french investigations and alcohol-induced soap operas
so tonight we took our frenchies out to la sixieme rue but i didnt make it there. . . i ended up on 4th street going to places that i normally dont! honestly, i have to admit it was an interesting night. i found out through a frenchie (who im gonna love FOREVER now after tonight) that "KAD" has agrees with the wonderful things when it comes to me but has no idea why we're NOT together. . . i dunno wat to think now!! somehow being scared stepped into the picture too. . . the really scary thing was i was flirting with his friends and totally having fun. . . i was kinda POed that some people thought i was cock-blocking (try explaining that to a frenchie!) i dunno. . .i didnt feel a bit jealous at all tonight! i think honestly its all because i can totally 100% admit that i do like and care about this guy but at the same time, i understand that if i care about him, i want HIM to be happy, however happiness will come to him! if its by another girl, well yeah, good for him! but i have to admit it was weird getting all the attention tonight. its not me! RL asked me why if i would date him and i told him no because there's probably an univeral rule about dating a former's friend! and then the other one, MB, yeah, similar thing. .calls late at night are always BAD FUN! yeah! i dunno. . .we'lll have to see. . . i think the best advice tonght was some total strangers, some women. just enjoy life!!