in a perfect world. . .
so my friday nite wasnt the way i expceted. . . apparently i have grown up a lot in the past year where sittin around at someones place drinking isnt as entertaining as it use to be. . . so crush has ended!

but weirder things commence. . .since the beginning of the week, things have been running thru my head. .its weird. . .maybe its the time of year, maybe its the time in my life, i dunno but sometimes you get a lot of interesting things from friendships. . . i was really disappointed that i didnt get to see him tonite but it was nice that he messaged me when i got out of the shower and then called me. . .AS WEIRD AS THAT WAS. . .esp at 4am. . just to talk? maybe this is better than i thought. . . i dunno. . .i hope this is what i want it to mean. . but in the mean time, i'm not gonna put all my eggs in one basket. . hehehe . . .gotta be careful! im nice girl dammit, i deserve the best!

in other news, i realized i NO longer have a guy best friend. . .best friends dont give this shiet about downgrading you in rank. . .if bro's go before hos (for guys) and girls before boys (for girls), why cant it just be friends before relationships at all time. . .i dont expect to be #1 in your life forever but i dont need you to FREAKIN tell it to me like that. . . i didnt ask ya about it so dont tell me it! its a dont ask, dont tell policy. . so PLEASE, dont read this shiet to keep updated on my life if you dont care to ask! (my dear TriAngle, if you're reading it, i love ya and i'm not referring to ya!=D)