suffering through an identity crisis. . .
today was day 2 in Abbeville. we met MORE of Pam's crazy family! so lemme explain the title of this entry. Pam's Aunt Deb couldnt get my name for the life of her!! i was either Jane, June, Jane or Mary (only cuz i told her the work story!) it was INSANE! other people started to call me that too! weirdest thing in the world!! it was very fun today though!

we did a lot of chilled things. . saw historical Abbeville. it was kinda weird driving around because i think a lot of Pam's family does know the Buis of Abbeville. Pam's dad pointed out a store that they own. could have been Giang's parents, who knows! it's been kinda sad for me in a way being here. . i dunno. i guess deep down i was REALLY hoping i would run into him just to see how he's been and what he's up to these days. even in a town of less than 12,000 people, its still hard to run into him! amazingly i did see some asian people and some of the asian establishments. i really just did want to ask if people knew Giang Bui. i guess its too late now! we're gonna be leaving to Lafayette tomorrow morning and then back to Houston. even though im over him, i think im still seeking closure in the sense of an update. maybe that doesnt sound like closure but it is for me. . .i'm weird

so i cant fall asleep until Maria is out because i snore (hahaha, what a confession to make!) and she's a light sleeper. i feel bad but honestly, there really isnt much i can do about! i wish i could. maybe one day i can.

i need to find me a good guy friend. i miss those times. it'll help me forget all those other guys that have came and gone in my life. honestly, its time to seal the "college boys" life of my chapter. lets make sure to bolt it up and ULTIMATE seal it so that it can NEVER be opened again!!

"because i'm so in love with what we were. . . "