Hi. My name is Jane and I have A problem. . .

first and foremost i wanna wish happy birthday to an Atown HOT momma! she knows who she is! ;)

so my problem. . .i've come to realize (again and again) that i am but an idiot for continuously falling into this trap! i was soo excited tonight after getting a call and anticipating a fun filled night but nooOoOoOOo of course, that would NEVER happen!! stupid stupid STUPID me!! i should know better! it wasnt gonna happen!! i just need to come to terms with this. . .eventually. . .<~~thats what makes me sooo stupid!!

just to add more drama to my life. . . i mean, i've been tryin to figure out the houston/austin thing and the funny thing is, theres not much to figure out, i dont have a job here! sometimes i think "out of sight, out of mind!!" but i also almost think "distance makes the heart grow fonder" so shiet!! either way, im screwed!! i honestly thought tonight that if i was to get away from all of this here in austin, things would be better. . but would i be happier? im not sure. . . .i really dont know. . . but yeah. . .just FYI. . .my name is Jane and i have a problem. . . .