cranky and frustrated
maybe Big T was right last night. . .a simple solution to all my problems would be a lil bit of S-E-X! hahaha but is that REALLY me? i dunno. . .i think my frustrations stem from not understanding whats going on in my life. . things are so complicated (sometimes self-induced) i think i need to recapture the happier Jane times. . .its been a while i think. . .(oh yeah, on a random note, i accidently stoled a graduating UT rubber duck)

why cant KAD just like me? and if he does, why cant he just say something to me about it? why cant he own up to it and tell me. . the follow conversation would be optimal!

KAD: yes Jane, i like you but im scared?
ME: well what are you scared of?
KAD: im scared of getting hurt.
ME: oOoO. . .is that it?
KAD: Yup!
ME: awww thats soo cute!

so as you can see, my conversation would be quite simple. .. so WHY CANT IT HAPPEN?
TWO REASONS: 1. He LACKS balls and 2. i do too! *hehehe*

okay. . i've given myself a time limit. i must settle all this by the time i get on my flight to france. thats it! no more worries after that because my life as an austinite will be over by then. . i'll only be a visitor to austin. . .=/ boy will i miss things. . but i guess i'll worry about that when the time comes!