STROLLLING DOWN MEMORY LANE

. .is something to do with friends,
So today i met up with some of the gang and its interesting to see where we've been and where everyone is going. . .and as i was listening to what everyone was sayin, i realized that everyone mentioned how they had essentially changed (for the better) during their tenure as an undergrad. it made me wonder whether that had been the case for me? i guess the only way to find the answers are to do some major best friend chattin sometime soon so i can see if thats the case. . .

. . .not by yourself
immediately after i had finished settling into my apt again, the thought "i wonder if HE graduated this spring? crossed my mind. . .in order to answer my curiousity (which i should know is EVIL!), i went to his school's website to look up the list of graduates. . after MUCH scrolling i saw that he didnt. . .i guess he's still plannin on graduating in 5 years with his cousin. . . their graduation was actually this past friday though . .kinda made me sad to think that if he had graduated, i wouldnt have been able to attend his graduation, just like he would have been able to attend mine (had i graduated) but i guess thats the way it goes. . . just more reasoning behind why are fates didnt cross. . .=/

RANDOM THOUGHT
being that most women wear the wrong bra size and after a friends realization that this was the case for it, it makes me wonder if i'm wearing the wrong bra size? hmmmmmmmm .. . .something to do some research into!

AN UPDATE
its been a little while since i've writtne in here and i've been meanin to get around to it but dayam that laziness that persists in my life! soo lets seee:
GEOLOGY so this class as been pretty cool: seeing dinosaur footprints, making new friends, gaining battle scars!! i cant believe there's only like 6 more days left of my lab. . gonna miss the people i've met but summer has JUST begun!
MYSTERY BALLOON GUY so after the 3 day field trip to the burnet area, i ended up being greated by a "welcome home" balloon attached to my car. . .i still think its who i've always thought it was but apparently, still no admission to the deed. . .good or bad? i dunno. . i would just feel better if there was a name behind the balloon!
OH BROTHER! lets say in some families, the genes are FAB! and YEAH. . it is apparent in mr whatswhoisit! haha. . i would eat a cherry that mr. LilBro hands over to me ANYDAY! LOL. . improve versions in the form of 2.0 always works for me! haha. . but hell. . eye candy works anytime. . well at least until my goals are reached!
ENTERTAINMENT saw Bruce Almighty. . it was good. . funny. . ect. . too bad i was really tired and fell asleep during part of it. . . oh well. . .

hopefully more updates and inputs real soon! esp about my CLASS OF 2003 friends!

its been over a week and i DEFINITELY have some things to say so here i go!!

GRADES: sooo i got As in all my UTeach classes (YEAH! GPA boosters!), an A in french (wahoo! evidently je peux parler français!), a B in geology (dayam final and my apathy!) and a C in soc of ed which i kinda expected since i wasnt feeling the class. . but overall a good semester still! not too shabby!

SUMMER SCHOOL so tomorrow is gonna be Day 3 of the geology lab. . i dunno if i can handle 8-5 outside and stuff. . its REALLY tiring! i'm pooped every night! how do ADULTS work 8-5 everyday like this?!?!? major props to my mommy and daddy for holding down jobs and taking care of us kids! AMAZING what you can do with a little bit of discipline! i'm hoping the rest of summer school wont be as exhausting but knowing how things ALWAYS work for me, its probably gonna be KILLER!

THEME SONG i have to be honest but i'm definitely feeling the new Michelle Branch song Are You Happy Now? too bad it wasnt released last year when i could have used it! hehe. . but it still good!! can you tell me to my face that you're happy now? i'm really sad now that i cant go to Earth Day on May 24. . this geo lab is really gonna get in the way of "end of the school year" and "right before summer school" fun. . .esp sicne i'm already there!

FINDING FRIENDS well in the spirit of new beginnings, i honestly have to say that i'm gonna have to build a new base of friends! i think this summer geology lab is gonna do that for me. i've already met some interesting people. . who knew geography majors could be soo fun? LOL. . not that it was an impossible idea. . . but yeah, i'm hoping to make some friendships outside of the loop .. lots of people got other things going on right now ie. boyfriends/girlfriends, graduation, post-graduation plans, basically they've got a LIFE!

well to end on a happy lingering note. . things i miss! BEAUCOUPS of SLEEP! where are you now?

DR JANE IS IN!
so my roommates and i were talking about relationships today (the three of us old farts sittin around talking) and amazingly i like to commend myself on how, despite my lack of relationship experience, i'm able to dish out some pretty badass relatinoship advice! so as an extention of this newly discovered talent, i've decided to be Dr. Jane. Heck! it'll keep me busy while i'm tryin to figure out the trials and tribulations of love, sex and relationships! PLUS, this is kinda what i always wanted to be. . . a relationship advice person, not particularly a sex columnist (we figured that if we were each one of the fab ladies of Sex and the City, i would be Carrie! hehe) but anyways, feel free to use me as a resource or just to see if my advice is as badass as i think it is. . .keep in mind, at the ripe age of 21, my ideas are quite deep and insightful. . .*sigh* all that time thinking has finally paid off!

THE VALUE OF FRIENDSHIP
tonite, Poukie, Triangle and i all had dinner at The County Line on the Lake. . .talk about grubbin' on bbq! ANYWAYS, (this kinda ties in to the previous thought) as we were grubbin', i sat there and quietly remenisced (sp?) in my memories of how long we've known each other and how much i'm gonna miss these two wonderful women! (yes, we're women! i thought using girls would be soo high school! hehe :-P) but anyways, i realized that after 10 years of UPS and DOWNS (and boy were they there!) i love these two people soo much! Honestly, they're definitely be aunties to my kids when they come into the picture. i really dunno what i'm gonna do next year with these two people not always being here for me but if anything, they'll be greatly missed! i know, in my heart, i'll always have their friendship; if not, they can at least rest assure that they'll always have MY friendship. . .and thats probably the best thing i can offer! but for right now, i'm gonna live in the moment, enjoy the last couple of days that i have with them: chillin' in the apt, watchin tv, talking about our lives, ect. but till then, there's always reliving retro this friday with the girls at Polly Ester's! i'll keep ya posted! =)

WEIRD THING! its been a while so i'm kinda surprised but i had a dream about HIM! *sigh* there are many "he's" in my life but ONLY one him. . .soo i had a dream .. and in a way, yeah, it was one of those where he's trying to get an US back together. . same basic concept, just a different format. . .its kidna weird how the world works! this may have happened because of the recent happenings in my life. . .its weird but i think that was one of the times where i had a LOT of security in my life. . .or at least i FELT a lot of security. . .

"though we both know the worst part about it is i would be free when you wanted me, if you wanted me. . "
from Man on the Side by John Mayer
(granted i'm NOT a man, nor am i on the side. . but the quote felt true. . .

so i remember what i wanted to write about the other day but couldnt remember for my life!
its a silly thing but i realized that i need to make new/more friends. . .most of the people that surround me are graduating and then the others, well they have others to do and occupy their time with now. sometimes i honestly do feel alone .. its not like this past fall when i had soo much fun with my friends. i had my going out buddies, my chill friend, a guy to hang out with and then my roommates! soo much to do and so many people to share soo many good memories with! but now? well. . .you get the idea. . .everyone just seems to have better shiet to do and other people to hang out with. kinda makes me sad but i'm feeling neglected who would have guessed that i could feel that way and NOT have a boyfriend! LOL. . haha bad bad BAD joke. . .but yeah .. .just need to make some more or new friends. . .:-/

END OF THE SEMESTER
so today is the last day of the semester. .growth? a little. i wish there was more to it but it wasnt like last year where things were happening left and right and i was startin to adjust to a new life. ironically life is gonna change again this year .. but this time, its because most of my friends, near and far that i love dearly, are graduating and moving on to bigger and better endevours. (on an aside, it kinda makes me wanna go to grad school now too!) but life is all about CHANGES and GROWTH and well, i guess thats what i've been doing .. changing and growing as a person. . END THOUGHT!

oh yeah . .here's another thing that i really wanted to dedicate thoughts to. . . FEAR
apparently is there. . fear of so many things. . .i dont know what exactly i'm scared of the most but it seems like FEAR is a pretty prominent aspect in my life. (funny thing is i was thinkin about this while i was showering earlier tonite. . .but ANYWAYS! :-P) i think i'm gonna try to write more about this next time. . its late. . i should be passed out on my bed in preparation of my last day of spring 2003!