attempts at normalcy
so tonite i watched the billboards and trista & ryan's wedding. the wedding was nice (what would you expect from something that is almost $4 million!) but it got a little bit depressing. . .and then to top things off, the friends rerun was the episode where chandler proposes. . . =\ if memories serve me right, it was a "happier" time when that episode first came on. but anyways. . .i think all the blabbering on the last couple of blogs are seasonal. . .i mean, its winter/christmas time and its always nice to have someone during this time of year. . . like i kinda wish i had someone to go see the lights with at Zilker Park and stuff. . .i mean, i'm still a hopless romantic at heart even though i might act like a total b*tch or man-hata! LOL. . .when it comes down to it, i wish i had someone to cuddle with, make romantic candlelit dinners for and hang out and watch movies with under a blanket. . .i dunno. . .i'm being silly but i just wish i had someone to be silly in like with!! i think the thing is that its not gonna be happening anytime soon =\ its just not my time apparently. . . maybe eventually i'll meet someone who appreciates me for all the craziness that i am. . . i thought i already knew some people like that but maybe i dont. . .