LOAD OF CRAP!!
ENOUGH!! after last nite, i realized i've had enough! (maybe its because i'm sick and thus a tad on the emotional and whiney side but OH WELL!!) sometimes when you want something so much the first time you come close to it, you just swoop it up and hope that its the way you want it to be!! in the process, you may possibly overlook things that you would never give a second chance! something to think about. . .

also, is it better to look at the world from a cynical point of view to protect yourself or is it essentially bad because then you protect yourself from the good and the bad. . .who knows!!

blah blah blah!