time to take action!
so last nite i had a long conversation with a new friend.  im sure the conversation had expired 30 minutes in but i got to learn a lot about him which was cool.  i think i've come to realize (again and again) that what i need to do is just call D and tell him EVERYTHING!  whether its leaving a long voicemail or just telling him LIVE over the phone, i wont be okay until i've done it all.  it sucks to feel that ive lost a friend, even though we didnt know each other that long.  i mean, i had so much fun just hanging out and talking the past (almost) month and a half.  its weird.  so TODAY, im gonna take action.  if not, im just screwing myself over and i cant sit there and complain.  my UNhappiness will be my own! 

and i wanna believe you when you tell me it'll be okay.
yeah i try to believe you
but i dont