my first complete day in France
OMG im tired but amazingly i am still up! im headachey but since i love my friends and am hoping that they really care to see what i am up to, i am updating my blog! unfortunately i am NOT gonna be able to post my pictures up on a daily basis! unfortunately my host has dialup and then i didnt realize that i needed an outlet converter so ,my camera battery has a very HIGH chance of dying soon! lets hope not though! okie well i dont wanna use all her time on the internet so miss everyone!!! more updates to come as my french adventures continue!! au revoir tout le monde!!!

p.s. french computers keyboards are different!! here are the four rows:
&é"'(-è_çà)=
azertyuiop^$*
qsdfghjklmù
wxcvbn,;:!
tell me thats not weird!!!

a quick update before i leave!
for all of you who actually check up on me regularly, im gonna try and upload pictures onto a computer while im in france! i've set up a photo album at yahoo photos. unfortunately i've never been able to create a hyper link in my entries but the photos will be at

http://photos.yahoo.com/lilcheeseball812

go check it out. i've posted some graduation pictures. kinda fuzzy but they are there! i'll miss everyone! email me while im away!

Friendships
I am one LUCKY gal!
"Why?" you may ask.
Because I have friends everywhere.
Time and distance are NOT the destroyer of my friendships.
No matter how long it has been since I've spoken to a person,
No matter how bad of a friend I've been
I have people that love me and care about me.
Because of all of you, I feel loved.
Because of all of you, I know that I'm NOT alone.
From the bottom of my heart,
Thanks!

MY FIRST TRIP!
so im about to go to bed. . .in prep for my big trip to france! im soo freakin nervous its not even funny! well im gonna be taking pictures of EVERYTHING and loading it up on my computer so be ready to see almost all of my trip! hopefully i'll be able to do it at the same time while im in france! im super excited! its gonna be fun! so if anyone wants anything, email me! i'll try to get it for ya while im there!! wish me luck! love everyone!!

im gonna be a frozen Janesicle!
so im starting to plan out my france trip. my host has been tellng me to bring tshirts and shorts, plus pullovers. i decided to look more into the weather so i checked on CNN for a forecast of the weather in Grenoble. i cant believe what i found!! highs in the low 70s and lows in the high 40s! OMG! im gonna freeze!! i mean, its FREAKIN hot here and it's gonna be cold/cool there! i really hope im gonna be okay! as long as i get better before i leave to france, i think i'll be a-okay!

Perfection
so im thinking last nite's (or more like this early morning's) entry was me rambling on and on about random things! i think im honestly kinda sad after a couple IMs from last nite. i've come to realize that i come to care way too much. . .forget about wearing your heart on your sleeves, its like im just freaking offering it to every passers-by!

its odd sometimes. in my life (22 years and 8 months of living), i've met some people who i've had a fair share of commonalities (is it a word? i dunno nor care!) but never have i felt "WHOA! so many common things!" in my life till now. i've rarely felt that it would be fun to just do nothing. . because im a nothing something doer! LOL its funny because sometimes i think "i may not be perfect but sometimes i wish i was perfect for you" its like that saying. . ."i dont want the perfect guy. i just want the perfect guy FOR ME." where is that guy? i dunno. . .but i think i've met some guys who are pretty close to it. . .

its weird sometimes. the world really is a small place. you meet all these people in your lifetime that you would never probably meet because of all the technology in the world. sometimes you wanna meet them. . sometimes you wish you could meet them. . sometimes you wish you had NEVER met them! (those are the BAD kinds!)

isnt it funny? all this rambling and i have yet to reflect on perfection!

in my search for perfection, i wanna tell him:
I want to walk with you
On a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows
knee high
So won't you try to come

Come away with me and we'll kiss
On a mountain top
Come away with me
And I'll never stop loving you

And I want to wake up with the rain
Falling on a tin roof
While I'm safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you
To come away with me in the night
Come away with me

maybe. . .one day. . .he'll come away with me. . .

Student to Alumnus

words of the nite: INSANE and AMAZING

so graduation was a blast. . .it still hasnt kicked in yet that im not a UT alumnus! INSANE! after five years, 10 semesters, millions of hours at the good UNIVERSITY, im DONE! =D in the famous words of the terminator "i'll be back!" it was nice to see tons of people that i havent seen in a while. . .it was amazing! just having fun, yelling at the top of my lungs, seeing the fireworks (which was freakin badass!). . . the university wide commencement was, in one word, AMAZING! going out for the last time down 6th was quite anti-climatic also. but honestly, it was nice hanging out with one of my good friends that i dont get to see as much. . .im really gonna miss austin.

so despite of weeks of pep talks (self inflicted and by good friends), i didnt get to tell AKD what i really wanted him to know. i made my "last call" attempt on friday nite. i thought it was simple and sweet. NO REPLY. it makes me kinda sad but its okay. i guess it shows that we werent really friends. =/ its sad but there's really not much i can do now. . .well except for try to get back my cd sometime!

ALIEF is amazing. . .i never realized how connected i am because im from alief. . its INSANE! i talked to some guys that my friend gave her number to and it turned out he was from alief. . (he looked TOO DAYAM familiar) it turns out that i recognized him from the good ole speech days. . . AMAZINGLY INSANE!!

so here's the funny, ironic, sad anedote for the nite (i looked up how to spell it online and its not necessarily true to the definition!) Boy meets girl, girl meets boy. girl and boy talk and find out that they have so many things in common, its INSANE! boy (of course)meets another girl. boy and new girl become an item. boy and the OG (original girl, not gangsta for all of those hoodies! =P), things can never be the same. . .OG is sad. . .why does FATE hate her?
so whats the point of the story? the good ones are never near but always find someway to find someone that is closer. . .no matter how great you are!

oh yeah. . im sick again. . .DAMMIT!! >:l

Ramblings allowed me to realize that. . .
. . .maybe im a little bit spoiled.
. . .i cry easily.
. . .im defensive.
. . .im going to miss Austin.
. . .im scared of traveling alone.
. . .im not ready to be an adult.
. . .i care too much.
. . .i care more about your FRIENDSHIP than your LOVE.
. . .i just plain care too much about YOU.

CRAZY KIDSS!!
my kids are crazy! i love them! im gonna miss them like crazy! they dont even know how much im gonna miss them!

Stitch called someone today. . something about his cat drowning in a pool. . .hahaha. . funny but not funny. . .its a good way to piss someone off. . .i'll just have to see. . .

fillers find others to fill them who are closer. . and i am YET left to be alone again. . .its sad. . i dunno what to think about it. . .

think happy thoughts. . .

i just need a primitive fix. . .

COUNTDOWN
6 days
. . .till i say "bye" to austin as my home. . =*(
. . .left to say what i need to say

5 days
. . .till graduation. . .=)
. . .for freely partying in austin

4 days
. . .till i no longer see my kids on a daily basis =**(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIL BRO!
today my lil brother turns the BIG 20!! one more year and he can go drinking with me and i can finally plan a family trip to VEGAS! YEAH!! the collective age of the Vo children now add up to 63! YIKES!! we be gettin OLD!!!!!

Girls Night Out
im glad for girlfriends! amazingly, in my countdown to graduation and leaving austin, i have been fortunate to build my friendships with other girls! its been freakin awesome! =) tonite we went to miguel's! tons of fun! dance (and enjoy spirits) like it was nothing! FUN FUN FUN! =)

test driving an eating disorder
so im still sick. . .im really not bulemic (sp) or anorexic (haha God NO!) but i did do a little bit of throwing up! its pretty bad when you cough so hard that you throw up! ICK! i dunno how bulemics do it! its tiring throwing up!! *shiver* im still hurting now!

HEADACHE! =(

a simple "hello" would make me feel better. . .even a drunken stumble over on my phone number. . .its sad, pathetic, i know, but unfortunately my normalcy is weird because of him! =/

12 days left. . .

when the internal becomes the external. . .
so today i went to work early but apparently was not able to make it for the WHOLE day. . im STILL feeling crappy. . but now i have this horrible headache! i really dont know whats the deal! the teacher i worked with told me i didnt look good. . i told him about my headache and he said maybe its the mold since its really high right now. . who knows. . .im thinking "stupid plants!" furthermore, he did say something else that was interesting. . he told me i havent seem to be the same over the past 2 weeks. . .interesting eh? i think i know why. . .but no reason to say. . .the end of my college days are nearing. . .maybe its that. . . hahaha. . .

having an off day
so its weird but i think things are starting to kick in. i have only TWO weeks left in austin. i dont even have next weekend since i'll be in houston beginning to tote my crap back home! wow! i've never felt so . . i dunno! there are just NO words. . .i have what im calling the "end of the semester/graduation" blues. . . i think what im really have a hard time with is the fact that im LEAVING austin. . .im actually leaving! =/ it'll be okay. . i'll just have to make the $15 i spent on buying "who moved my cheese?" worth it! hopefully it'll work. . . in the meantime, i'll listen to my theme song (liz phair - extraordinary) everyday to give myself a little bit of pep! so much left to do and the days are counting down. . .

its weird how words can do so much. . .

caring by nature, hater by trade
so im not totally okay. . . im not gonna even try to freakin conceal my feelings outside of avoiding cuss words! im freakin hate jerky guys. . .dont expect me to be nice to you if i dont know you! if you're a jerk to me, i'll DEFINTELY be a bitch to you! i have no reservations towards doing so at all! if anything, im slightly in a MAN-HATING phase again. . so if you're a man (meanin IFyou got a PENIS) most likely, im gonna hate ya! (unless i love ya cuz you're too f*cking awesome for words, you know who you are!) i just hate jerks! dont try to keep ME in check cuz i dont give a flying F*CK who you are. . so dont you dare try to explain your executive law cuz im not gonna care!! LA LA LA!! im too f*ckin old for that crap! I DONT CARE!!! so kieep your SH*T to yourself cuz i'd care less what the F*CK you wanna say!!

i realize though tonite i am a caring person. . i took care of some drunk people that i didnt even know tonite. . .its some F*CKED up sh*T i'll tell ya but you know what? when you've been around this long, you gotta show ppl what to do when they're about to get in deep SHI*T. pass down the knowledge that i've learn during my tenure at UT =) im not THAT kind of hater!

just remember:
I HATE GUYS!!
I TAKE CARE OF DRUNKS!
LOVE ME AND I' LL LOVE YOU BACK!
F*CK with ME and you're SCREWED!! =D

the END of an ERA
so i watched friends (a really bad recorded version since i wasnt home when it aired) tonight. . .Ross and Rachel got back together, Monica and Chandler had twins, Joey has Duck Jr and Chick Jr. and well Phoebe is Phoebe. After 10 years with Friends on Thursday nites, i dunno how life's gonna be without it! I guess with Joey, it'll somewhat fill the void!

sometimes, when lookin at tv, its somewhat a reflection of life! i sometimes wonder if i have a Ross in my life and if he'll ever do something like that. . . its so weird how growing up with a tv show really does have an impact on your life! i mean, think about it, for almost half of my life, i've always known of Friends. .. its just like Mr. Rogers dying! a HUMAN TRAGEDY! *sigh*

tonite was nice. . the UTeach dinner that is. it was good to see everyone there. .and the food was DAYAM delicious! OMG! it was YUMMY! what was super exciting was when i found out that one of the other girls graduating is gonna be teaching at the hastings 9th grade center too! its INSANE!! so it'll be super fun! im excited =)

its weird. . .after 5 years in austin, graduation is kinda bittersweet! im happy to be moving on to another part of my life but at the same time, i wish i was doing it hear in austin with friends and extended family. . .im gonna miss this town. its weird because i know i'll always still be here. . .my heart'll be in austin. . .there's so many more things to experience. . .like MORE first thursdays, MORE of downtown, MORE scenary, MORE EVERYTHING. . .

i dunno. . .i think its finally hitting me like a wall! =/

Dexter Freebish "Leaving Town"

the impossible is possible
ive come to realize that i have NOTHING much to talk about now that i've decided to move on! its insane! Jane is quiet!

today was Cinco de Mayo at school. .it was pretty entertaining! they had a whole dealie out in the parking lot. . tons of food, cars and music. .. we did the cake walk. . fun, entertaining. . i had too much cake! sugar was giving me a headache!

oh yeah, if anyone asks, there is such thing as too many chili cheese dogs!

im excited about dinner tomorrow! i need to pick up a camera so i can make kodak memories with people =) the old fashion style too!

Liz Phair's Extraordinary

You think that I go home at night
Take off my clothes, turn out the lights
But I burn letters that I write
To you, to make you love me

Yeah, I drive naked through the park
And run the stop sign in the dark
Stand in the street, yell out my heart
To make, to make you love me

I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
Average every day sane psycho

You may not believe in me
But I believe in you
So I still take the trash out
Does that make me too normal for you?

So dig a little deeper, cause
You still don't get it yet
See me lickin' my lips, need a primitive fix
And I'll make, I'll make you love me

I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess

See me jump through hoops for you
You stand there watching me performing
What exactly do you do?
Have you ever thought it's you that's boring?
Who the hell are you?

I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
Average every day sane psycho

Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
Average every day sane psycho

Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
Average every day sane psycho

Average every day sane psycho

SurVey about Me
havent done one of these in years but i saw it on someones page so i JACKED it!

LAYER ONE
-- Name: Jane
-- Birth date: Aug. 12, 1981
-- Birthplace: Houston
-- Current: Austin but soon to be Houston again
-- Eye Color: brown
-- Hair Color: dark brown
-- Height: 5'3" because i round up!
-- Righty or Lefty: righty (because lefties die sooner!)
-- Zodiac Sign: Im a LeO!

LAYER TWO
-- Your heritage: Vietnamese/Chinese
-- The shoes you wore today: tommy sandals
-- Your weakness: matters of the heart. . .
-- Your fears: too many to name. . one of them is not meeting up to expectations
-- Your perfect pizza: ham and pepperoni
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: being able to be completely independent at all levels

LAYER THREE
-- Your most overused phrase on aim: LOL, hahaha, okie dokie, hehehe
-- Your thoughts first waking up: dayam!
-- Your best physical feature: smile (i think its cuz i do it a lot!)
-- Your bedtime: too late!
-- Your best missed memory: quality girl time

LAYER FOUR
-- Pepsi or Coke: Coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: McDonalds
-- Single or group dates: single
-- Adidas or Nike: Nike
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
-- Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla
-- Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee (i love the caf? de monde stuff!)

LAYER FIVE
-- Smoke: No
-- Cuss: too much for my own good!
-- Sing: always!
-- Take a shower: daily
-- Have a crush: its like a daily routine =X
-- Do you think you've been in love: yes
-- Want to go to university?: UT-austin
-- Like(d) high school: high school was the best. . now im going back =)
-- Want to get married: one day. . .
-- Believe in yourself: sometimes (even though the answer should be ALWAYS!)
-- Get motion sickness: not that i know of
-- Think you're attractive: beauty is in the eye of the beholder
-- Think you're a health freak: haha far from it but i have health kicks!
-- Get along with your parent(s): Yup. . i have a weird relationship with them
-- Like thunderstorms: only when im sleeping. . if im awake, its a different story!
-- Play an instrument: flute, piano. . .wanna learn guitar one day!

LAYER SIX
Ever...
-- Drank alcohol: OMG. . to say now would be a lie!
-- Smoked: yep
-- Done a drug: nope
-- Made Out: yes
-- Gone on a date: sure
-- Gone to the mall: its my american pastime!
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: never been that depressed!
-- Eaten sushi: always craving for the stuff!
-- Been on stage: oh yeah!
-- Been dumped: haha. . biggest heart break so far
-- Gone skating: yep
-- Made homemade cookies: i am the cookie master!
-- Gone skinny-dipping: everyday in the tub!
-- Stolen anything: probably

LAYER SEVEN
Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: yup. . very badly =X
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: there are nites i dont recall. . .
-- Been called a tease: haha. .
-- Shoplifted: nope (only if its different from stealing)
-- Changed who you were to fit in: im always evolving

LAYER EIGHT
-- Do you hope to be married: one day. .
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 2 . . .Sydney or Genevieve (g) and i dunno about boys
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: YELLOW! friends, family and all that i love =)
-- How do you want to die: peaceful and happy
-- Where you want to go to university? UT- austin
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: i will (soon) be a teacher
-- What country would you most like to visit: all of europe. . .france, switzerland, england, italy, germany, ect. asia: vietnam, china, singapore, tibet; S America: brazil, ecudor, chile; Africa: Egypt, Morroco, Madgascar (LEMURS!), the grasslands and deserts! Australia imma be a WORLD TRAVELER!

LAYER NINE
In a guy/girl...
-- Best eye color? anything reflective
-- Best hair color? doesnt matter
-- Short or long hair: short. . i like clean cut
-- Height: tallER is nice
-- Best weight: dependent on their size and the build.
-- Articles of clothing: the good old blue button down shirt =)
-- Best first date location: casual. . .Mozarts =)
-- Best first kiss location: outside, under a clear nite sky

LAYER TEN
--# of drugs taken illegally: 0
--# of people I could trust with my life: i trust many. . but trust FEW with my life
--# of CDs that I own: um. . i dunno. . never counted
--# of piercings: 0
--# of tattoos: ONE! =D
--# of things in my past that I regret: wow. . there are no regrets in life. during reflections, you realize your regrets are just lessons learned.

the weird ways the world works
why is it when i meet an awesome person, they just HAVE to be from another state far far far far away so i cant do anything about it?? THIS SUCKS! but heck, im totally gonna enjoy talkin to them and gettin to know them so i can have a hometown friend when i visit! =)

oh yeah, its a DAYAM small world! hahaha. . . if you wanna know, you gotta ask me!

GAME OVER
after 5 months of constant wondering, i've finally come to a resolution. all it took was a simple summary with the addition of the words "move on." with that being said by a person that i dont even know well, i decided that it was time to no longer wonder, no longer ask. just leave it as is and simply "move on." its said and it kinda sucks. i honestly do want some answers but i think its just better leaving things the way they are. . .maybe knowledge is half the battle, with the other half being acceptance. it might just be easier to skip the war all together and join the festivities!

im a good girl, im fun to be around. . a bit chatty and sometimes annoying but my heart is in the right place. with that being said, i can find someone enjoyable to be around, that cares/likes/loves me as much as i care/like/love them. im envious of those that find that. thats simply what i want in my world. its not gonna happen. . . yet.

the fortune teller was wrong. . .

(oh yeah, i got semi-permantly marked! it looks badass! if i ever do it for real, this is exactly how its gonna look! =D ask me about it!)