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so another weekend comes to an end. nothing special, nothing big. i think if anything this weekend has taught me to not care about what others thing about me. i just need to worry about how i feel about myself and gosh darnit, i like me!!

why wouldn't i? i think im adorable!! =) i'm fun to be around and normally i try to make the best of things. im freakin hilarious once you get me going! dude, sometimes i think i have a whole standup routine done but i just dont know how to get it out or when it'll happen! im versatile! if you get me going, i can party like it was my 21st bday, dance all night and have fun or be calm and just chill, sit back and watch movies all day. i'm down for games, poker, biking, watching sports, just about everything!! i've learned to love being in nature. dont get me wrong, im not exactly "earth girl" but i like being outdoors. some like it hot, some like it cold. i just have a preference towards hot since thats what i'm use to! most importantly, i think i know how to love unconditionally. i think i'm a born nuturer. i love to take care of people! but dont get me wrong, i LOVE to be taken care of too! outside of my parents, its never really happened elsewhere. i truly care about people and i do everything because of that.

things to consider about me: im shy. . .yes, you're probably laughing if you know me since sometimes you wonder what on earth you have to do to shut me up!! its possible for me to be shy. its because of the shyness that i overcompensate with the need to be chatty. i cant stand silence because it makes me self-conscience. i do care about what people think but am slowly trying to get away from that. its just that i like to make people happy. it makes me happy. its just now, i WANT to be happy. there was a "once upon a time" where i thought i was happy. too bad that was like over FIVE years ago!! *sigh* but im happy where i am. i just need to keep thinking "i'm FREAKIN' awesome!!"

Extraordinary - Liz Phair. . .what keeps me trucking!!