a good way to end my saturday!
so after the crazy festivities were over at home, Mom, Annie, Tabitha and i went to Macy's in efforts of finding some good deals! unfortunately for me, i couldnt find any clothes that were to my liking BUT i was able to get ANOTHER purse. YEP, you read that correctly ladies and gentlemen. apparently i'm starting to think that im transitioning from shoes to purses. got Mom one too since she needs to switch out her old one. she has a "cheap" purse that she carries for everyday uses and then a nicer one for when she's not just going to work and stuff. i like the purse that she got. it was a great deal and its cute! i like my purse too! i think it really was an impulse buy since i told Mom that i would buy it so she could borrow it since she didnt wanna spend that much money for an everyday purse. i like it. its bigger than my little coach so its all good!

after we got back, i decided that i just needed to relax so i took a bubble bath. i love the jets shooting out and it was fun being able to control the amount of bubbles i had in the tub. it was like i was a big kid in there! blowing bubbles, shaping them and moving them about. i also did the obvious "seductive" thing (i'm not sure if thats the BEST word to use) of moving the bubbles around so that the covered the things i needed to have covered. it was just fun overall just siting there in the water, listening to music and doing not much else!

Pam called afterwards. she was drunk (what a lightweight!! but i would be hypocritical to say too much on that topic!) she's insane! i really do love her!! she and Maria are the best friends a girl can make and have!! they really do care about me! *sniff sniff*

soo its been about 24 hours. . .and i havent done much phone calling. i think i'm weird. i've never been able to handle meeting guys very well, unless i was meeting them through my guy friends and thats because to be honest, i would never really consider dating any of my guy friends' friends. not sure why but i think its because their friends might have similar male characteristics like them. dont get me wrong, i love my guy friends but some of the things they do and live to tell me about i would rather not know. but i guess until i try it, i shouldnt knock it, right??

sooo i think to keep me thinking positively about myself i've been listening to "Extraordinary" by Liz Phair over and over and OVER again! i really love this song. it really makes me feel empowering but at the same time, i think about what she says about doing the things to make him love her. love should never be something that you have to MAKE someone feel. (but at the same time, i dont think thats exactly what she meant by that either!) i think the most important line in the song is that "i am extraordinary,if you ever get to know me!" i think thats SERIOUSLY important!! honestly, i think at first when people meet me, i may come off as many things but over time, you can find out that i'm pretty normal, fun, cool, ect. i have my quirks and my bad things but who doesnt? if i was perfect, well, i would DIE!! (haha sorry about the drama queen moment!) i love this song! it got me through the Doug period when i needed it to remind me that it was DOUG's LOSS for never really saying anything to me about how he really felt about me, if anything. i think this song will probably make a visit once a year for me. this is the 2005 visit! yeah!!

okay i think im gonna end the evening with some good ole fashion KARAOKE!! i need to have a karaoke night at my house. alcohol and TONS of singing! that would be fun!! yeah!! something to plan in time!!