a heart's cry. . .
i didnt think about writing this earlier, only because it wasnt the most happiest of things to think about or something i wanted to post online but HECK! i dont care! soo last nite in my inebriated state sittin outside in west campus, i started to think about the past. . normally not the best thing in the world but it happened! (dayam me for opening up those old files and reading them!) interetingly, i think (and hope) that it was more alcohol than me! i mean, i know that i've grown into a better person over the past 1.5 years! i'm not exactly the same girl anymore, and all for the better, i hope! it just sucks to think that after everything that we went through, there's NOTHING to show for it! not even a simple friendship! but i guess what i need to keep reminding myself is exactly what i told him when it happened! its HIS lost, not mine! i'm freakin AWESOME. . well when i'm nice =X but i'm a good person and therefore i need to be treated nicely! *sigh* the things that happen when you approach another birthday and get a lil older!