turning point
last nite was a rather important day for me, esp with whats been going on in the last 5 weeks.  my conversation on the phone was frustrating but it got myself to push to make some changes.  i never realized a person could make such an impact on me.  maybe sometimes you need a stranger to come in and shake up your life.  i really wish he could be around longer but i dont thats gonna be the case!

interestingly enough, i had my turning point last nite.  after hanging out with his friend for two days in a row, i got all the information/advice that i needed.  D had told me that if i wanted to know anything, i should ask him but being that its probably not gonna happen anymore since he's probably sick and tired of my shiet (meaning i probably wont hear from anytime soon), all of that is too late now.  his friend did tell me that what i want is probably not likely to happen so with that being said, its time to just move on.  my summer is almost over.  as much as i like D, there's a point where i gotta let go with any type of aspirations of something.  i'll be honest, i like him.  A LOT! (that was tough!)  i mean, i've had fun gettin to know him over the last 5 weeks.  i really have.  but he's at a weird point in his life right now, not where i am and that sucks major ass. 

Last Thought:
sometimes things happen for a reason. i dont know what the reason is but i guess, maybe, i'll find out in time. . .