First Game of the Season
so today was the first game, UT vs New Mexico State. . it ended up RAINING the whole time we were there. . i'm hoping i'm not sick now but it was a really good game. . .it started out slow . . .like "omg i cant believe this game is televised" slow. . or is that more like how bad it was. . but it eventually picked up! with the efforts of our defensive team and NMSU quarterback (throwing some interceptions) the game was a definite blowout. . .Chance Mock wasnt that great at times but when he found good ole Roy Williams, the game was AWESOME! Mack Brown actually played Vincent Young, our (redshirt) freshman QB who was pretty badass! he ran the ball and with the assistance of Selvin Young, we scored a couple more! soo in the end, UT won 66-7! it was badass but too bad there was soo much rain! Hook'em Horns! its gonna be a great season!!

always NEW firsts. . .and other things!
so today was the first time i've ever been to barton springs pool. . .you would think that during the last four years that i've lived in austin i would have gone to barton springs pool .. but NOPE. . not till today! lets just say, it was DAYAM cold! kinda dirty too from all the stuff that falls down from the trees and stuff. .and kinda scary at times since its slimey and stuff on the bottom since its actually rock bedding! if i only remember from the geology lab what kinda rock it was!

soo this is something that i've been meanin to type but just havent gotten around to it! i think i'm gonna be awesome relationship material at the end of this semester (thats if i'm not already! but who knows, that could be why i dont have a bf! =X) well anyways. . you might wonder "why Jane, what could you be possibly doing/taking this semester thats going to make you better relationship material?" well as some of you may know, after GREAT recommendations, i've finally decided to take Interpersonal Communications. . .after all the bitching from when i was with LSU boy, friends suggested that maybe this class would help me better communicate in a relationship (i would assume) and then i'm taking human sexuality. . you may believe its gonna help me in the obvious but i think theres more to it than that!!! (SERIOUSLY!!) those of you who REALLY know me will understand!

well i'm feeling kind headache-y. . .its from all that passing out from pure exhaustion thats killing me! soo imma get rest for tomorrow. . i mean, its the UT HOME OPENER agst New Mexico State. . .watch for me on TV!!! nite nite everyone!

NEW desktop man
this is old news but i have moved away from John Mayer as my desktop man =/ i might go back when his new CD comes out!! (and he's coming back to town again sometime. . . maybe i'll catch him this time around! but the NEW desktop man is COLIN FARRELL! HOT STUFF! WAHOO!!! =D

The CUTEST Thing in the Whole Wide World!!
as i was leaving campus to go to the bus to return home to my humble abode, i saw what i thought was the cutest thing in the whole wide world! there was this squirrel casually lying down on the sidewike spread eagle on his belly side with his tail up in the air, just chillin. with his paws out in front, he was just lying there enjoyin the shade and most likely the cool pavement. being careful not to scare him, i walked around him so i could observe is calm chilled nature. . he was soo cute! i wish i had a camera! unfortunately, some schmuck walked too close to him and he got up and ran off. apparently this is something that they (the squirrels) do when they're hot. . SOO CUTE!!

First Day of School
WOW! its been a while since i've written in here but here i go!! so today was the first day of school. . .it was REALLY packed on campus! kinda weird because i've gone to school all summer and have become accustomed to an empty campus! so classes werent too bad today. . .my government class is kinda interesting. . .its a foreign policy class so at least i'll be more informed! PBI and Research Methods shouldnt be too bad and that would be the end of my MWF. . .hopefully tomorrow wont be too bad. . im starting to feel old though. . classes are tiring and all i do is sleep after school .. but overall, school's good! welcome to another semester at UT!!

the wonders of queer romance
so they showed an episode of queer eye for the straight guy on NBC tonite and it kinda makes me wish i had cable to wash it on Bravo. it was this guy John who was gettin made over from a country bumpkin to a slick and suave classic hollywood movie star. it was just soo romantic when he proposed to his woman too! and the worst part was that it looked like she was gonna say NO! but thank god she didnt! if she did, i would gladly be there to pick up the pieces! he was a cutie! hehe =X

oh yeah. . if my relay stalker is readin this, BEWARE! i've got the authorities out for ya!!

THANKS EVERYONE!!
i wanted to thank everyone for coming out last nite for my birthday! it meant a lot to me, more than most of you could understand! it was great to see friends, new and old, meet each other and hang out for my 22nd! it reminds me what a great group of friends that i am ever so lucky to have! thanks for all the gifts, i can definitely say i was surprised. i got to be a queen (thanks B!), now have the opportunity to be the badass ghetto fab singer in the shower and batteries for LIFE! (thanks C), i'm no longer breakin the law with Coldplay (thanks L!), i get to fatten myself up with GOOD chocolates and wipe my face with Pooh! (thanks J and S), i get to show what "love is. ." (thanks T) and of course, thats everyone else for just coming out to hang! oh yeah. .sorry i was a light weight last nite. .drinking can never be the same anymore! =-X hehe well thanks again everyone! love you all!!

Happy Birthday to Me!!
Happy Birthday to me! i'm 22 now! wahoooo!! isnt it crazy?? im startin to feel old and fartish! but its okay. . there are people in my life who are older so it'll keep me in check! hehe .. well for those of you who dont know already but will be reading this, birthday plans are as follow:
Trudy's on 30th
Aug 12, 2003
7pm
come and celebrate with me! =)
*happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to meEEeeeEEeee, happy birthday to me!*

a heart's cry. . .
i didnt think about writing this earlier, only because it wasnt the most happiest of things to think about or something i wanted to post online but HECK! i dont care! soo last nite in my inebriated state sittin outside in west campus, i started to think about the past. . normally not the best thing in the world but it happened! (dayam me for opening up those old files and reading them!) interetingly, i think (and hope) that it was more alcohol than me! i mean, i know that i've grown into a better person over the past 1.5 years! i'm not exactly the same girl anymore, and all for the better, i hope! it just sucks to think that after everything that we went through, there's NOTHING to show for it! not even a simple friendship! but i guess what i need to keep reminding myself is exactly what i told him when it happened! its HIS lost, not mine! i'm freakin AWESOME. . well when i'm nice =X but i'm a good person and therefore i need to be treated nicely! *sigh* the things that happen when you approach another birthday and get a lil older!

Realizations
so in my time alone at home and whatnot, i get many opportunities to just sit back and think about things. . .and one thing i've realized just recently is that despite the continual support from my friends, i realized that when it comes to love revisited, its not for me. my realization is that maybe right now i want something trustworthy and famiiar, even though it might not necessarily be right. if that makes any sense. i think i'm a nice person, good natured and fun (except when i'm not fun) and in time, things will happen for me, i'm sure. i guess when it comes down to it, i just miss how things use to be. . .way back when! but i know i'm not gonna try and recapture it the wrong way!! this is essentially just MORE growing up i guess! making my life soo hard!!
another random realization: i have a lot of pent up. . .HOSTILITY!! i dont get it though, like where its coming form and stuff! its just horrible because i have dreams where i'm screaming and pissed off at people. maybe this is a sign for something! i dunno. . .what to do!!

I'm Back!!
after a week of having NO internet service, i'm finally connected and back!! wahoo!!! its been sooo different without internet access! i mean, thats like the first time in like 4 years! i sound like i have a problem. . i think i need to join some anonymous group! LOL! well i think i'm becoming more accustomed to my apt. . the cars driving by arent that bad! its kinda something that you just get use to over time. . i figure once i start decorating my room, it'll feel more "homey" so lets hope thats what'll happen!
another thing thats drivin me nuts is how poor i am!! geez! it sucks! who would have thought! i work and i work and still!! NO MONEY! LOL. . its probably because i spend and i spend! =X
furthermore i think the most annoying thing right now is im in a weird spot in my life! i mean, i'm about to turn 22 (on the 12th. . YEAH!) and i'm feeling all mixed up! its all those high school feelings all over again. . hehe .. good and bad! i guess sometimes i wish i found my nitch when it comes to certain aspects of my life. . i know that patience is KEY. . . blah blah blah! we'll see. . .i'm sure in time everything will work out the way i want it to!
oh yeah! one last thing! i dunno where my stapler is! that's gonna drive me NUTS until i find it!!

oh yeah. . . 2 more things. . i need someone in my life to keep me sane rite now during all this insanity! maybe even just someone to hang out with and have fun with the potential for who knows! and the other thing is i miss my mommy sometimes i wish i had just graduated and gone home =/

i hate WEIRD!!
so lemme explain what that means! so i completely moved into my apt now and i HATE it!! i wanna live in a place thats NOT like that!! its crappy and its loud (but thats partially my fault!) i'm just UNhappy right now with my choices and it sucks!! hopefully they'll let us move out or something. . .i mean, i'm thinkin livin in a place where the foundation is messed up CANT be allowed rite?!? i mean, shouldnt they fix that kinda stuff before you move in? most of all, i miss my roommates. . .TWO friends that i've known for over a decade now. . .its gonna be the first time in three years that they're not under the same ceiling at me. . =( changes are never easy and right now, i'm not doing too hot! but if anything, the overall lesson is "dont go for weird!! go for nice and comfortable!"

New Beginnings
soo i've moved most of my stuff over to the new apt but stayin at the old one tonite because there isnt room for everyone to sleep there. .my brother didnt come up with my mom but instead, my sister and her bf did! lemme say it was quiet a SHOCKER indeed! i think when they leave to go back to houston, i'm gonna spend a large amount of time just decorating and unpacking in my new apt! my goal is to definitely make it look nicer and represent me!! it should be an interestimg time!! i think it'll take some time for me to get use to things but i'm sure i'll be okay. . just for those of you who read this to know, i wont have internet access in my apt until around my birthday because i procrastinated and waited too long to set up my service! because of that, i'll have to wait for a while until they have time to come by and do it! soo if you wanna contact me, just email me or call my cell! i wont have a land line anymore soo if you dont know my cell, just STALK me on the UT website! LOL! when things get settled in, i'll be having a SANGRIA par-tay! just hangin out, drinking sangria and chillin cuz its almost the end of summer! so be good everyone and i'll miss while i'm gone! hopefully i'll make cameo appearances using lab computers! till then!!