so the UT women's bball team fell to UConn tonite with a score of 71-69. . still a good year for them . .awesome year for UT sports soo far! GO HORNS!

THOUGHTS ON:
being an emotional being
so i'm ruled by my heart and my emotions .. good and then bad. . i think my friend HTP says it best in his AIM info at the moment. . even though i would like to go about my life using my head, i end up using my heart. . *sigh* one day, it'll not be a bad thing (in the sense of emotional angst) to use your heart

getting old
so i admit it, i'm getting old. .even though i'm still 4 months shy of my 22nd birthday. . (its soo weird to think that i'm actually moving on beyond 21!) i cant stay out as late, stay up as long, last as long, ect. . . but at the same time, i'm maturing like a "fine wine" LOL. . .yes . corny but its true. . i'm growning up!! =D

chatting as a form of catharsis
i'm sure i've spelled that all wrong but HELL! i'm not an english major! i think being able to talk to people is a great way to just release any type of emotion that you may have. . i consider myself a social being and therefore i solve my problmes socially. . in this case, i talk it out with total strangers. .

online journaling
a good friend today pointed out how my thoughts being posted online would be beneficial to future suitors (yes, i did just use the world suitor) i'm not sure if this is good or bad. . it does let them into my inner most thoughts that would normally be found in a paper notebook located in my nightstand .. (haha well guarded indeed!) but i figure that most people really dont read what i write in here. . maybe it is beneficial for people to know wats goin on in my head. . heck, it allows less questioning. . good or bad? i'm not sure. . but maybe one day i'll find out!

and last but least. . .
love
so i know i found it once and then. .well . . that was it. . .i dont think i'm particularly sure that it was love anymore. .at least it was for me. . but for him? i'll never know. . but i'm sure, in time, i'll learn to move on beyond the continuous inquiry of what is in that mind of that boy. . because i know i'll never find out. . .maybe in a way, the best way to describe my feelings is the songs "Again" by Janet Jackson and "Miss You" by Aaliyah.. granted i'll never find him again. . .but maybe one day i'll get my answers . .its still a hard road to recovery. . .but i know i'll make it one day. . .but for right now. . i'm gonna sit on the side and enjoy the game. . .