MBA or JD?
oh yeah, i forgot! i think i'm heading towards the direction of doing my MBA after next year! i guess it depends on how i do on the GMAT. honestly i dont know if i could dedicate 3-4 years to law school or if i could just do about 2 years part-time to get my MBA. Pam and i were talking about starting a company to help women! i honestly would love to work with girls, educationally and socially. i mean, cmon, if i could, i always wanted to be a sex health educator. im sure i would be USELESS in Texas because we're legally NOT allowed to teach about contraceptions, ONLY abstinence (see why all our kids are gettin prego!!) i just want to work with kids on a more one on one basis. maybe i need to get my degree in something. . .just something but yeah, this summer, i'll be studyin logic and writing for the purpose of GMAT or LSAT. yeah!!

good vs bad
so apparently i like bad boys but i need a good boy who can be bad! that's apparently the best way to go!! i talked to this guy again and he's soo cute on the phone! i love it! he seems like such a sweetheart too! i really hope he does call me tomorrow. honestly if he reads this, that would be cool. i want to be able to get to know him better and whatnot but seriously i doubt he does! cmon, the only people that have time to read other people's blogs are your friends that are into doing it!!

i got an email from (austin) david today. he's freaking hilarious!! its weird but he's the crazy bad boy that makes my life interesting and THATS IT!! i actually think he knows me too well for the period of time he has known me. its INSANE! but i guess at the same time, it makes it kinda funny!!

so i went to go see Hostage today afterschool with Pam, Maria, Sharon and Jeremy. it was pretty fun! the movie was really intense and it got my heart going all over the place, esp since i was drinking sangria AND sick! yeah me!! i liked it! Pam is sooo in love with Jeremy. She's too funny but i guess we're all allowed to have crushes right?? afterwards, Pam, Maria and i went to B&N/Starbucks down towards the galleria (probably more near dunvale) to grade papers. it was really our opportunity to be out so we could meet boys. did we meet boys? nope! were we disappointed? not really! it was just fun hanging out and being silly. weird thing though. . .i saw two gerbils outside the window of B&N. it was crazy. at first it just look like to small rats munchin on the grass but since i have experience with catching gerbils at Sterling, i knew what they were!!

well im still sick but the good thing is i had my PDAS evaluation today so i'll be done with that! i think im going to take friday off so i can get 100% better! it kinda makes me nervous to leave my kids at school doing a lab but hopefully they wont break everything working on the lab. if i have to, i'll just switch things up a lil bit! i doubt it would be that bad but i guess i dont want them to be reversed behind. i dunno if that makes sense but yeah. .. i dont wanna confuse myself!! we'll see!! i just really need the day off. . and PLUS, i think if i dont take off, Pam might KILL me!! we'll see!! hopefully i'll be able to take off and rest so i can be better so i can PAR-TAY saturday nite with the girls!! wahooooo! cant wait!!

launch squence activated!
well i've been feeling like crap lately so im starting to think that i'm really gettin sick!! i just took two nyquils so i have a feeling i will be passing out pretty soon! i still need to shower and grade some labs before i pass out so this should be interesting!

i finally got a call from this guy. i sometimes wish i would stop rambling too much. its not a good quality. i need to let others talk!

i'm feeling really hot. this cant be a good sign for gettin better!

i think im going to start looking into my other career options. i think im going to look into the LSAT (so i need to call Peyman and see if he can hook me up with some practice tests) and maybe the GMAT (MBA at UH). after today, i really dont think i want to teach after my 2nd year. sad huh?

okay. . time to be productive before the drugs kick in!!

back in Houston
HOME SWEET HOME!! I'm glad to be back!! I need to unpack still but at least I've unloaded! LOL. I was really started to feel really clogged up!!

I am glad to announce that I only gained about 2 pounds on the trip to Abbeville. I'm sure that doesnt sound really good but its a lot LESS than I thought! I mean, CMON, all we did was EAT in Abbeville! There wasnt much else to do!!!

I like roadtrips, I really do! I need to do it more often with my cool, awesome friends! I never really got to do it much in college so now its PERFECT to do! Hopefully we'll get to do it again soon! Maybe Austin, San Antonio, something!! well I'm gonna be off to do more productive things. . .like, um, UNPACK!! Enjoy the rest of your Sunday everyone!!

byeeeeee Abbeville
so we're in the hotel right now getting ready to leave. packing is sometimes a bitch but it really isnt this time! what sucks is that we have two DYED towels from our hair! (teeheehee) well we're probably going to leave in about 30 mins to go to Pam's Aunt Mel's house in Lafayette, stay there for a lil bit and head back to Houston. i think when i leave today, im going to leave a lot of memories behind. i'm going to try and TRULY close this chapter. i emailed Giang and with my information for this weekend and i got NOTHING. i think that should be my final and last attempt, EVER. sad. . . i know! its time to move on and be a happy person because i need that and i DESERVE that.

next time i'll be in Abbeville it'll be for the omlette festival. something i've been wanting to go to since 2000 i think. it'll be happier times for me, i promise! if i see him then, i will be as for the first time and without meaning. . .buhbye Abbeville. . .for now. . .

suffering through an identity crisis. . .
today was day 2 in Abbeville. we met MORE of Pam's crazy family! so lemme explain the title of this entry. Pam's Aunt Deb couldnt get my name for the life of her!! i was either Jane, June, Jane or Mary (only cuz i told her the work story!) it was INSANE! other people started to call me that too! weirdest thing in the world!! it was very fun today though!

we did a lot of chilled things. . saw historical Abbeville. it was kinda weird driving around because i think a lot of Pam's family does know the Buis of Abbeville. Pam's dad pointed out a store that they own. could have been Giang's parents, who knows! it's been kinda sad for me in a way being here. . i dunno. i guess deep down i was REALLY hoping i would run into him just to see how he's been and what he's up to these days. even in a town of less than 12,000 people, its still hard to run into him! amazingly i did see some asian people and some of the asian establishments. i really just did want to ask if people knew Giang Bui. i guess its too late now! we're gonna be leaving to Lafayette tomorrow morning and then back to Houston. even though im over him, i think im still seeking closure in the sense of an update. maybe that doesnt sound like closure but it is for me. . .i'm weird

so i cant fall asleep until Maria is out because i snore (hahaha, what a confession to make!) and she's a light sleeper. i feel bad but honestly, there really isnt much i can do about! i wish i could. maybe one day i can.

i need to find me a good guy friend. i miss those times. it'll help me forget all those other guys that have came and gone in my life. honestly, its time to seal the "college boys" life of my chapter. lets make sure to bolt it up and ULTIMATE seal it so that it can NEVER be opened again!!

"because i'm so in love with what we were. . . "

Good Morning World!
so its 7:40 on a Saturday during Easter weekend and OMG, i am up!! the alarm actually went off at 7am this morning. Apparently i was a bit of a loud distraction last night (hehehe) so Maria didnt get a good continuous sleep. WE talked about the most random stuff, ya know, girl stuff since thats what happens when you get a bunch of girls together in a room. Pam's sister is freaking HILARIOUS! well we're about to go to MawMaw's place to get breakfast, some type of biscuits! YUM! this could be exciting!! we're not gonna do much today. i think we're gonna pacque eggs and um. . . yeah. .. thats it. sooo if by chance anyone is in Abbeville or surrounding areas, um, ya know, like CAJUN COUNTRY, feel free to come by and say hello. maybe even give me a ring-a-ling-a-ding!

EUREKA!! internet access!
so i am in the Extended Stay Hotel in Abbeville, Louisianna! i was worried that there would be NO internet access but there is!! WAHOOO! hence me typing up this blog!!

so i met Pam's family tonight. They were sooo much fun!! Pam's Uncle Ron and Aunt Brenda were super cool. They hosted us with a crawfish boil. It was too much fun! Pam's mom, dad and sister are too funny. Pam's sister is actually staying here at the hotel with us. So lemme tell you the weirdest thing. . .Uncle Ron might actually know Giang's family! what the shiet is that?? unfortunately my will power is about to ERODE away and im' about to cave and email him. i cant handle that i'm his freakin hometown yet i cant see how he's been. well, hopefully i'll get a response. . . i'll update more tomorrow! nitey nite all!!

Easter Break. . .LA style!
so today commences Easter weekend! I'm going to be going with Pam and Maria to Abbeville to spend the weekend with Pam's family. It's going to be INSANE! I really dont know what to expect except for a LOT of craziness apparently! I'm pretty excited! It's kinda "scary" at the same time because I NEVER that I would ever see Abbeville. . .I mean, that's where Giang is from! DUDE, its just 'OMG' I know it kinda doesn't make any sense but at the same time it does.
I know i wont run into him even though its a rather small city (population ~14,000 or so), but still!! how many freaking asian people can there be in this town?!?! It's bad because since I emailed Giang's sister on facebook (YES I'M INSANE!!), I'm kinda nervous! oh well. I'm going to try to be normal because I signed a contract with Pam!! If I dont abide (sp?) by it, the girls get to pick my wardrobe for 2 weeks! EEK!! scary!!

So today at school, it was kinda exciting to see the kids enjoy my little chromatography lab. granted, its NOT an original idea, it was still something that I decided upon myself to do!! EXCITING!! for the first time in a long time have I actually enjoyed doing what i do!! one thing I don't like is finding out that soo many of my students are recent or soon to be gang members! I really hate it but I honestly don't know if I can do anything, if anything, at all!! *sigh*

well on to a happier note, I finally got the NEW Michael Bublé cd. It's been out for a little bit I think but its sooooo GOOD!! I'm totally in love with him! I really like the song "Home." It kinda makes me sad but wow, at the same time, its sooo good! I'm gonna be overplaying Michael Bublé all freaking weekend when I'm in LA. He is gonna be my best friend and the girls are gonna learn to LOVE LOVE him!! PLUS, it helps that he's a little hottie! Hopefully one day, he'll come down to Houston to play!! I'll DEFINITELY be there!!

one of those days. . .
okay its one of those times where i wish i wasnt sooooo disorganized and messy! for some reason, i had put up my secret pal gift for easter and now can NOT find it!! i've scoured my room (for the most part) and it has yet to MAGICALLY appear from its secret hiding place that i put it!! GRRR!! imma have to look super hard tomorrow so i can find it to give on thursday! i hate having to give it soo late! that sucks!

i fell asleep on the couch again! a good 2 hours or so. . apparently im super tired! well tomorrow is a half day. hopefully i'll get all my shiet together for that. if not, its gonna SUCK ass! i call that its gonna suck ass regardless. fun fun!! i gotta get back on my shiet!

the sooner the better. . .

im tired!
i stayed up too late last night and now im paying the price since im totally pooped! it SUCKS!! i thoroughly enjoyed my conversation last night though. too bad it couldnt have occured a couple of hours earlier! to compensate for looking really tired, i dressed up for work today! i think i looked super cute today!! think of it like this, today was the first day of spring and i was cute! :-) yeah!!!!

i got the funniest email from David G today. to be honest, i was kinda surprised taht he emailed me. i guess it just shows that he thinks about me! hehe. he actually sent a link to the real world austin stuff (which i had already seen) sayin that maybe it would help me the next time im in town. lol. (he only sent it because Jen and i made this deal about trying to run into the real world people while we were on 6th! thats not the interesting part. the interesting part is where he put "say hi to the twins for me" hahaha! granted that MIGHT have been the reason he talked to me the first nite when i initially met him but still!! never has he made that kinda comment! its INSANE!!

it was funny because i told Gypsy about the amail at work and she asked me what would i do if he broke up with his gf. of course, i told her nothing because i honestly wouldnt do anything. David is such an Austinite, it would be impossible to convince him to go anywhere else and i dont think i really see myself having a family in austin. being a young single working person, being an old retiree, maybe. but a working mom and wife. . no. its gets a girl thinking. i can honestly admit that the main appeal of David is he's a bad boy. he's everything i DONT want in a guy and he's fun to be around. he pushes me to NEW limites i havent experienced in a while. its weird but i need that in someone. find me a mixed between David and Doug and i'll be happy! GET LOOKING PEOPLE!! your mission impossible assignment has been given!! =)

time to get to work before i pass out. i have a feeling i might pass out before i work! dammit! that'll suck! oh well!!

Caroline DOES love me!
well i just got a call from Caroline. its actually the 2nd one in the last couple of days. she actually called me on thursday from, you wont believe this, VIETNAM!! i totally had no idea since i didnt really understand her! well she was calling just to let me know that she wasnt ignoring me but had just been out of the country for the last 2 weeks! everything is good now! im happy for her! but i love it that she called me from vietnam! thats how you know that you've got awesome friends, when they call you from another country to tell ya sorry for not returning your call sooner!! if you ever read this, i love you Caroline! =)

Crazy Weekend 'O Fun!
DANG!! i've been slacking! i havent blogged since thursday and i must have hit "publish post" like 5 times since i had the same post on there that many times! i feel like an IDIOT to all of those that actually read my post! why didnt anyone tell me!!!

so lemme recap my weekend:
FRIDAY
-went to the rockets game with Pam, Todd and Keren. Keren we had never met before but had just gone to the game with Todd plutonically. She was SUPER cute and hopefully she and Todd will hook up! They make a terribly CUTE couple!! Well the game was semi-exciting! There was a point towards the end where the rockets were actually within less than 10 points away from the celtics but unfortunately that didnt last long! its really no fun when you watch a game that your team loses! yuck! the best part of the night was where i probably came off as the BIGGEST pervert ever!! Pam was talking abouto accents and was sayin how she knows this guy with an thick canjun accent but what she said was "he's thick" and my perverted mind took over and i started to squirm and she knew EXACTLY what i was thinking! DANG!!!! lol

SATURDAY
-a rather calm afternoon. went walking at the park with Pam and Maria. Brought Tabitha with me. I think she got a slight sunburn on her leg but she was okay. I totally saw myself as a busy mom who was tryin to get her work out in while pushing her baby in the stroller. im hoping this isnt whats in my future because MAN thats going to be INSANE! (on a side note, i started to realize that maybe i should really consider talking her out with me less since everyone probably thinks that's MY baby instead of my niece! im sure if i pick up a guy who thinks its my baby and still talks to me, he's pretty awesome. but until she learns how to say "thats not my mom, thats my FAVORITE aunt" i should calm down on taking her out! well when i got back, ended up going to the mall with my mom and sister. i didnt get anything but i ran into someone that i know but dont talk to. it was funny because she saw me pushing Tabitha's stroller and seriously thought i had a kid. HILARIOUS!! if she's gonna ASSUME that, guess what it makes her. . an AS Saturday went on, i ended up going to Todd's as planned with Maria. A lot of people werent there though! Gypsy and Michelle never made it there! I was really surprised since Gypsy had told me she was coming! i tried calling her bbut no answer! =( well Todd's was fun. Unfortunately in that night, i came out of it with TWO bruises, one on my knee (ouch) and one near my butt (OUCHIE!!). there was a little bit of projectile motion on my part outside because i had just a little bit too much sangria! at least i knew my limit! but too bad it was kinda late when i figured it out!! everyone was pretty drunk but it was a good time! it felt like a crazy college night! hahaha

TODAY
after last night's craziness, i didnt get up till well past noon! YEAH!!! i miss those days. didnt do much outside of going to target to pick up some stuff and pay my credit card. was planning to go to starbuck's to do work but instead since it was ANOTHER great day, starbucks was PACKED so i decided on frequenting a local coffee shop! i drove down to little italy coffee bar on westhiemer. i had seen it on citysearch and wanted to go and check it out. almost killed myself driving down there though! i unfortunately didnt see the red light since the sun was in the light! thank god my brakes are good and the road was dry or i would have been dead. i was a little shaken up when i order but it was okay. i spent most of my time outside at a little table, grading and making the test before going inside. i really like the place. i might start making it a usual thing. maybe a weekly trip. i think i could afford that =) i wanna become a "usual" there. that would be kinda cool!

well overall the weekend was cool. felt all collegey. ah i miss those days! austin how i miss thee. . lemme count the ways. . .i guess all i need know is a fun guy to do stuff with! that would be nice. or maybe someone i could flirt with across the table while we're both working on stuff! that would be fun! =)

What I learned from the rodeo. . .
. . .the concert does NOT start at the time printed on the ticket.
. . .in order to get a bull or bronco to buck, they (rodeo peeople, riders, some psycho animal-hater!) ties a rope or a something around the animal's balls! like as in their testes!! (you would be bucking too if someone tied your balls!!)
. . .unnecessary excessive PDA is gross (not stroke and grab my hair in public unless there's a leaf or underwear hanging in it or ir you're a grooming monkey!)
. . .never pick up a dollar for a random kid who's hanging out in the stands! (little bastards!!)
. . .get your food and drinks before the show so you're not that annoying person that askes everyone to let thme out of the row AND THEN asks you to let them back to their seat!
. . .that a wild monkey on my head is FUN!!
. . .Pam likes leopard print!!
. . .I'm going to marry ADAM LEVINE!! it's gonna happen! he's too cute and thier songs are tooo good!! yeah!! cmoe out with another cd soon!!

sleep is wonderful
i slept super early yesterday. its not going to happen tonight but hopefully it'll happen soon. goodnite!

Austin: Reviewed
now that im clean and comfy back at home, lemme recap my weekend in austin!
friday night:
*went to dinner at Sake on Sixth: at sushi at the bar, tall stools, spice is NICE!, warm sake and sake bombs! (a "shot" of sake dropped into, what else but, WOODCHUCK!), quite a nice little ditty there!
*let the barhopping COMMENCE!! went to headhunters (a funky punk bar), had my favorite kind of coke (with vanilla barcardi!), was called a PRUDE on the phone by David (replied by telling him Ab was his gay lover! hehe and that it was his loss that i said no to him); next to agave to have flaming dr. peppers! took the most AWESOME picture of the bartender lighting up our drinks, bumped into some guy when i was baking up (im sure he enjoyed that!), off to the library for long islands (boy do i NOT miss them!), David shows!, Alfredo shows!, Ab shows!, random hanging out, offered a 2:30am appointment in my car to David (hehehe), dont know really what else happened there. .
*went to Spill in efforts to find the cast of the REAL WORLD! (www.realworld16.com), couldnt get in because DAVID SUCKS!! (tennis shoes dont meet the dress code for spill!
*head over to 4th/5th street area. . .we try to get into red fez but it doesnt happen on the first try, the girls (me and Jen) need to PEE so we run over to lavaca street, ANOTHER random guy asks me "who's justin?" and we talk to him for a lil bit about our shirts, jen runs off to red fez to work on us getting in, we get the call to head over there but the GUYS ARE SLOW! (duh!) get in line over at red fez since the stinking bouncer wont let us in because there are TOO many penises!! end up seing nan who lures david and ab with him to foundation (LOSERS!) and we end up going into red fez, meeting jordan and this other guy (jeff?) who happens to be a sportscaster in austin. . .
*we head over to a new place called vicci (across the street from alamo), REALLY cool place that plays techno (which is okay) and rains foam! FUN!! it was almost like a FOAM PARTY!!
*head back over to 6th for BRAUTWURST!! how i love it! curry ketchup is the shiznitz!! END OF DAY 1!!!

SATURDAY!
*went to Sandy's (which i LOVE LOVE!! got myself the saturday special AND a chocolate dipped cone! YUMMMY!!!!!
*SAN MARCOS!! ended up getting myself a PINK purse! its PURDY!! i love it!
*another night of PAR-TAY-ING!! ending up going for appetizers and martinis down on 4th. .. got a call from guess who? David, of course! apparently my phone call later in the night made him think that i was NOT bluffing about the whole 2:30 appointment in my car. . .oh geez!!
*over to OSLO! i use to love this place! still fun!
*last hour bar hop down on 6th (boy do some places get GHETTOOOOOOO!!)
*pedicab back to the car
*late night snacking at magnolias! gotta love it!!

i think i wasnt having as much fun towards the end of the evening because being at certain bars (like aquarium) brought back too many memories. . isnt that weird?? it kinda made me sad at times. the one thing that it made me think about ws the whole doug thing and how we're nto freinds like i wish we were. . .ehhh, who knows. .. *sigh*

SPRING BREAK is OVER. . .oh well. on the bright side, only NINE MORE WEEKS LEFT!

semi weekend wrap-up
im super tired, on the verge of passing out. if anything, the time i've sent in austin has been nostalgic and somewhat reflective. i've realized a couple things about myself that i'll probaly write about tomorrow but not tonight since im about to falling asleep! YEAH!! =(

Austin here I come!!
okay. . last message in houston until sunday. im excited! hopefully i come back in one piece! hehehe! dont miss me too much everyone!!!!

jane <3s david
well david just called. YEAH! i love this boy so much! he is TONS of fun! despite hating guys (and maybe thats exclusive to houston XYs), i love austin boys, except doug! david is soo much fun! i cant wait to hang out with him this weekend! watever happens on friday, i need to get downtown friday to go and play with him! i cant wait!!!!!! one wish though, why does he have to have a gf? PLUS it doesnt matter, things could never work out between us since he is forever going to be an Austinite! *sigh*

XYs, dont FUCK with me!
in case you didnt know, XYs = guys
in case you didnt know, i've gone back into man-hating mode
in case you didnt know, i'm normally a patient reasonable person
in case you didnt know, i appreciate people who are considerate
in case you didnt know, i believe in 2nd chances
in case you didnt know, i like to be reasonable

but this time, i'm not feeling it.
as planned, i drove (FAR) all the way down to the village to the bar across the street from baker st. still dont know the name of it but i do know its an irish pub. i got there at about the time i was suppose to be there(8pm) after driving around for about 10-15 minutes looking for a parking spot. i got there, waited around outside, left a voice message, left a text message, called a 2nd time: NO REPLY! left approximately at 9pm. i think an hour is good enough. in college, you only wait 15 mins.

here's some things to think about:
where was the call to see where i was?
what if something had happened to me?
why reschedule if your ass isnt going to show up?
did you forget? OOPS, you said "see you tomorrow" yesterday!! FUCKER!
isnt the phone for the purpose of picking up??
how can you be gentlemanly if you dont call to let people know you CANT make it?

oh whatever. . .i really dont have anything else to say. just dont fuck with me for a couple of days boys. if you're not part of the harem of guys im going to visit in austin, please dont consider talking to me. i might bite your head off, chew it up and spit you out to the point of no recognition, THATS YOUR WARNING.

HAVE A NICE DAY! =)

WARNING: dirty mind at work!
man! thank God i dont really know what i could have gotten myself into when Will said this! if i actually knew, i think i would have DIED!

the conversation
him: well, I actually need to go here in a minutes, I am drenched in sweat from working out and I need to shower before I print this stuff out at school and turn it in
me: that sounds LOVELY
him: which part?
me: drenched in sweat ?
him: lol, not a mental picture you wanted?
me: hahaha

oh i cant wait till tomorrow night!

funniest thing
my niece is finally asleep and she's SNORING!! not breaking down the walls, earth shattering snoring but i can hear it! hahaha just imagine a 8 month baby lying on the ground (on a blanket of course) spread eagle and SNORING!! hehehe

ReScheduled!
*sigh* so im suppose to be at some bar across from baker st in the village but im not. unfortunately will had to reschedule. he realized he had an anthro test tomorrow and needed to study. it makes sense. i would study too, but probably after hanging out. my priorities are weird. i talked to him on the phone though. he's just TONS OF FUN! im just gonna write this down so i wont ever forget. we were talking about our backgrounds since i had never told him (exactly) that i was vietnamese (and chinese) so he got me to guess his. of course he's a mutt and proud of it! LOL so will is: german, welsh, irish, swedish and french. yeah for a little bit of fun! talking to him makes me want to learn more. . .intellectual conversation is DEFINITELY sexy! haha. . i LOVE it. i never had anyone be so passionate about one subject and just talk about it with so much info and passion. its amazing. i wanna be like that! and im sure i am, its just with kids and education. (kinda) so wednesday night. . all pep talks are welcome between now and then. i dont wanna chicken out and freeze while im hanging out with him. i want him to meet the funny, awesome, amazingly cool jane! it WILL happen!! =)

a little 'off' from the bathroom cleaner fumes
excuse me if my randomness makes no sense, esp since i just sprayed down my shower and eventually will have to go in there to shower! ugh!

okay. . .just got off the phone with Will!! FINALLY i have set plans with him!! GEEZ!! it was sooo hard to get to this point but its finally been set. just got off the phone with him. . a good (almost) TWO HOURS!! so here's the plan: we're gonna meet up at 8pm at the bar across the street from baker street. neither of us knew the name of the place (good job!) but it'll be interesting. i wasnt really planning on going somewhere this far but i guess thats whats gonna happen tomorrow! im kinda nervous and excited now! if anything, honestly, i think i'll get a good friend out of it! i have a feeling we're not like WOW compatible and i dont expect it to be like that but it'll be fun! while i was on the phone with him, we were talking about websites. . OMG! i saw the grossest thing in the world. . .www.rotten.com. just check it out. its GROSS! and dude! at a time, he had his nipples pierced! i was like OMG! hahah i really wish i could have CAPTURE my facial expression when i heard that! the randomness of our conversation was great! i hope we'll be able to just hang out and have fun! thats what i really want!!

so im having a love/hate relationship with the weather! i usually love rain because its perfect sleeping weather but i HATE it because i cant go out and bike and do all that kinda stuff that i want to do!! it sucks!! oh well. . hopefully it wont rain this weekend when i plan to go to austin!

oh yeah, about austin! guess who mike saw???? he saw david!! DAVID! *sigh* he asked mike when i was coming up to austin and told him that i was coming up this weekend! YEAH!! im excited! i love hanging out with david!! he's just fun times!!

so march 16, maroon5 at the rodeo! we're gonna be there! the tickets have been bought and we're in the boonies!! far far FAR away from the stage but its all about the company you keep! it'll be me, pam and trang! im excited! old meets new! =)

oh yeah, here's something to you pam. i wish i had bigger boobs! =) (YES I SAID IT!!) im jealous! hehehe

Early Morning Thoughts
it is officially spring break and i am up at 7am on a saturday morning! what the heck is going on??? i actually fell asleep chatting online! isnt that horrible?? oh well!

last night was fun hanging out with the girls. Gypsy got to come along too so she got to experience the INSANITY that comes with me, Pam and Mary. We just KRAZY GIRLS!

i think i'm going to learn to enjoy myself during my time off. i'm going to try to work out everyday and just have fun all around. i think the one thing i need to change about myself is my outlook on life! i need to know that I AM AWESOME! i can tell you that i'm envious of Pam for that exact reason! she has such a good personal outlook (is that what its called?) I mean, she's right when she tells me i am an AWESOME person! i mean, that is a reason why people like me! i'm just cool like that!! lol if anything, i just have to remember David and what he told me. i remember him saying that he kept calling me because he thought i was a cool and fun person to talk to. . .before i found out the truth about him. but still, thats why we can get on the phone for a short period of time after MONTHS and it still be fun!

so final thought for today: i'm freaking awesome!! =D

feeling blippity blah blah
i dont think i've been feeling like myself lately this week. i've just felt kinda run down and not feeling like hanging out and stuff. today is the last day of teaching for a week since spring break is next week. im hoping i'll be able to enjoy myself a little bit so that i can stress relieve. i know i've been DEFINITELY tired. everytime i come home, i end up passing out on the coach instead of making it to my bed. i think i've spent 2 out of 4 nights this week on the couch! either im allergic to my bed (which i'm not) or im just too dayam lazy/tired to get there.

i think sometimes its just kinda blah to live the life i do. honestly you do need emotional support or just SUPPORT in general being a teacher. i mean, after the last entry (about permanant singleness), im kinda depressed to think that i could possibly NEVER end up with the whole finding the love of my life, blah blah blah. to be totally honest, i use to think something like that did exist. about four years ago or so. . . .but apparently its not happening and i'm not feeling it nowadays. blah!!!

i miss those days. . .

a life of singleness??
the oscar song from the phantom of the opera was "learn to be lonely" i think i got it wrong the last time i entried about the oscars but i could be right. who knows!!

well i just wanted to put some thoughts down since conversations at work lately have gotten me thinking. . . "am i EVER gonna meet someone?" its weird but there are PLENTY of teachers at work who are older and STILL single! it makes me wonder if thats what i have to look forward to!! i mean, granted i have spent the last good 3-4 years without any particular person in my life so i've become comfortable with it but MAN!! i dunno if i want to not find anyone AT ALL!!

are teachers forever single because they:
a) work too much,
b) unable to meet quality people,
c) both a and b or
d)none of the above!

i dont get it!! it really does worry me though. as much as i say all i want is companionship, not necessarily a commitment, i know that deep down i want something REAL that'll last forever. thats just me. . .

OUCHIE!!
I hurt. Unfortunately riding 10 miles the first time you take your bike out isnt something you should do as an "amateur" biker. apparently my pelvic bone (i think) hurts. inside of my legs. . .ouchie! i have to admit thought that i did thoroughly enjoy my bike riding. i might have to do it a little bit more often since i enjoyed it so much! i'll have to take my bike to austin with me so i can ride the veloway! but first, im gonna have to take it down memorial park and ride the trails there. i like exciting trails though to be honest! i'll have to find something hilly with bridges! LOL dirt road trails are also fun!! friction isnt as good (which sucks!) but it adds adventure into the equation! yeah!! okie sleep. . .