with time (and less thought), things get better. . .
i was a pretty mopey unhappy person today at work, esp after what i put myself through last night. it really makes a girl think when you sit back and reflect on your past "relationships." i'll be honest with my online public, i think only the last two were actual relationships, something worth learning from. i might have learned something about myself and people in general from each person but the whole relationship thing didnt kick in until the last two. its funny because despite my lack of experience, i feel wise in this area. i could sit there and give relationship advice for hours and honestly believe that i am truly right. i use to think i was Carrie! =) (i still kinda thing i am! hehe)

this weekend, i think i reverted back to my former over-reflective self. i had too much time to think and self-depreciate! thats NEVER good! its funny because i think when i meet people, they provide me challenges. for instead DG, OMG, he is just a big challenge in and of himself. every new person in my life is just another something, experience in friendship and relationships.

i think i just need to know what he thinks. . .i'm never going to ask, its just not me. i wish it was. it would make my life much easier but apparently i like it hard like that! *sigh*

i wanted to thank Huy tonight. he was awesome in talking me through some stuff (its actually 1:03am right now) he always helps me realize soo much! you're just awesome and i LOVE you for that!! thanks for helping me see soo much!!

below is apparently my seduction style. . .sounds accurate huh? hehehe =D try it yourself!!

Your Seduction Style: The Natural

You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen. Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people. You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find! People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.

What Is Your Seduction Style?