FEAR
for those of you who keep up with my life by reading my blog, the following may be shocking because of the lack of details BUT if you REALLY know me, you'll be able to make sense of it anyways! so the last (almost) week has been EXTREMELY interesting for me, good interesting though. but at the same time, its hit some really deep inner chords with me and thus causing a bit of confusion too! at times, oddly enough, i feel torn between letting myself have something that makes me happy and letting myself be miserable (or not soo miserable but just stay on steady safe ground!) its funny because i havent felt this way in a while. . and its kinda nice. just scary. . .really scary. . but as i quoted before and i'll quote it again, there is nothing to fear, but fear itself. well just have to see how long i'll last before i scare the crap out of myself!