EVER seen??? OMG! it just cracks me up!

i think thats all for now! maybe i'll have to get around to putting up some of my favorite france pics from last summer!

maybe i'll take some good pictures this weekend and post those! i got the best top in the world that im DYING to wear! yeah!!

btw, D, what web browser do you use?? maybe thats why i dont get to see it on my laptop!! no buttons!

Reading and Replies
so if you have guessed, im an ADDICT! they need to form a group called BA, bloggers anonymous. if anything, i think online journaling is great for me! sometimes i wish i have found it early in 2001! hahaha it would have been a good bitch fest session for me!! my roommates would have loved it since it would have had them off the hook with all the Giang bitching.

anyways, i currently read two blogs/journals religiously, Pam's and Dean's. i think its because i know they read mine pretty often too! hehe =) thanks guys! sometimes i wish i had certain people reading what i was writing. D told me that when he started blogging he sent out the link to a few people and now he has a HUGE following! i can totally tell since he's always got tons of people, friends and randoms, commenting on his blog. its funny because sometimes reading his comments section totally answers all the questions we talk about during our conversations online. (the sis totally answered the question from the other night!)

not to harp on something thats already dead, sometimes i wish Giang, Doug, David, hell, any of the guys that i encounter in life, read my journal. mostly Doug though. . .sometimes i wonder what he would have thought if he knew i would have stayed in austin for him. . .i would have never moved for Giang but for Doug. . . *sigh*

i'm fucking insane sometimes. . .

time to find some lunchie!!

have a good day guys!

SPURS WIN!
Game 7. . .intense! too bad i was way tired and passed out on the couch for parts of it. the good news to report is that the Spurs beat the Pistons to win ANOTHER championship! wahoo!!

in other sports news, UT is playin Florida for the College World Series starting Saturday. i think im gonna need to find a place, most likely fox and hound, to go and watch the game! amazingly i dont know what my deal is since im not THAT big of a sports fan but i am when it comes to teams i like! Hook'em horns!

well thats about it. keep it short and simple! lata!

i HATE cingular!
i just got my phone bill. its fucking over $300!! i'm not happy. it's really my brother's fault. he uses one of the cells and went over almost 200 minutes which is costing me over $100!! URGH!! the anger can not be conveyed online!! i'll write more later once i figure what happesn with Game 7

Rants and Raves
Rant: my internet sucks sometimes. . .sorry to yall that i was talking to last night. out of NOWHERE my internet cuts out! then everyone logs off and goes to bed when i get back on! dammit!! check the time on this! can you believe im still freakin awake! YUP! insanity!

Rave: i love my friends: old, new and even newer! its always good to be so honest to one another. the honesty and openness is refreshing. i like it a lot. refraining is starting to feel a little tough. i dunno why. is that good or bad, im not sure! who knowS! at this time, im just amazed that im typing normal!

Rant: DRINKING! dont make drinks impulsively! they end up being too strong!

Rave: good nights! i love them! all thanks to the Greek Stallion! hehehe. . .it doesnt roll of the tongue as natural as the italian stallion but i dont know many italians. . well maybe until i go to italian. . .

rave: show and tell! you're never too old to play show and tell. do it! it keeps ya young! =)

have a good night everyone, because i know i did! =)

insatiability
i really like this word. . ."insatiable." for some reason, hearing it pronounced has a similar affect as accents does!

is it truly possible to NEVER be satisfied? can we ever be happy?

its funny because insatiability can be applied to ANYTHING. . lets look at the example of ME!

I, Jane, have an INSATIABLE need for:
*SHOPPING: i just LOVE it! i dont have to necessarily buy anything but when i do, its even better! i could spend HOURS at the mall, in a shopping strip, whatever! its amazing my longevity in this scenario!
*ATTENTION: i'm a LEO. leos like ATTENTION! i dont purposely seek it though (at least i dont think i do but PLEASE tell me if i do!) in a weird way, i want your eyes on me! it goes beyond that but i wont dive into on my blog!
*FUN: what kind of fun you may ask? ANY and ALL of IT! the hanging out, goofy, "OMG i cant believe i did that" types. just good ole fashion fun.
*HUMAN INTERACTION: i dont care if its physical or not (as in you're right that in front of me). i like to hear (or read) what others have to say. its really amazing the different viewpoints, ideas and whatever else you may have in common with various people
*LAUGHTER: i like laughing. i think its the purest emotion.
*OTHER THINGS NOT LISTED. . .take a guess of what they could be?


i truly do love to talk to new people. D, the GREEK STALLION, is one of those people as of late. he's good times! i think its amazing how i've been able to open up to the people i've met in the past year after college. everyone says college is the time where you learn so much about yourself and all that jazz. True, i learned a lot about myself but i think that was just the beginning. i've never felt like an open book about certain things but lately, i've just been spreading the joy, opening up to share with people i feel weird comfort with. its amazing sometimes. . .

in other news. .
*the spurs lost against the pistons. this is the first time since april 1997 that the pistons have won a game in SA. im really sad. it pushes the Finals into a game 7. i really hope the Spurs win!
*tons of protest all over the U.S. by Vietnamese Americans against the visit of Vietnamese P.M Phan Van Khai. apparently this is the first time a leader from communist VN has visited the White House. some papers were sign sayin the PM would try to work in human rights issues into the agenda of VN, i.e. more freedom of religion. do i think its gonna happen? not really. things like that are never so easy. . .look at the Dalai Lama and Tibet. *sigh*
*ex-Klansman found guilty for manslaughter (NOT murder) for crimes committed in the 60's! whats the deal people?? dang MS! LOL

okay thats it. i'm gonna go have myself a good night, right after i clean out my donatable clothes! =)

having a Carrie moment
its funny sometimes how you want to share your life with someone you're willing to change your whole life for them. its amazing! back in the beginning of college, i gave a deaf ear to knowing that Giang had issues with me not being Catholic. later on, i pretended not to realize that nothing would/could ever happen between Doug and i, despite feeling like we were actually getting closer and that he was finally appreciating me for being the AWESOME person that i am. . .

i was talking to a guy who was telling me about how he likes this girl (dont get mad at me D for using you!) and what he's willing to do for her without her really knowing (well some of the things). its amazing what the human heart is willing to do sometimes. . .*sigh*

the moon is bright tonight and i can see it outside of my window. its times like these that i wish i had someone to lay in bed with. . .

False Alarm!!
tomorrow is the FIRST day of the semi-annual sale at VS. sorry for giving out false information but apparently my sister's source was incorrect! can you imagine my dismay when i arrived at the mall! i guess i'll just have to wait till tomorrow!

Big Shot Bobby
OMG Game 5 was suspenseful! i watched only from the 4th quarter to the end and i was on edge! im super excited that SA won! i dunno what it is about detroit that i'm soo anti-them but maybe the whole "the bad boys are back" thing doesnt do it for me. i mean, seriously, who really roots for the bad guys? ugh! i remember the days of Robert Horry with the Rockets. i was always amazed by his 3 point shooting during playoffs! the man is amazing. Tim Duncan had a very crappy end of the game. missing free throws, possible game winning shot, ect. but he's such a nice guy and a team player! how can you not like him?? seriously! he actually reminds me a lot of a friend in austin. if you can guess who, i'll bake ya cookies!! (thats quite a reward since i bake AWESOME cookies! =D) but yeah. . .its games like this that i love basketball! im thinking about going to a sports bar or something on tuesday to watch the game. it'll be more fun that way! something to consider!!

today's been pretty calm. i got out of the house for a couple of hours and hung out with Ricky which was fun. sometimes i just need to do low key things and thats exactly what i needed! *sigh* im glad i have good friends!

i still dont get guys. not necessarily back to man-hating mode but its kinda on strong-disliking and complete lack of understanding mode. maybe i do understand them more than i think i do and just, well, ignore the facts that i already know. does that make any sense? well no point in dwelling on that!!

Pam's coming back tomorrow and Maria should be back sometime this week! tons of girl time again! YEAH!!

i need to go catch some of those indie flicks in river oaks or wherever they're playing. it should be cool! im excited! tons of things to do and i must do it before i forget! lets hope laziness doesnt win this battle! hehehe

thats it...oh yeah, i still love Keane!

Hamburg Song
i was meaning to write about this last night but it totally slipped my mind! its a title of one of the new Keane songs to be out on their next album. i liked it a lot last night when they played it. i was searching online to see when the new album was coming out (spring/summer 2006, sooo long from now!!) and the site listed possible tracks to be on the album. fortunately they had the lyrics to Hamburg Song. i really wonder if the name is a "work in progress" since Hamburg apparently was the city that Tim (the pianist in the band) wrote the lyrics. its a beautiful song. posted below are the lyrics. apparently im in a very music appreciating mood so i'm gonna appreciate music!

Hamburg Song
by Keane

I don't wanna be adored
Don't wanna be first in line
Or make myself heard
I'd like to bring a little light
To shine a light on your life
To make you feel loved

No, don't wanna be the only one you know
I wanna be the place you call home

I lay myself down
To make it so, but you don't want to know
I give much more
Than I'd ever ask for


Will you see me in the end
Or is it just a waste of time
Trying to be your friend
Just shine, shine, shine
Shine a little light
Shine a light on my life
Warm me up again

Fool, I wonder if you know yourself at all
You know that it could be so simple

I lay myself down
To make it so, but you don't want to know
You take much more
Than I'd ever ask for


Say a word or two to brighten my day
Do you think that you could see your way

To lay yourself down
And make it so, but you don't want to know
You take much more
Than I'd ever ask for

i hope you enjoyed the lyrics. have a GREAT day!!

AUSTIN CITY LIMITS!!
ATTENTION HOUSTONIANS AND AUSTINITES!!
if you want to go to Austin City Limits (ACL), PLEASE TELL ME!! i really wanna go because the lineup is INSANELY good!! its going to be Sept 23-25. it is a three day thing so those of you worker bees (like myself) may have to take that friday off! sooo just to give you all an idea, since its a 3day mega concert (in case you didnt already know!), the ticket/wristband is $110 for all three days. .and a little bit of fees here and there! its an investment but check out this lineup!! i've italized all the people i would LOVE LOVE LOVE to see!!
Coldplay
Widespread Panic
Oasis
The Black Crowes
The Allman Brothers Band
Wilco
Jimmy Cliff
Robert Randolph & The Family Band
Lyle Lovett & his Large Band
John Prine
Lucinda Williams
Buddy Guy
Roky Erickson & The Explosives (JUST ADDED!)
Jet
Dierks Bentley
Thievery Corporation
Arcade Fire
Death Cab for Cutie
Bob Mould
Built to Spill
Bloc Party
Steve Earle & The Dukes
Franz Ferdinand
Gov't Mule
Sleater-Kinney
Kasabian
Zap Mama
Robert Earl Keen
Keane
Tortoise
Doves
The Black Keys
Leo Kottke & Mike Gordon
The Walkmen
Jason Mraz
Rilo Kiley
Spoon
The Secret Machines
The Decemberists
The Bravery
Eisley
Blue October
Grupo Fantasma
Kermit Ruffins
The Dirty Dozen Brass Band
Bettye La Vette
Rev. Dan Willis & The All Nations Choir
Morgan Heritage
Ricardo Lemvo & Makina Loca
Ruthie Foster
deSol
The Frames
Mates of State
Mindy Smith
Martin Sexton
The Fiery Furnaces
Federico Aubele
Mouse on Mars
The Futureheads
Kathleen Edwards
Asleep at the Wheel
M83
Tegan and Sara
Mike Doughty
Split Lip Rayfield
Rachael Yamagata
Bobby Bare Jr.
Mofro
The Ditty Bops
The New Amsterdams
Ambulance Ltd
Slightly Stoopid
Dios Malos
Brave Combo
Aqualung
Dave Alvin & The Guilty Men
John Butler Trio
Bruce Robison
Missy Higgins
Nine Black Alps
Kevin Fowler
Grady
Willy Mason
The Weary Boys
Wayne Hancock
Rick Trevino
Monte Warden
Zykos
Sound Team
Asylum Street Spankers
Pong
Oliver Future
The Real Heroes
Bukka Allen
Hairy Apes BMX
The Lost Trailers
The Gospel Stars
Donna The Buffalo
The Shields of Faith
Star Kids Yoga
The Jones Family Singers
South Austin Jug Band
The Lighthouse Singers
Casey McPherson
Kacy Crowley
Tristan Prettyman
The Massacoustics
Joe McDermott
Sara Hickman
Imagination Movers
Free Sõl
Inara George
KJAE
Austin Hartley-Leonard
Maneja Beto
Austin Collins Band
The Biscuit Brothers
Naturally Seven
Patrick Davis Band
November
Kelley Hunt
Kate York
The Experiment Experience

okay. .so i dont know EVERYONE nor to i care to see everyone but it would be TONS of fun! something to consider people sooo leave me a note and tell me!!

KEANE!!!
Keane was sooo much fun tonight! it was an awesome concert! they sounded great in concert. in general, i consider their music pretty chilled music so i was kinda worried that i would get bored but it was a good overall show. they would have these really cool videos playing in the background, totally fun to watch. one of them almost made me cry! they played some new songs which were really good. im super excited for their next album!!

there were two opening acts. unfortunately i cant remember the name of the first one. they were a band from the UK, funky stuff. i wasnt really feeling the music but they seem like some really nice guys. the 2nd act was Regina Spektor. Okay, she's INSANE but HILARIOUS! her songs are just. .WOW! i dont know how to even explain it! her music is beautifully written and she has a really cute voice. the lyrics that she's got are kinda funky where you're just wondering. ."what was this chick thinking when she came up with this stuff?" my favorite line from the songs she sang: "the people next door are fucking to my music." not only does she say it once but FOUR TIMES!! if i figure out the name of the song, i'll make sure to post it. (FYI, there's a song called carbon monoxide and while we were at the concert, Trang and i really thought it sounded like a song dealing with child molesting. im thinking about buying her CD but in the meantime, im streaming it from her website. if you're interested in checking her out, go to www.reginaspektor.com. she's a new yorker. maybe that explains her randomness. hehehe =) oh yeah, she was also putting on a free show for the people standing in the front. ladies, NEVER WEAR A DRESS OR SKIRT ON STAGE WHEN YOU'RE PLAYING THE PIANO. PEOPLE WILL SEE YOUR UNDERWEAR, ESP IF YOU'RE WEARING SOME!!!

it was nice hanging out with Trang. i miss hanging out with the roomies...A LOT! its funny to think that i've known her for more than half of my life now!! INSANITY!

well my tummy ache is coming again. its gonna drive me nuts! hopefully it'll eventually go away. i hope!!

i'm in a good mood. i like it! =)

my mind is a ticking time bomb. . .
sometimes i wish i wasted my time on something productive so i wouldnt have time to just sit around and randomly think. so bare with me as i type out my thoughts!

*i feel guilty after my conversation with the X (keep in mind, its sooo old that its not even worth thinking about the fact that we had dated.) it seems like he was just purposely pushing my buttons to see if i've gone back to giving up my freedoms since college. . .(which i have because i still feel some obligation to the family at the moment) sometimes i wonder what he's thinking in the head of his. with our history, we've never been able to just be normal friends, except for that one day when i came over to help decorate. outside of that, i never feel 100% carefree in his presense. . its not as bad as it sounds. . .but yeah. . .maybe i'll have to come over and offer rice krispie treats as a peace offering sometime. . who knows. ..

*i've gone back to needing to remind myself that i'm a freaking awesome person. im starting to feel like im gonna end up as an old maid with my aging pup in a luxury condo somewhere (thats if i follow through with the law school plans because a teacher cant live in that kinda place!) the guys i deal with are just so confusing that i dont care to bother. i need to get out and meet people! there has to be a way to do it! i'm gonna need to rebuild my faith in the male kind. if anything, endless hours of listening to "extraordinary" will make me feel better. when it comes down to it, its not me, its them!! =D

*well the running didnt happen in the form of me running around in tennis shoes with my ipod. instead it was more like in flipflops, toting my niece as we run through the sprinklers! its not the same kinda workout but carrying a 21lb ALMOSt 1 yr old is something! plus some laps up and down the stairs! it's some type of motivation back to exercise! i hate that i always get OFF track when it comes to working out. i'll be coming back on . . soon...sooner! NOW!!

okay. . thats it for now. . i'm sure i'll write more later. . .of course i will! till thennnnnnnn

im caving!
okay. . .i think i finally found my motivation! i plan to start running (or something) again tomorrow! that's it! if i have to, i'll just do a kajillion (yes, thats what i typed!) sun salutations. shoot, i remember doing 25 in a class one night and thinking 'geeeez! when is this gonna end!!" it'll be interesting! i like the spinal stretch when you do snake!

need to buy tickets for Keane tomorrow!! i'm going for KEANE overload so i'll be ready for the concert!

i'm reconsidering law school after last night's conversation with Trang. deep down inside i wanna do public law but i wanna be able to pay for law school when im done. going from poor teacher to poor lawyer doesnt make sense! so maybe health law?? time to start exploring my options!! i need to go take a practice LSAT to see where i stand. soo exciting to be back on track for definite graduate school plans!!

lemme take a minute. . .last night's conversation with Trang really was great. i miss having her as a roommate sooo much! (actually i just miss having my friends as my roommates in general!!) she was soo super supportive and encouraging for me to go to law school. it's always great to know that you have AWESOME friends like that! =D makes a girl feel lucky!!

oh yeah, he's been on AIM for 2 days now. . back from vacation? possibility. . .a phone call to hang out yet? haha. . no! the fool is just pulling my chain! its times like this that i pull out the man-hating stick! *sigh* simple enough. . dont tell me you'll call me and never do it! its just down right RUDE!! GRR!!

bet you cant beat this?
so i was just randomly chatting tonight to a friend/ex and this is what he had to say. . .

the X (1:51:27 AM): you're the girl that taught me all i ever needed to know about girls..

DANG!! that was some shiet!! i read that and i wanted to DIE!! its quite a compliment to be honest but man thats a lot of weight to be putting on my shoulders! if anything, we dated in high school and that might explain a lot! i know for sure, he helped me through a rough patch during college so i'm grateful for his presence in my life even till today.

but ladies, if he ever does something that you dont agree with, PLEASE DONT BLAME IT ON ME! he might have learned some other things on the way.

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my car wouldnt start this morning. apparently once i drove my car home and parked it, the battery died! i got a new battery though so its back in working order. YEAH! i was gonna have a bit of a fit with Gillman Honda! good thing everything is okay!

oh yeah, totally loving this streaming country station that i read about on Craiglist. the link is http://www.live365.com/stations/lonestarcountry. i love songs about texas..there was one by deana carter called Bleep Texas. haha i dont think the bleep is really used in a bad way but it was cute!

oh yeah, just for kicks, good to have you back in Houston Dean! =)
(i love personalizing things on my blog!)

almost forgot! Trang and i are going to see Keane this friday at Verizon downtown! anyone else wanna come? tell me!! =)

What's in the News
Michael Jackson, NOT GUILTY
i honestly dont know where i stand on the whole topic. is he a child-molesting fool like everyone accusing him of being or is he just another odd celebrity full of quirks with a lot of enemies. im not sure and thus i wont comment.

UT beats Ole Miss 6-4 (i think)
UT wins the super-regionals! wahooo!! in other college baseball news, Rice loses against Tulane and Baylor beats Clemson. it'll be interesting. .

Katie's converting!!
So Tom Cruise has gotten Katie Holmes to convert to Scientology. i dont think i could ever convert religions for love. i wasnt willing to consider it three years ago, hell if i would do it now! the key for me is love me for me. . .

Missing Teen in Aruba
Natalee Holloway (i think?), the Alabama girl missing in Aruba. I dont know what to think about her but honestly ladies, we need to be safe when we're in a foreign country seeking to have fun with foreign boys. for her family's sake, i hope they find her soon. i would never wanna wish bad on any family.

Jane gets car back!!
I got my car back from the dealership. brand spanking new transmission at 43,000 miles. so within the next 3 years (making it a total of 7 yrs) or the next 57,000 miles (making it a 100,000 mile total) anything happens to my transmission, i can get another one! SWEET! saved me $1500!! unfortunately i cant drive my car too too much. i still need to get my inspection done on my car but i have a to wait a couple of days since i just had MAJOR work done. blah!! i hate the waiting game!! i am an IMPATIENT soul, sometimes. . .

Angelina comes home!!
both my sis and the baby came home today. Tabitha is handling everything KINDA okay. she's starting to be jealous which isnt good but when she looks at her sister, she laughs and giggles. i got them both matching shirt/onesy. Tab's shirt says "im the big sister" Geli's onesy says "i'm the little sister" its too cute!!

breyer's sarah lee strawberry cheesecake ice cream is AMAZING!!

i need to find a nice person (maybe guy) to hang out with before i go bored out of my mind this summer. so far, its happening! argh!

Welcome Baby Angelina!
so at a littl before 6am, a screaming a baby girl came into the world, weighing 7lbs 10oz. yup yup, my newest niece is here! she totally doesnt look like Tabitha at all when she was born. i think its gonna kinda be like my sister and i, where we totally look different. well im about to shower and then go visit my baby niece at the hospital. mom needs relief cuz its not fair to her to be stuck at the hospital all day! hope everyone has a great day!

special delivery. . .soon!
so my sister just left to the hospital and at the last minute i've opted out of going with her to witness the arrival of Baby Angelina! instead i'm going to watch TONS of movies while i watch Tabitha sleep! i actually just finished Something's Gotta Give and DAYAM. . i wanna meet a hot young doctor like Keenu! LOVE HIM!! just popped in Little Black Book. this could be interesting. who knows! well i'll be sure to update my blog when Angelina arrives! hopefully my sister has a quick and easy delivery!

What's your world view?
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Cultural Creative 63%
Materialist 63%
Romanticist 56%
Existentialist 50%
Modernist 50%
Postmodernist 38%
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i've hit the boredom wall!
soooo im officially bored out of my gourd!! so some things that have happened in the past couple of days. .
**RE-pierced my ears
**cut (or more like TRIMMED) my hair
**car is currently at Gillman waiting for a NEW transmission! apparently if you have transmission issues and you own either a 2001=2002 accord, get it looked at because it could be covered under the extended manufactor's warranty.
**still awaiting Angelina, the unborn
**too much text messaging for my own sanity!

im kinda in a little bit of a rut. i cant exactly explain what kind of rut. i wish i could because then it would be a MILLION times easier to explain what im feeling.

food for thought. .
ever feel like you're NOT meant to find that ONE person for you? i was watching Oprah the other day when she interviewed Nicole Kidman and she said how there's probably more than ONE person for you since Tom isnt her one person anymore. BUT really, WHAT IF you dont have someone? the world is inhabited by BILLIONS of people. is it possible for you to not have one or is it more likely to have one but NEVER find them because of location, timing or other things you cant control? it makes me wonder. it doesnt make me sad at all only because i've felt love for someone before so i dont feel like im missing out on something. its just that if you dont have someone out there for you, what are you wasting time looking for??

sunday morning
how do i love Maroon5! Adam is just the HOTTEST!! i just had to write that since i titled it after his song!!

so i've been working on my frame and all the tiles are laid down! AWESOME! im just gonna do some grouting and i'll be DONE! my eiffel tower looks alright! it could be better but for first time doing something on my own, its NOT bad! i'm proud of myself!

so here's my downer for the day! i found out that the victoria's secret semi-annual sale doesnt start in stores till June 20!! OMG!! that's sooo freaking long from now! its weird since they've been doing it online and in the catalogs for at least a couple of weeks now! cant they just hurry up! i LOVE LOVE LOVE the semi-annual sale! its just fun girl time! well im gonna run for right now. gonna try and pretend to be productive! YEAH me!

oh yeah, im still a tinge mad from last night but whatever. . life goes on!

angry little asian girl!
i dont think words could truly express how angry i am right now. lets start with the good stuff. i went over to Pam's just to hang out and talk. was just in need of some good girl time to just sit around, chit chat and do what girls are good at! PLUS, i just REALLY wanted to help her finish with her mozaic table! it looks really AWESOME! i'm actually going to mozaic a frame i have to make it an eiffel tower so i'm SUPER excited there! it'll look really cool!

so why am i sooo mad?? right when i was getting ready to leave Pam's, i get a text message. of course, it could only be from one person! i dont get him!! its like Doug all over again! to be honest, it was nice to hear from him since he was asking to see when we were going to hang out again. what am i suppose to think? i've tried calling him to do something. i called him over a week ago when he last texted me and he NEVER called back. whats the freaking deal? i actually called him after i paced and complained to Pam how i dont understand guys! is it games?? what the hell? booty text? LOL cuz that would be stupid since i BARELY know ya AND i live at home!! UGH! but anyways, i tried to call him when i was driving home, like 15-20 mins after the text and NO ANSWER! it just drives me nuts! in case you ever read this, try CALLING me. it gets better results! if you cant do that, then maybe you shouldnt bother at all!! i'm sick and tired of it! =( and to be honest, i actually kinda liked him. he was fun to hang out with and cool to talk to. but im growing up. i cant handle games anymore and i dont want to. simple as that!!

friday nite update!
okay so i went on my little outing with Will at Volcano. it was really fun! i got there a TAD late so i called him literally when i was like seconds away without knowing!! pulled up into the parking lot (instictively since there was parking) and walked inside realizing i have NO idea where he was!! he actually find me and when i followed him, i totally dropped down a foot since i didnt realize there was a STEP! then i wss stupid and didnt realize i should pull my chair out a little bit before i sat down. lets say i looked like a total dork!! we talked for quite a while which was fun. he got me a frozen screwdriver which wasnt bad at all! it was pretty strong to be honest! felt the buzz for just a sec! LOL! (for my own knowledge, apparently his drink is vodka tonic!) so after hanging for about an hour and a half, we decided to go. he apparently STILL isnt big on a girl paying and he ran out of cash and had plans to hang out with his bro-in-law. i walked him to his car since he was parked on another street. DUDE, boy is FREAKING TALL!!! i mean, he's 6'6"!! it must have looked funny since i was literally wearing flats so i was SHORT!! when we got to his truck, he bent over so we could hug which was cute and i said good bye. i really had lots of fun just hanging out like that. to be honest, i just miss the simplicity of things! hopefully we'll get to do something again sometime. it was fun. =)

to be honest, i'm still not sold on the whole guys thing. i just like being able to socialize and enjoy conversations with a person i dont know well. if anything, being around a person like him makes me more intimidated! ever see the couples where the girl is super hot and the guy is ehh. . .thats how i felt except he was the super hot one. *sigh* its all good though. like Alfredo said, dont put him on a pedestal! if anything, he's a cool person i like that about him! =)

well thats about it. i think im just gonna chill and eventually go to bed. oddly enough, im actually kinda tired. interesting the way things work out. . .

random ramblings. . .part 248!
so i just got out of the shower (since i was stinky) from hanging out with Pam and Co. at the Back Porch Pub. it was cool hanging out amongst the downtown professionals. lemme tell you one thing though, that place is definitely A&M territory! never have i see so much A&M randomness and anti-UT stuff before in the middle of Houston!

scary! when we were driving home, Pam took a wrong turn (thanks to Lea) and we were in the restoration projects of 4th ward. now normally this wouldnt bother me but we started to get frantic since it seemed that every right turn we made was getting us further away from GETTING out! the funny/scary thing was we were driving down the street and this random guy comes running towards Pam's car. not necessarily at us but hellooo! its 10ish and you're running at a car of girls. we're gonna scream like the scaredy-cats we are!! lemme tell ya, no more drives through the wards!!

animal brothel? so Pam drops me off and i have to wait for someone to open the door for me since i didnt bring keys! right when i look down towards the front of the door i SEE SOMETHING!! not sure what it is but after i finally ID it, it turns out its TWO FROGS HAVING SEX!! GOOD OLE FASHION FROGGIE SEX! now, being a science teacher, you would think i would totally jump out this but noOooo HELL NO!! i mean, im not gonna be rude and "disrupt" them! LOL but at the same time, im sure it wasnt a good thing to be screaming outside and waking up my neighbors! my sis opened the door and that disrupted them. SORRY FROGGIES!! next time, take the neighbors house and make it the frog brothel!

im nervous about tomorrow night. it sounds stupid but im not very good at this whole "dating" thing. he did call me tonight but since i was out, i didnt pick up. i kinda wish i had now. who knows. . .

im still kinda hating guys a little bit but im working on it. i see all these regular guys on tv and they seem soo great and all i do is wonder "when am I gonna meet MY nice guy??" who knows! till then, i'll be the pessimistic optimist that i am! (funny huh?)

oh yeah, thanks to all those who read my random thoughts! i like the comments a lot! sometimes i wish i could write yall back so if you're okay with that, feel free to email me or leave your email so i can say thanks!

oh yeah. . .THANKS!! =)

what's the FREAKIN deal!
for some reason, i'm just not feeling my normal peppy self! can boredom lead to depression? hmmmmm! i've feeling a little on the depressed side and i'm not sure exactly what to do. i'm sure watching the "behind these hazel eyes" video isnt helping either! Kelly didnt have a good year when she wrote these songs and apparently im sharing these sentiments! (who would have thought i could feel this way after YEARS not dealing with a guy on a personal one-on-one!) too much residual crap!! i think the best line in the song is "for hating you i blame myself!" *sigh* so a little bit of depression which i'm sure i'll get over. every girl needs a random romp in her torn up wedding dress to make her feel better. PLUS it helps to throw a bouquet of THORNY roses at the bitch you think is to blame! =D hahaha! that made me smile for a sec!

mom?
oh yeah, i totally forgot but who's "mom?" tell me who you are since the only mom i know is currently downstairs sleeping in her room and has NEVER seen this site before! =) tell me so i can love you too!! hehehe

Hello June. .
so today was the first day of June. is summer over yet?? j/k!! but man. . was i bored yesterday!! thank golly Pam let me work on her mosaic table! now im OBSESSED! i think im gonna go to Michael's and get stuff so i can do my own and also register for cake decorating classes! i need to find things to keep myself busy this summer before im BORED out of my MIND! im sure i'll be okay though. there will be TONS of things to do before i realize it!!

honestly today wasnt that bad. im starting to wake up a little later which i havent decided if thats a good or bad thing. i really shouldnt do that because its gonna suck having to wake up early when i have the workshops later in summer! i think the highlight of the day was when the TruGreen lawn dude came by to advertise. Chris. . what a cutie! he must have thought i was a high schooler or something since he asked if my mom or dad was home. of course, since i handle all that kinda stuff, i told him him they were but he could talk to me. he replies (oh-so-cutely) "oh can i?" OMG! i was about to die! he looked like he could be younger than me but who knows! he started doing is little ditty on the grass and i just watched and "uh-huh" the whole time. i kinda just wanna call up the number and talk to him just because he was cute. i know its lame but im bored. =) YEAh (or BOO) to looking young!

okay. .SOAPBOX time!!
i think every once and a while, im going to actually put a thoughtful entry of something that's consuming (valuable) brain space at the moment. feel free to reflect and comment when you see fit. . thanks!!

Boys. . Guys. . XYs. . .basically the OPPOSITE sex AND me. . .
i really dont understand them. the more i try to understand them, the less i wanna know! doesn't make any sense huh?  about a month ago, i was doing soooo well! i didnt care what was going on with guys AT ALL!! suddenly though, now, i've reverted back to my former self! i HATE it! guys are just so freakishly confusing! i mean, for once, just be straight forward! if anything, i would rather re-establish my awesome guy friends circle than find a boyfriend. shoot, i dont have time for it (unless i think you're worth it!) so i dont really worry about it! GRR! boys are stupid. i think i'm starting to get tired of them again. back to man-hating? its quite possible! we'll see what happens between now and then!