Realizations
so instead of being productive today, i spent the day in SA just having fun with my friend and her mini-me. i have to admit, i did have fun just doing whatever but i also realized that i cared too much about him (a person that doesnt really care about me!) its really NOT good! i have i have 5 weeks till graduation! i have 3 weeks before the UTeach banquet. i really dont have much time for anything! many say "distance makes the heart grow fonder." others say "out of sight, out of mind!" i really dont know what to think! i really wanna hope that its the latter but i am talking about myself! it really makes me worry! lets dont even go into the whole "a drunk man's words are a sober man's thoughts" statement! i just wish life was soo much simpler! it would help me in a LOT of ways. if i was a smart person, i would have given up a long time ago. . .and maybe i have and this is just something to keep me busy. but giving up would be i no longer cared to care and thats not me! i know im stupid for wanting to figure this out but i think i need this much! it only makes sense to figure things out before you leave right? it only makes sense to get answers to the plethora of questions! if anything, its not like he has ever read these blogs of mine. . .if he did, he would have known that i have cared for that long. . .